So many decisions

I never thought my life would turn out like this. Of course there are a lot of things in life that I never saw coming, both good and bad. The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away, blessed be the name of the Lord. I know I didnt word that just right, but it is what is going through my mind as I write this. I have had a very rough day, but after I called Tammy I felt a bit better and have even eaten a bit more today. I know hard days are going to come and go, but I am so thankful for the easier times. I am really trying to operate my life in the way the Lord would have me too and how I think Damon would be happy with me. There are so many things to consider now that I never would have thought. What to do, where to live...sigh...I just wish he was here. I love him so much. I know it was his time to be with the Lord, I KNOW that, however I miss him and love him and think about him. I am not sure what to type, or how to ask questions...I just need the Lord to lead me and guide me. I need lots of prayer, we all do. The Lord has helped me a lot, I want to give Him thanks for that. I love You Jesus and thank you for your strength, I REFUSE to let you down. I WILL Serve you, I WILL trust you, my heart WILL sing your praises.