February 22, 2008

My Grandmother entered eternity, peacefully today, February 22nd around 12:30AM.

She was an amazing woman. She tought me my love of cooking, she made my youth memorable and awesome. She loved us and cared for us like you hope grandmothers will. She loved my grandpa with all of her heart, and he loved her back. She made amazing pancakes, tacos, and sandwiches. Not to mention butterscotch pie, thanksgiving and Christmas dinners. Her home was a place of refuge. The memory of her brings comfort and sense of home, of belonging.

I was able to get in to see her Tuesday night around 10PM. She was pretty clear in her state of mind. She told us, that since we had made it back safely, that now she could stop worrying. She told me she would come see my house and she would get better. I told her I would pray that Jesus was right next to her bed, she said He is. Wednesday night I got there again around 6:30PM and she was in and out of being alert. The whole family (for the most part) was there and stayed the night. Sleeping in chairs, on beds in other rooms. We stayed all of yesterday, only leaving to showers or change clothes, or get food. Last night, I had a moment alone with her in the room. I told her I loved her, thanked her for different things she had done in my life, whether it be actual things, or teaching me things, or how she loved Damon. I told her we would be okay, to go if she was ready, that we would hurt but would be okay. Then I sang to her. Precious memories...though I could not remember the words much, so I made up my own version. I sang amazing grace too. It was around 11:30 when I laid down. My uncles woke me up around 12:30 and said, tell Deendee goodbye. She was gone.

I love her, and I will miss her, and last night my heart was broken. Pray for our family. Love you all. sorry i havent been updating much, been kinda busy around here.