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Is anyone out there???

I have had 1 comment since March 27th!! Blog world is slow these days.

Well then!

I went grocery shopping tonight and spent way to much money. How do I do it. I know, I see new things that I want to try like roasted pine nut couscous (wonder if I spelled that right) and hawaiin terriyaki meatloaf seasoning, things like that...that really aren't on your "need" list. Hopefully those things will taste good. My friend is coming over tomorrow after she gets off work, and I think I am going to make her the meatloaf with the new seasoning, and the pine nut couscous, then maybe the vegitable medley, for dessert fresh baked cookies. I am also having some company tomorrow night, so I will be making the fresh cookies for them. In the morning will be super cleaning time.

While I was driving around Boise the other day, I saw these neat little camp trailers. They are called T@b, tab , check them out. They are cool!!

Thats all, good night. :) love to you all.

To sleep in...

I got to sleep in today! Didn't get up until 8:15ish. You can tell when you have gotten enough rest and when you haven't! Praise the Lord

Last night I made dinner for my mom and dad. We had marinated chicken tenders, real mashed potatoes and gravy, green beans, and (at dad's request) Potstickers. It was yummy! The best part is, I made it at their house, so I didn't have to do dishes. :)

I burnt my finger with hot glue yesterday too, :'(. Mom was making a hat for someones 50th birthday, that was all black with black netting over the face, and a black rose. Well she was having trouble finding a hat. So we found a plain black one at Wal-Mart, then got the netting from the fabric part. Well, I glued the netting on for her along with the flower, and burnt my finger. But, that hat is cute!

I should start my new job on Tuesday! I am so excited!

Saturday??

I got up at 6:29 AM!! What?! It's Saturday. Not what I dream of, but this is the day the Lord hath made, I will rejoice and be glad in it. I called my friend Sybil last night to see if she wanted to go train for the marathon this morning, by getting in a couple miles. I told her my house 7am. HA I didn't think she would take me up on it. LOL. I told her I don't run a long time, just til' I am outa breath, she said that would be when she steps out the door! So here I am, sittting and waiting, she called me at 6:29 saying she would be here soon. The thing about Idaho is it is still dark here for the most part. We have light til later in the evening, but it isn't really daylight until 7:45ish. It is COLD too. WOW. They were saying we might have snow. BRRR...Well, have a good rest of the day. May the Lord bless you and keep you, and may He make His face to shine upon you!

Another Mile

Well, as I have said, I have a goal to complete a half marathon. I found one in Boise which is near where I live, that takes place in October of this year. That gives me six months to train. My friend and I did two miles on Tuesday both jogging and walking, then yesterday I only did one mile because there were toooooooooo many people at the place where I jog. It normally wouldn't be a problem, but when I have Honey to carry (around other people and there dogs), my new puppy who is still learning the whole leash thing, and then my parents black lab (acting as Abbys surrogate mommmy) it was a bit much to negotiate. I was so frustrated by the time I got done, I said to myself, no more laps! Today we (the dogs and I) did another mile. Thankfully there weren't as many people this time! I would have liked to have done two miles again, but it was ridiculously windy here. There were even sand storms,and it stung when the sand hit you. Last time I took blackie walking and she got in the water, I took her my parents house after we were done, because I thought she might miss home a little. Well anyway, when I came back she was shivering, so much so her teeth were actually chattering. I felt so bad. I figured she has a lot of hair and she's a black lab, they swim...I guess I didn't even think about her being cold even tho she was still sorta wet. So today with the wind being so high, I worried that she (after getting in the ponds, again) would get too cold so another reason for not going around the ponds for mile two. I like going to that place (the ponds) because you dont have to do a bunch of laps to get a mile, you just go around one BIG loop to get the mile, and to me it seems shorter. Plus, I think it will be good training for the marathon because are there are hills to jog up and down. So after today, that makes three days in a row of jogging/walking. I am happy that I have abby, because she motivates me to exercise. Her breed needs exercise so they don't develop bad habits. I would rather take her jogging than have her dig in my yard, or tear things up, so off we go. I talked to my Grandma today, and she might do the half marathon too!!! She wants to walk though. My goal is to jog the whole way, it may not be fast, but I want to try. I figure if I just keep doing what I am doing, I will be ready. Plus, I looked up a training schedule for first time half marathoners, and I think I can handle that. My first goal, to attain in the next three months, is to run three consecutive miles. After that, I will do the training program since it is a 12 week thing. I feel like I can actually do this, and I am soo excited! I forgot how good it feels to work out for real!

Oui Vei

Please pray for a friend of mine, his father passed away last night. The family had sort of been expecting it as he was 90 and health had started to decline, but that doesn't make it any easier. Thanks.

aww

Abby got her first bath yesterday. My friend Sylvia and I went walking/jogging yesterday at Wilson Ponds. It is a mile around, and goes through different pond areas, and a creek, that you can fish out of. As you can imagine the ponds are not like "oooh aint that a cute little pond" in your front yard ponds, they are huuuuuuge ponds. Well, we went two times around, and it was really good, only 11 more to get me ready for my half marathon in October. Anyway, we took my parents black lab also, appropriately named "Blackie" and Honey. After Blackie gets hot enough, she likes to go down into the ponds. At first Abby didn't know what to think, but after awhile she decided to follow Blackie in. After she dried, she smelled soooo bad. So last night, I gave her, her very first bath! She was so cute, she laid down in the tub and let me wash her, then started drinking the tub water. That's gross, but otherwise cuuute. I am so proud of her. She got her first shots yesterday from the vet, and she didn't yelp or anything. She is doing REALLY well with her potty training. Not a single accident in the house yet, PRAISE THE LORD!! She sleeps by my bed at night, on her blanket on the floor. Slowly she is getting more sure of herself, and her surroundings. Honey is doing great with her too, I tell honey she is still my FIRST princess. We have to work on the protection part though, because as we were at the ponds yesterday, nearly everytime a person walked past us, she wanted to be their friend. I looked up some information on the Queensland Heeler breed, and it says they are very protective with their owners. So maybe as she gets older, that will develop. She is mixed with German Shorthair we think, and i havent looked anything up on them yet. Well, have a good day!

Gueeeeeeesss what?!??!!

Somebody got a JOB!!!! It's me! It's me!!

PRAISE THE LORD! I can almost relax now!

Just Hit

This sudden sadness over things just hit me. I miss Tennessee, and I miss Damon. I miss my past 4 years with him. I am so blessed to be in Idaho, but being here means, I have to let go of there. It just hit me so odd, I really miss him, our time together, and TN, where we started our lives together. Please pray for me about this.

Pictures of Abby

Today

I would ask that whoever reads this, would pray for me, as I have a job interview today. I would really like to get this job, I think. The Lord is the only one who sees the future, but from what I know it would be good, no great. I would work at the same place as momma, just in a different department and possibly making more money...shhh don't tell her. hehe.

I got a puppy too. I know, you are all probably thinking, just what you need...another animal. But I wanted a big dog for protection in this house, and one I could take walking or jogging, and would kind of add protection there too. I am paranoid about such things. My mom and dad's neighbors dog had a litter of puppies on December 8th and there were 11 born. They had two left, one their grand daughter had claimed, and then Abby. They had named her skeeter, but I think she looks like an Abby. Which happens to be their grand daughters name, they thought she would like knowing the puppy had the same name as her. So Abby is almost 4 months old, bigger than when you normally get a puppy, and weighs about 25 pounds already. She is a Queensland Heeler mix. They don't know who the father of the puppies was, but she looks like she also might have some bird dog in her. She is all black with patches of the grey speckles like her momma has. She is a super sweet girl, but a biiiiig wimp. Hopefully as she gets older, she will want to protect me. I had to bribe her with canadian bacon to even get her to come to me at first, she was so scared. I feel sorry for her, I took her away from her momma at 4 months old, and put a leash on her, well she had never had that on her and tooook off running (while still at the place I got her from, inside a fence, thank the Lord) and the leash was chasing her and she started yelping. The poor girl. I felt so bad. So I didn't start her and I off on the right foot. Now, she is settling in, she has a big crate my mom brought over, with a blanket in it, to sleep in. She mainly wants to be wherever I am. So I have sheets on my couch, and floor, and everywhere so she doesn't get things dirty. She doesn't really shed, which is a blessing. I have tried to pull hair off of her (without pulling to hard obviously) and it won't come out, so that is great! Her and Honey were playing yesterday too, so I am glad they are already starting to get along. I know it may sound weird, but I almost feel this dog has a bigger purpose. As I was talking to the lady I got her from yesterday, I learned some things, that I think having Abby might open a door of ministry. Hoping and praying anyway.

I started my diet yesterday, and even exercised, the half marathon I want to do is in October, that gives me 6 months to get ready. So I need to start now. I need to get abby trained on a leash and color so she can go with me. I thought about making a saddle to strap on her, so honey could ride along without getting to tired. :)

Just pray, Lord willing I get this job. I need one soon.

Happy Sigh

Today...was...a sucess!! I got lots of compliments on the food, so that was nice. I worked really hard, and thank the Lord for the blessing of family, friends, and food. I forgot to take pictures of my centerpieces and table set up. But my Grandma really liked it. Cept, after all my sewing of napkins, I didn't want to use mine. Didn't want to mess it up, so I got a paper towel. I had 12 people total in my home, and LOTS of food left over. We had my mom, dad, grandma, grandpa, aunt, uncle, two of my cousins, Duke, Betty, and Nick. Mom and Dad's Neighbors. We prayed, ate, then had the easter egg hunt. Four of us hid the eggs, then my two cousins, and my mom...lol...went and found them. Guess who won, with the most eggs. Momma. Poor kids...lol. Then we came back in to find, dad, duke, nick, and nolan watching the NCAA tournies on tv. Men, Sports...lol. People started to leave around 4ish, and then the afternoon nap feeling came on. We got a few minutes before leaving for Church. I sang a new song tonight. its a old song, but I just got the soundtrack recently. I Will Rest In You, by Jaci Velasquez.

Oh, and Daddy came to church today, praise the Lord. I am believing for the someday!

I missed Damon today, I miss him everyday, but today this morning..I was thinking about him. I love him so much.

Blessing* special family and friends and dinner at MY house. Thank the LORD!

Go Me!!

well...i am having Easter Dinner here at my house. I am just weird I guess, but I like things a little fancy. So, I am making (yes, making) napkins out of this SUPER cute fabric I got at Walmart, that is in great spring colors. Then, I also found these cute little silver buckets that i put that florist foam in, and got some flowers and am making center pieces. Isn't that cuuute?! Will post pics later.

I need to cook, haven't even started. Will put the turkey in tomorrow morning. Making the mashed potatoes (have to peel 10lbs of taters) tonight, the mac n cheese, the waldorf salad, and the Yellow cake with raspberry creme filling and chocolate frosting. Tomorrow, as I said, the turkey, and then the green beans, then gravy. Grandma is bringing her uber yummy home made rolls, my aunt is bringing the cranberry salad. I hope that is enough! It just doesn't seem holiday-ish unless there are tons of dishes. My family really needs this together time right now, and they haven't seen my house yet, so I am hoping it will go great. If the weather is as nice as it is today, we could possibly sit out in my back yard. Who knows...anyway, there are 13 invited. I am excited about this. I neeeeed to get cleaning though.

Today, momma, and our friend Darcy, and me, went out to eat at cook's. They have amazing Cheeseburgers. They were soo good, but I have to be careful as I am trying to eat better. Pray for me, there is a marathon coming in October, well half marathon. I am really interested in doing it. Not only to say I have done it, but for my health. I DO NOT like to run, but, i am going to try, so eating healthy goes along with that!

Happy Easter, He IS Risen!

Todays Devotion

READ: Luke 23:39-43

39And one of the malefactors which were hanged railed on him, saying, If thou be Christ, save thyself and us.
40But the other answering rebuked him, saying, Dost not thou fear God, seeing thou art in the same condemnation?
41And we indeed justly; for we receive the due reward of our deeds: but this man hath done nothing amiss.
42And he said unto Jesus, Lord, remember me when thou comest into thy kingdom.
43And Jesus said unto him, Verily I say unto thee, Today shalt thou be with me in paradise.

And he said unto Jesus, Lord, remember me when thou comest into thy kingdom. —Luke 23:42
Matthew Henshaw got his name into the Guinness Book of World Records in an unusual way. After swallowing a 15.9-inch sword, Henshaw attached a 40-pound sack of potatoes to the handle of the sword and held it for 5 seconds. (This is not recommended.)

Henshaw and others like him have gone to extraordinary lengths to have their names memorialized in the world’s most famous record book. The longing for immortality compels people to do many things—some remarkable, and some bizarre.

The immortality Jesus offers has nothing to do with anything we do. In fact, after giving His disciples the authority to do truly remarkable things (Luke 10:17-19), Jesus said, “Notwithstanding in this rejoice not, that the spirits are subject unto you; but rather rejoice, because your names are written in heaven.” (v.20).

At Golgotha, an unnamed thief believed that message just in time (Luke 23:40-42). He understood that eternal life had nothing to do with what he had done—good or bad. It had to do with what Jesus was doing—giving His own life so that even the undeserving could be welcomed into heaven by God. The important thing is being remembered not by others, but by God. —

Bearing shame and scoffing rude,
In my place condemned He stood—
Sealed my pardon with His blood:
Hallelujah, what a Savior! —Bliss

Our lives matter because God loves us

Happy Anniversary

To My Husband In Heaven:

I love you Damon Broyles. I love you with all of my heart and soul. This day four years ago, was the day I gave my heart and life to you, and I am so thankful the Lord saw fit to bring us together for our time. I am reminded of Ecclesiastes 3.

1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
There was and continues to be a purpose for our "season" and our "time". The Lord taught me so much through you. Your demeanor, your love, your work ethic, your kindness, your longsuffering, your character, the way you loved unconditionally, and deeply. I look up to you, the example you left, as your sister in Christ, and as the woman who loves and was PRIVILEDGED to be YOUR wife. I can't even begin to thank the Lord enough that He saw fit to give me YOU. Damon, I am so so blessed. And, until time is no more, I will be so in love with you. I love you babe.

2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
It was your time to go, I have peace in that. I prayed for you to be okay, I prayed so hard, but it wasn't my choice, nor yours. God's time for you and His will for you on this earth, were finished. I am so happy, that you have made your goal. Though it breaks my heart, I know you received your hard fought for reward.

3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
I have been broke down, I have felt like my heart was ripping out of my chest with pain, but now by our God's great grace and mercy, I am in my time to heal, and my time to build back up. If I had my choice, you know, it would be to have you here, to continue as your help meet, your wife. I would chooose that path in less than a heartbeat. But, I have tried to live in this new life, as you would have me to. I have tried to manage things as you would, treat others as you would, live like you would want me to. I still hurt, I ache for you, for all that you encompassed, but I am trying to be all I can for the Lord and to honor your memory.

4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
I have wept, I have laughed, I have mourned, I have danced...all of those things. How true the scriptures become when you live them. Of course they are always true, but when you live them, they take on a whole new meaning. In the midst of all these experiences, I still think of you. Your smile, your eyes, the way you loved me. I miss you.

5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
March 20, 2004, our time to embrace, as husband and wife. To begin our life together. What a beautiful wonderful adventure. A true blessing. March 20, 2008 it is my time to refrain from your embrace. I have chosen to find beauty even in this time. It is not what I imagined for our life. I could have had 100 more years with you and it wouldn't have been enough. I wish I would have cherished things more, life is so short, and so precious. I am so glad, I know what the time to embrace felt like. I am truly grateful and my life is enriched by knowing what true love is.

6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
As this day represents something so wonderful for our lives, our anniversary, the day we became one, right now it is my time to continue living without you, as the Lord would have me to. I have to cast away for now, but I look forward to heaven when I will get to see you again. I miss you, there is no denying, this day will bring many memories, it will bring happiness, it will bring hurt, but there remains one constant. You are with the Savior you served for so long, and HE is with me, so I am truly still with you, in my heart and in my soul. I love you Damon Broyles, so much.

To my Groom, may you have a wonderful anniversary in heaven. I miss you, I love you, I am always, yours.

Love,
Your Bride.

No Job

Just got a call, I didnt get the job I interviewed for last night. Onto the next one. I have an interview tomorrow afternoon. But its a drive.

Somebody's OLD today!!!

Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday dear Zacchaeus, Happy Birthday to youuuuuuuu!! I love you Zacchaeus, and I am so proud of you! I hope you have an amazing 12th Birthday. I love you very much!



Also...

I am hosting Easter Dinner for my family at my house. Right now, we need together time, and happiness. I hope dinner will accomplish both. One thing I dont have to worry about...rolls, as in dinner rolls. My grandma's, mmmmmmmm....the BEST. She is bringing some. woowoo! I don't really know the menu yet, I have a few things, Turkey (cus mom has a GC for one), mashed potatoes/gravy, rolls, Green Bean Casserole, and probably Dad's corn. He grows his corn then boils it and cuts its off the husk and puts the corn in those air tight freezer bags. YUM. It is so good. There will be lots more, but I am not sure yet. Mom's neighbor gives her eggs from his chickens that we feed, and right now we have about 9 eggs, so I think I might make him a cake with the eggs in it. Cool huh? Oh yeah...they are invited to Easter Dinner as well, so the dessert would be the cake.

Went to the job interview tonight, there were 19 other people there for the SAME job. I have never been to an interview like that before. They introduced the company, and job info to all of us. Gave us ALL a test, timed, then gave us two personality tests, then took us for individual mini interviews. If I make the top five I will go back for a second interview tomorrow. If its the Lords will, it will work out. I am getting to the point, where I am stressing about this job thing. I have literally applied for probably over 100 positions. I have had leads, but nothing beyond that. Along with the other things going on lately in my family, I am getting stressed. Pray for me to learn to let it go, and just do my part, and not worry about the rest. I NEEED to give everything to the Lord. I am so worried about my family members, my job stuff, me...I need the Lord to help me, and I need to do my part by letting it go to Him.

Well, I need to work on getting to bed earlier. It is after midnight here.

I don't mean to be sad, but please pray for me. Tomorrow is my 4 year anniversary...I never dreamed it would be this way, but my God sees the bigger picture, and He has Damon, so I know Damon is happy.

Publicly

I wanted to publicly thank the Lord. Comcast called this morning, they had received my check. WAHOO. Praise the Lord!

So, I don't know how...

...to express myself. I am in a place, where I can't really make known what my family is facing, but I am having a very hard time with it. I really need prayer with what is going on. This is probably the hardest thing we have ever faced, aside from Damons passing. I need the Lord to help my heart. It is broken right now. I know my blogs probably seem whine whine whine lately, or downers...but what we are facing, hurts. Deeply.

I miss Damon. I miss my nephews. I miss Emily. I miss Old Hickory. I miss my time with Damon. I miss my house. I miss my church family in Antioch. I miss saturday night drives with Damon and Delliiiiilah (the radio talk show host). I miss Yvonne. I miss my youth. I miss my deendee. I miss my Uncle. I miss so many things...

Is it wrong to miss?? Does all this "miss'ing" make me unthankful for what I currently have?

I am thankful for having Damon as my husband for three years, two months, and thirty days. I am thankful for the ten months we shared dating. I thankful for my new home. I am thankful to be back around my family. I am thankful for mercy. I am thankful for amazing grace. I am thankful for hope. I am thankful for the job that is coming. I am thankful for my horse Annie. I am thankful for my mommy and daddy. I am thankful for my nephews. I am thankful for Emily. I am thankful for Yvonne and Judy, and Richard, and Andy. I am thankful for sunshine. I am thankful for Honey. I am thankful that I know what TRUE love is. I am thankful for Jesus. I thankful for my Comforter, the Holy Ghost. I am thankful for truth, and conviction. I am thankful for friends. I am thankful for the Wilson family. I am thankful for all good and perfect gifts, from the Lord above. I am thankful to trials and pain, because it teaches me something. I am thankful that the Lord saw fit to bring me unto the full knowledge of the truth, I am so undeserving.

Comcast has lost my check, or the US mail has. I got a collection notice today from comcast, for a check I wrote march 1st. I mailed it when I mailed all my other bills. Yet they havent received it. The bank charges 35 dollars to put a stop check on that check. More than the bill is. I hope I can get that fixed tomorrow.

I want to decorate my kitchen vintage-ey. Old signs, old decor, very old country kitchen ish.

Pray moms neighbors son will come to church for Easter. Oh and pray that everyone will come to Easter dinner.

cya

Todays Plan

Well, today is a big day for my family. Please pray.

Also, I have a job interview today at 3:30 at a Legal Office, a Lawyers office I guess.

ALLLLSO, we have a bunch of running around to do. So, I best get off here. Wow, that sounded hick. :)

Back Home

Well...today was my Uncle's funeral. It is so hard. He didn't deserve to die, he was such a sweet and kind man. It is beyond understanding...all of this. I had a good time with family though. We got about 3 inches up at my grandmothers house, she wanted to take us to the ski resort by her house, so we attempted to drive my car up to a ski resort. We made if halfway before turning around. Not bad, eh. There were a few hundred people in attendance at the funeral. Just to let you know, in my grandmothers town just down the road, the population is 262, in the town where my uncle's funeral was, there is just around 330. So essentially the whole town was there. I have learned, that life is hard, and painful, and not what you want sometimes, but through it all God is RIGHT THERE. I have learned I will never be good enough, but through Him I can reach perfection. I have learned that we need to be thankful for each second, because it only takes one to change your life forever. Most of all I have learned, without God I am nothing, and it is only by His grace I achieve a single thing. I hope you all had a good day, and I love you all, forgive me if I haven't been all to you that I should have been. Help me to be all I can be in the Lord. Have a good night.

Who knows

what to put for a title. I leave for a funeral tonight, the funeral for my uncle is tomorrow.

I am having a rough day emotionally. I really wish Damon was here, he would make it better. I dont even know how to act anymore. I am broken without him. This isn't a pity party, I am sharing my feelings. I feel I can't do ANYTHING right.

Better

I need to do better. Praise the Lord in all things. I kinda broke down today about this job thing, I NEED a job, and I worrying I am never going to find one. Well, not never, but I need one NOW. Had a job interview today, it went okay, but got a call later that they don't need me right now, but are holding my name for the next round of interviews. Being honest, I didnt really want the job, but I want to be okay with taking what I get. I dont want to be to proud to accept something because it is "beneath me". Pray for me to get a dream job, but to have the right attitude.

Pray for my family. The funeral for my uncle is Saturday. We will be leaving tomorrow night to drive down early, so pray for safe travel.

I have a job interview on Tuesday night, i am super excited about it. It would get my foot in the door, to a position I have thought about actually going to college for. Physical therapy!

Bye

Yum

Continue to pleeeeease pray for my family. PLEASE.


Thank the Lord for a succesful evening! Dinner was good!

Down

In all things, praise the Lord. I am sorta bummed, but there must be a reason. The job interview, didn't happen. The girl was out sick, today I got a call that the position was being put on hold for right now. grrr....I NEED a job, that one seemed perfect. i am up for two other jobs right now, ones pay is pretty good, but you have to be willing to work 7 days a week any time. The other I would have to work every saturday, but would have all sundays off, and the pay would be okay. I am willing to take them because I only have two months left until I need to close. I don't want to complain, but I dont want to settle. Please pray for me to take what the Lord has for me, because even if it may not have been what I want, I know it will be perfect. And, who knows...I may get one that I want too...I just want to be able to praise Him in whatever and be satisfied. I need a job sooooon. I have an interview in the morning.

tonight is my dinner party. I am excited but nervous. The only thing I have done is my pie. :( I need to get busy, and the house still isnt finished. BYE!

Please please pray.

I cant go into details...PLEASE pray for my family.

Good news, Bad news

We found my cousin. He is in Oregon, and safe. The situation is not ideal, but I am just glad he is safe. That is the good news.

The bad news is...I got a call from my mom this morning about our neighbor. He is a logger, and has a wood yard he works out of, well one of his dogs got hit yesterday. He takes them nearly everywhere, and as you can imagine if you are a big animal lover, is heartbroken. PLEASE pray for his heart.

It's bad a sad few days, but God is still good.

Update

My Uncle's death was very sudden. Please pray for my cousin, his son, we are trying to find him right now. This was my dad's brother in law. His sister's ex husband. But still very much a part of the family. We are taking it hard.

Bad News, Please Pray

I got a call from my dad about 30 minutes ago, they found my uncle dead today. Please pray for my family, pray for my nephew (the son).
Love
Kasey

Pray

Job Interview in hour and 15 minutes. I am being interviewed for TWO positions. PRAY. please.

New Hair, and Aubrie Day...oh yeah, PTL I found my camera chord!!

Me and my ADORABLE little cousin, Aubrie. :)
A beautiful Idaho Sunset.

Alas, my new hair cut. Yes?

Today...a long, good, day.

Well...this morning started early. I headed to Boise to help a friend take some old furniture to the youth ranch (goodwill type store) and then get the newer furniture they bought from my grandma. Then we at Burger King, yeah...healthy. After that, I met up with my momma at the hair salon, she was getting hers cut. My parents celebrated their 35th, PRAISE THE LORD, wedding anniversary tonight, so I headed off to see if I could find my daddy something nice to wear for the occassion. Momma got all dressed up, she looked beautimous. Dad has nice clothes, but he is generally a jeans and t shirt type of guy, so I figured, from past experience...if I bought him something he would wear it and he could look hot for momma. As their child, that statement is gross, but having been a married woman...when yo man looks hot, well...its just nice. Of course, love makes them hot all the time, but you know what I mean...when you are all dressed up. So I got him some dress slacks on sale, like majorly on sale!! WOW. I also got myself a suit for my interview monday. The whole store almost was 40% off...can't beat that. Unless it was like 50+% off. So then I took the clothes home to dad, telling him this was to be a surprise...only to hear from mom about an hour later saying the shirt is too big. I asked her what shirt, she said the one for dad. I said "that was supposed to be a surprise!!" DAD! LOL! While I was out shopping, I found a fancy shmancy flounsy dress that was on 60% off. WHOA. It was cute, and I felt pretty! So then I got ready, gased my car up, got a car wash, so mom and dad could have a clean ride for their date. HEHE. We ate at The Sandbar in Marsing. YUM YUM My food was soooo good. And, because they were celebrating their annivesary (which isn't actually today, but dad has to work on that day, so...) they gave them two pieces of pie complimentary. IT WAS YUMMY! After that we took somewhat of a scenic trip home, was nice. Now, I am back home, sorta feels like I have been gone all day. Guess who is spending the night? Blackie...my black lab that I rescued when I was in high school. She lives with my parents...and I was thinking of bringing her to live with me permanently since she was originally mine, but, I think my cats scare her. They hiss at her nearly every time, if she comes near. Poor dog. She is so excited when its time to take her back. Guess she doesn't wanna stay here, huh? That was my day!

In other news...what was the other news? Grr, I just forgot.OH YEAH! I feel VERY disorganized. I feel like I prettified things, but left a lot of stuff in boxes that are opened but yet to be unpacked. I need to organized the closets, and put some stuff in the attic. I also want to buy some garage organizer shelf stuff. But, I need a job first before all that. I been noticing spiders around here too! They are harmless i am pretty sure. In Idaho we have lots of wolf spiders, they are mainly creepy looking, and they jump...but not poisonous. But, I may get the house fumigated. And, as Megan said, remember tomorrow is spring forward, so set your clocks ahead.

Guess thats it. night.

I was...

...going to blog. But now I have forgotten about what!

*thinking*

oh yeah!!! I got my hair cut! Like, A LOT! Like...5-6 inches! WHOA. It's cute though. I don't miss my length too much. It still touches my shoulder area...but, it used to be halfway down my back! You should see my pony tail, or lack thereof! If I could find my camera chord, I would post pics. But, I am not going to walmart and paying 2.47 for a CD for a picture of my hair! So pray I find my chord!

OH, and PRAY. Monday, I have a job interview with the job that the temp agency referred me to. It is in the town which I live in, a five minute drive!! It doesn't pay as much as I would like, but not to bad, and the opportunity to grow. Plus, it's in the medical field, so it would open the door for things like medical billing. So, if it's the Lords will, pray I get it!!

It's so late, it's early.

I need prayer to go to sleep earlier. This house is big, bigger than the other one. I guess I try to stay up late to avoid laying in bed and thinking.

I did well in the interview and testing, and the jobs sound nearly perfect. But I have yet to hear back from the agency on either of them. She told me to call tomorrow. The girl that interviewed me is a severe asthmatic, we got into some great conversation, she told me I had made a difference in her way of thinking. She also shared something very comforting, that only another asthmatic could know.

My parents came over for dinner tonight (though its the morning now), so I should say yesterday. I had fun making dinner, but I don't know what it's called. It is my own recipe I guess. :) I put some butter and olive oil into a pan (I learned olive oil raises the smoking/burning point of butter) then added the chicken only searing the outside. I then removed the chicken and cut it into vertical slices. To the remaining drippings in the pan I added bacon, as well as a shallot. After that, I added heavy cream, milk, chicken broth, crumbled parmasan, and thyme to the pan. I put the chicken back into this mixture to finish cooking. I mixed up a batch of jiffy cornbread. After the cornbread had finished baking, I cut it into squares and plated the cornbread. I then topped it with the chicken and cream sauce. We also had salad, to which I added chopped tomato, cilantro, and made a homemade dressing with olive oil, vinegar, thyme, salt, and pepper. I topped the salad with freshly grated parmasan. YUM. I had baked beans as a side to my cornbread and chicken. For dessert we had pineapple cake with cream cheese frosting. Doesn't that sound good? YUM-O.

That's it. Night.

Drum Roll...the long awaited...

Okay...so the pics post backwards...this is a view of my guest room
another view of the guest room.
view three.
Guest bathroom
another view of the guest bathroom
my entry way.
that was my grandmothers chair, and sewing basket, looks cute huh. this is the living room.
living room
table under front bay window.

another view of the living room.

Now...there will be more pictures once I am done. I don't have pictures of the kitchen, the master bedroom, or my office, cus' they aren't ready.
pictures!!!

Pray

I have the job interview screening thing today. Pray, that if this is the Lord's will He will provide me the job through this. I don't want this to sound bad...but I don't want to settle. YES, I need a job soon, like yesterday...but I want a position that is going to fit like a glove. That is just right. Pray I find that.

Watching Aubrie

I am watching my little cousin today. She will be five months old this week. Shew, to you mothers out there, kudos. This is harder than I thought. She is a really good, happy, smily baby. But when something is wrong, it freaks me out. Today I had her bottle to cold, so she wouldn't eat and was not happy. I called my momma. I then called Aubrie's momma, my cousin. She says I am paranoid. I think she is right.She reminded me to warm the bottle up, so its barely warmer than the skin. Aubrie ate much better after that. DUH, I knew about the bottle thing, WHY did i forget? So, right now, we...yes we, just woke up from our nap. I ate lunch super quick, she has about another half hour till her lunch time again. Shes a happy baby, playing on her little mat thing. Whatever it's called. And I am typing quickly. Pray...i have sort of a job screening tomorrow, with a temp agency. Which would put me into a full time job. Love to all.

Better Now

Well....today has turned out be a good day. *smile* I am feeling better. Emotionally. I am not sad and bitter feeling everyday, just sometimes. I will always love and miss Damon. I will always wish he was here, but God has other plans. I must be content. I know God understands me even when I have times of pain and sorrow. I am thankful He loves me through those times.

I just made chocolate cake...i wish I had icing. But it's going good with a glass of milk. My cat is carrying around his toy ball. he is so weird. I love him though, damon brought him home to me...wow, almost four years ago. Its almost his birthday.

Pray for my dinner party, for everyone to come, or atleast some, and the food to be delish.

Sitting here, looking out the window

Being completely honest....I read people's blogs about their love and it makes me hurt. Makes me jealous. I HAD that. No, Kasey ISN'T alright. Just because I have good days where I am laughing and taking part in things, doesn't mean all is well. I still hurt. I take that back, I am alright. But what people who are not widows don't understand (or someone who has lost that kind of love) is that the ache is STILL there so you aren't who you were before. You aren't whole. Yes, I should want other people to be happy, but when I read or see all the sappy love stuff that I used to have with Damon...it seems bitter to me. Maybe I need to pray to be happy for them. I am partially, but the other part it feels like salt in an open wound. Damon and me's four year anniversary is coming up. I realized it last night. I have been so busy, that I haven't had much time to think about Dates. March 20th. I married the love of my life, my bestfriend, the man of my dreams, my miracle, four years ago on that day...March 20th, 2004. I could have had a lifetime with Damon and it wouldn't have been enough. He was my mushy love, my romantic love, my practical love, my whimsical love, my cease the moment love, my best friend love, my godly man love, my make me laugh always love, my learning love. He was my pure love, love as a whole. He is gone to heaven, and I am here without him, and it hurts. I AM thankful that I had him, and the love we shared. That doesn't lessen my pain.

My Menu

First Course:
Wrapped Chicken Bites

Cooked cubed chicken paired with Romano cheese and red pepper, wrapped in bacon, baked until crispy on the outside

Second Course:
Chopped salad with tomatoes, black olives, cilantro, red onion, and shaved parmasan, tossed in Italian.

The main course:
Petite Filet with Gorgonzola and Porcini Mushroom Sauce

*note, I will be making the sauce with mushrooms and without, I think they are gross.

Filet:
1 (4 to 6-ounce) petite filet of beef
Pinch salt
Pinch freshly ground black pepper
3 tablespoons olive oil
Gorgonzola and Porcini Mushroom Sauce:
3 tablespoons olive oil
1/4-pound (about 1 cup) dried porcini mushrooms, soaked and strained
1 shallot, sliced (about 2 tablespoons)
1 teaspoon chopped fresh thyme leaves
1/4 cup vinegar
1/4 teaspoon salt
1/4 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper
3 ounces (about 3 tablespoons) Gorgonzola
1/2 cup mayonnaise
1 teaspoon Dijon mustard


For the beef:
Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F.
Sprinkle both sides of the beef with salt and pepper. Heat the olive oil in an oven-safe medium skillet over high heat. When the oil is hot, carefully place the filet in the pan. Cook until browned on both sides, about 3 to 4 minutes a side. Transfer the steak to the oven and bake until a meat thermometer reads 130 degrees F. for medium-rare, about 5 to 6 minutes. Remove the beef from the oven and let rest for 5 minutes.

For the sauce:
Heat the olive oil in a medium skillet over medium heat. Add the mushrooms and the shallots and cook until golden brown and tender, about 5 minutes. Add the thyme, vinegar, salt, and pepper and continue to cook until all of the liquid has evaporated, about 5 more minutes.

Meanwhile, put the Gorgonzola, mayonnaise, and mustard in a food processor and combine until smooth. Transfer the Gorgonzola mixture to the skillet with mushrooms and shallots. Gently stir the cheese mixture into the mushroom mixture.

Slice the beef and serve topped with a dollop of the cheese sauce. Reserve leftover sauce for another use.

Paired with homemade mashed potatoes

Dessert:
Homemade Apple Pie, with my Deendees Crust recipe. Served with Vanilla Ice Cream

Umm...I don't know.

I couldn't really think of a title, thus...the title. :)

I miss Damon.

I wish I could have gone to Gracie's wedding. Paul's too. :)I guess I should say Gracie AND Paul. Paul and Gracie.

I fixed my chair, pretty good anyway. Yay, and thank the Lord, I was having trouble with the drill so I asked the Lord to help me and He did.

Momma and I went to prayer this morning, at the church. Then we went to savers (similar to Goodwill) and I got some cookbooks and a wok. Then we at breakfast at IHOP. YUM. Then I came home and started cleaning out my pantry. Did you hear that? I have a pantry. HA! Well...in hopes of having the house ready the other day (monday) for when the family came over, I kinda shoved things in closets and the pantry. So now, I need to get them cleaned out. I am having company Wednesday night (hoping so anyway) and want to have the packing completley done.

So now, i am sitting here blogging. Feeling kind of sad. But I need to remember, I am supremely blessed. I wish I had my Damon here. I miss him.