A Productive Evening

So...last night was a good one. As far as getting things done goes. I mowed the lawn and weed eated, and used the blower to clean the deck off. I watered my flower bed and even my lawn too. Inside I dusted, vaccumed, swept, mopped, did dishes, cleaned the kitchen up and even did some laundry. Oh, and I cleaned the bathroom too. I could have gone more in depth and cleaned the shower, but didn't feel like it. At any rate, I got a lot done and felt purdy good about the whole evening. I EVEN read some more of my book and just chilled out.

Yesterday was a WEIRD day for me. I don't quite know if I have had one like that yet. I was pretty sad throughout the day, I would think of Damon and just cry. I looked at his pictures and just kept telling the Lord over and over "look how perfect he was" "we were perfect together", but I realized that God already knew that. That is why I had the pleasure and blessing of being his wife, if only for a short time. It made my life complete for a little over three years and changed my heart for all of eternity. When I get to heaven I am going to thank Jesus and then Damon for all that they accomplished for me. I don't want to be a "take take taker" but I guess you don't "fully" realize things until those things are gone. I knew I was tremendously blessed by Damon and our marriage, but man...I was ABOVE tremendously blessed. I can't even explain the thankfulness I have for my man and our marriage. I HOPE I blessed Damon even half as much as he did me. I mean I hope I fully returned the favor to Damon, he was just soooo much to me that I hope I was that I made that much of an impact on his life as well. Anyway, after my very very rough emotional day, I finally found which way was up that evening at bed time. No, I don't have the answers for my questions about life or where I should go or what to do, but I know this. If I give it to God, I can't go wrong. If I acknowledge Him, the Bible says He SHALL, not might, but SHALL direct my paths. Check out this scripture: Psalm 91:11 For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways. That was encouraging to me. Even though I feel miscombobulated, God IS with me in everything. Cool huh.

Okay...and I admit (thanks to Wendy's comment about Michael sounding like my needy comment self :p) that I am getting a bit jealous of all the comments that Michael is giving bekka while his AUNT whom has bought him many a buffalo wing and dr pepper and has encouraged him in this WHOLE smokin hot pursual deal, gets hardly a hello!! Where's the love anymore! ;)

Okay, peace out homies...oh, I am going to have to get a hard drive enclosure, or pay CompUSA to back up my data for me. Good news is, the hard drive is fine. Mr P just didnt have the necessary hardware to save it. Metro is apparently a bit archaic when it comes to new technology. My laptop is 8 months old and he said the technology was too new for what he had. At any rate I am ready to get this done, cus I am missing my wireless at home :(

I hope lots of people are coming to church tonight to help set up for VBS. peace and love.