Oui Vei

Today has been a day...my grandma hasn't been feeling well at all. I ask that you pray for her soul and her body. She is so sick, it is hard to see her like that, especially as she was a staple of my childhood, and I hold so many fond memories of cooking with her, just spending time with her and at her house. I miss those days. She is weak, and sick, and...neeeeds prayer. Please pray for her.

Pray for me too. I need God's help. I need to hear directly from HIM. I need His hand over me. I want to walk in His pathway, more than breath. I am nothing without Him and want to want HIS will more than my own. Pray for me, please.

I am sad...I don't want to leave my momma, or my family. It is hard leaving. Life is just so strange now.

Pray for a friend of mine, they need the Lord in their heart and life.

Do you realize how much a loving and patient God we serve. Seriously...i deserve NOTHING of what He has given me. I am lost and undone without Him. I praise You Lord Jesus for all that you have done, all that you are, all that you contine to do in my life and for being You. Thank You for loving me, even though I don't deserve you.

I am so ponder-ative. Is that a word? Oh well...g'night. Jesus loves YOU.

Tag

Finally...I am posting i think it is ten interesting things about myself. I am not tagging anyone, because i mainly don't want too right now :). Hope that is okay.

1. I rode my horse today, and it was nice, really nice. It didn't take long to get back into the swing of things and brush up on her training. i love her.

2. My first vehicle was a brown toyota station wagon, and as embarassing as it was in High School, wouldn't mind having it now for a optional vehicle, cus it was a great little car.

3. My first real boyfriend (serious boyfriend) was also my first love, and my husband.

4. I can wiggle my ears, curl my lip similar to elvis, and flare my nostrils. that my friends...is what you call talent.

5. I changed my own oil for the first time, last year. :) GO ME, and thanks to the help of Damon.

6. When in high school, I flew prison guard on air transports of juvenile offenders.

7. My most favorite job ever, was to work at the sale yard pushing cattle horseback. I looooved taht job.

8. I am double jointed in my left pointer finger, first knuckle.

9. I didn't know my right from left until I was about 12 years old.

10. I fell asleep on my horse when I was about 4 or 5. I think she just stood there. I could ride her bareback with no bridle at all, or just a string around her kneck.

Hi

I hope everyone had a great day in the Lord yesterday, that you remembered the Reason for the Season, JESUS, and that you had a great time with family and friends. The Lord, yet again, provided for me. Yesterday was an okay Christmas. It wasn't the best, as Damon wasn't there, but it was okay. I kept thinking about Christmas in Heaven. I am sure Damon was having a better time than me.

I got to spend time with my grandma's, aunt's and uncles, cousins, and friends. I made a new friend at my grandma's retirement home. (although right now she is in the full care dept). His name is Harry. He is 97 years old...I feel sorry for him. He sits slumped over in a chair, all by himself. So I talked to him and found out he was by himself, that he had family all over the place, but none close enough to come share Christmas with him. He sits in his wheelchair with a teddy bear, so I gave him a beanie moose that he could have in his lap too. I even wrapped it, because I wanted him to have something to unwrap. It may sound silly, but you know the excitement of being a kid, and how gift bags just don't cut it, when it comes to excitement level. So I helped him unwrap it, you should have seen the smile on his face. I could so work at a place like that. Maybe I couldn't, I dont know. I could volunteer for sure. There are so many people in this world with no one. I told Harry that God loved him. If I don't get to see Harry again, I look forward to seeing him in Heaven someday, and pray that the Lord would be first and foremost in Harry's heart.

Good night everybody.

My WIsh

My wish for all of you in blog world would be to have a Merry CHRISTmas. May the Lord bless you and keep you and may He make His face to shine upon you! Merry CHRISTmas!

Hola, Como Estas?

I hope i spelled that right. Today and yesterday has been a pretty good day. We went and visited my grandma this morning. She wasn't doing all that great. It was preventable too, that is the aggrivating part. Her sugar dropped to low, so her temp was down, she was weak, and shaky. It took a bit to get back up.

I had coffee today...yum. "Roasted Reindeer" was the name of it. It was yummmy. I dont remember all that was in it, but it was hazelnut syrup, steamed chocolate milk poured over espresso. I think that was it, plus two other flavors I can't remember. YUMMMO

This time last year, Damon was trying to ski. Life can change so quickly. Cherish your loved ones, honor them, care for them.

Well...I hope everyone is having a good day. love, me

Update

I am in Idaho for Christmas. Physically I am feeling better, but still not 100 percent. My back is a good deal better, my breathing only acts up when I think about it. I have never been so sick as an adult, so I have had a hard time with this sickness mentally as well as physically. Wednesday we have had a Christmas dinner party here at my parents house. It was just us and the neighbors. I made my GB Casserole and my Grandmas Waldorf Salad. My dad made scalloped potatoes, and the neighbor lady made this really good asian salad stuff and boston creme pie. Momma supervised set up. She had to work that day. Today, we went to a REALLY small town where my Grandma just recently moved to. I think it said population 262. No stop light at all. I like small towns, but this one was a bit too small. Tomorrow we are supposed to go get our Christmas tree from a friend of our's land. She bought land that used to be a tree farm, purty cool I think. I am getting my hair trimmed, then hanging out with my friend from way back.

I miss Damon. Life just seems so odd without him. I miss my husband. I love him.

Well, I guess that is all for now. I hope all is well. Cya.

Hello

Please say a prayer for me, I pulled some muscles in my back...it's bothersome. I also have some other personal requests.
Continue to pray for Bill.
For our unsaved loved ones.
That we all would be exactly where the Lord would have us.

Merry CHRISTmas.

Shew...

I want to start off thanking the Lord for helping me today...I have had trouble breathing lately...and I was asked to sing two songs for the Christmas part of the service this morning. I was nervous about getting enough air because one of the song requires a lot of breath. I felt like if I sang and was willing...that the Lord would help me. Something to that effect. And, HE did! They weren't perfect, but the Lord helped me. I didn't even get light headed or anything. Thank You Jesus.

Tomorrow is sooo busy. I need to get my Christmas letters ready to be mailed/dropped off. The Science Christmas party is tomorrow. I just got home from walmart.

OH...my car window BUSTED tonight. My WHOLE back window just popped and cracked TOP to BOTTOM, side to side. I was pulling out of the goodman's driveway and heard a pop. Bro Bryon said the cold window with the hot defroster is probably what did it. It shouldn't have done it, but it did. I hope insurance will take care of it.

Walk Thru Bethlehem went so well. It looked SO neat and we had a really good time in the Lord. I am tired...this is me signing off.

Broken Record

So you all may be sick of hearing how I am sick. I really need prayer to finish getting better. I have dealt with a lot of mind issues. I haven't been this sick EVER I don't think...and it has been hard not to fight fears about not being able to breathe. At any rate....I just want to be well. Completely well.

I am having somewhat of a writer's block...

Today, my boss and her mentor's (the people assigned to help each school with math issues) are taking me out to my Christmas lunch. We are going to Monell's. I have heard it is good, but we shall see. It is a blessing they appreciate me. I appreciate them. There should be 10 of us all together, and the food is served family style. I am looking forward to today. :)

I got more of my candles made yesterday...that is what my family is getting for Christmas...hehe...I don't know if Dad and Richard would appreciate a candle though, so I am thinking of getting them something else.

On Wednesday three guys from the paint dept brought me in a Christmas card at work. Letting me know the dept. was still thinking about me. Not only was it a card, but it was one of those home made on the computer cards that had my name and everything. It was so special and I teared up. I love that Damon was a painter, I just flat love Damon.

I need to go get ready for work...so have a good day!

:(

Blog World, PLEASE pray for me. I kinda feel like I am getting sick again. This bronchitis stuff scares me, as it makes it hard to breathe and I don't like that. It is scary to me.

Not much going on...very busy, lots to do. I didn't make it to church last night. Got stuck in traffic about 10 minutes away from the church. I don't know what the problem was. But it would have taken me another 25-30 minutes to turn around and go the other way....thus I didn't make it.

Well, that is all for right now. Please just pray for me to not get sick again, and pray for me to breathe okay. I really don't like this. Please pray.

So Little Time

Is anyone else running out of time? Time to mail Christmas Cards, Time to wrap/buy/prepare presents, time to bake? It just seems there isn't enough time. There is so much to do. I was going to blog more...but I guess I just the desire to do so...so good night. :) Oh and I posted on Damon's memorial. www.damonbroyles.com PLEASE comment if you wish.

Please Pray

Please pray for me to feel better. I need the Lord to help me. I feel much better as far as not being weak, but I the final healing for my lungs. Thanks.

Pictures

My CRAZY cat Tigger, he is so funny.

The Finished Product, not bad huh!

Emily cooking with her melted/cooled butter (I can't believe it's not butter). She thought that phrase was funny. "melted, cooled, butter."

Emily beginning to cook, first step, read direction.

Noah in Emilys stinky mask. And...me...looking blue around the gills for some reason.

This cat cracks me up. He was under the covers, thinking it was abosutely entertaining to chase pieces of kleenex. It made me smile.

New Background

THANKS!!!! To Erika! She found it for me, and it is just sooooooo cute. I am tooting your horn Erika! I am putting a Christmas tree out at Damon's Grave and I found mini Penguin ornaments. THEY ARE SO CUTE!

I came home early today because I wasn't feeling well...I am thinking I might not even go in tomorrow. Only the Lord knows. Brother and Sister Campbell came by and prayed for me tonight, so I am gonna believe on these prayers and wait for my healing from this awful nastiness.

Well, my stuffed crust pizza, not delivery, but digornio, is ready. Thanks for all the comments about my new background. I sincerely appreciate them!!

Back To Work

Well....I am back to work today. I feel sort of puny already, so I may (probably will) go home at lunch. I don't have any sick time until the first of the year. Just pray for me to feel better, please. I am still not breathing to well and that is kinda bothersome. I guess it boils down to feeling tired and worn down very easily. Someone told me I better take it easy because Bronchitis can come back very easily. I have never had it before, so I wouldn't know.

I want to go by Damon's grave today too. I need to post a picture on here so people can see how beautiful it is. As beautiful as something like that can be...if that makes sense. I guess I don't have much to say. It feels good to get out of the house, yet it seems the bed and Little House is calling me to come rest. How funny I am.

YUCK

I have sweat enough to fill buckets here lately...it is very weird....I wake up and I am DRENCHED in sweat. My clothes are literally damp, so is my hair. Emily says that I am sweating out the sickness...I called momma and she said the same thing. So I got on the internet this morning and found a site that says when your body is breaking a fever it will sweat, to the point of making your clothes damp and at night. That is me. I know it is gross, but I guess that is a good sign. I wanted to go to church this morning, mainly because all I have left is the cough. The fever has been gone since yesterday afternoon. Mom and Emily said I needed to stay home, so here I am. BORED. I find it interesting about this whole sweat thing though. I haven't had a real documented (as in I took my temp and saw it was actually high) fever in over four years. Thank the Lord. I don't know if I got sick simply because I don't slow down, or what...momma says I need to slow down. I don't try to rush life, it just happens.

At any rate, I have been in the house since Thursday night. My furthest venture being the trip to the mail box. I am ready to get out. I am ready for civilization again. It is hard being here by myself, though Emily has been here for me and Rachel helped me out too. Jesus never leaves me, but as we have heard before, it is nice to have someone with skin on. I have never had Bronchitis before...it is miserable. It is like a strep/flu combination. YUCK. You all are probably tired of hearing me complain. One more sad part...I have REALLY been missing Damon lately, sadness, pain, tears, PLEASE pray for me. It just hits you ya know, and *sigh*...I dunno how to explain it other than I am missing my husband and my heart feels torn.

Happier things...I just ate Kashi waffles, YUM. with peanut butter, double yum, and water. Sweet stuff makes me crave water. Last night Sis Amy brought me and emily home made veggie/beef soup. MAN, it was sooooooo good. I haven't had beef veggie soup in a long time, my grandma used to make it a lot. But this stuff, with a bunch of saltines, HIT THE SPOT!

Live from my couch, this is kasey, signing off. Have a great day.

98 degrees

is my temprature right now. I am feeling almost downright good, and am ready for somebody to come rescue me from my cabin fever. I can breathe better, my nostrils are dry (yum) temperature is 98 degrees. Now i just need to wash my hair (which hasnt been washed since wednesday (ewwwwww). I could clean the house, but i dont knwo if I am sposed to continue resting. Anyone wanna come to my rescue?? I miss Damon so very very much, I miss my love.

Bronchitis

I have bronchitis...possibly viral bronchitis. Please pray for me, I have fetl AWFUL. My fever has gotten up to 102.3. Emily is here taking care of me...wearing her mask. So germs won't get her. My fever has dropped again a little bit. Thank the Lord.

700

This is my 700th post. Just a FYI. I am home from work today. I didn't realize I was as sick as I was. Last night there was the memorial at the funeral home, that I think I told people about, for the loved ones that passed this year and you were sposed to put an ornament on the tree in their rememberance. I had this cute little penguin all ready to be put on the tree. Well, then I thought I should take my temperature, because one person at work said i didn't have a fever, two others did. I was feeling very dizzy and awfully tired. My temp was 101. BLECH, no wonder I felt awful. So...I was still planning on going because I REALLY wanted to be there for Damon. However, Rachel was on the way with Sara to go with me to the memorial. I didn't want Sara exposed to it, but I didn't know what to do. I called my mom and Emily, they both said I didn't need to go. I called Judy, she said if you have a fever then you are contagious, I will just go up and put the ornament on the tree. I was tore up, I wanted to go. I called Rachel and she said she was still coming. She came here and took care of me for awhile. She went and got me this theraflu stuff to drink. She also got me tyelnol type stuff. I woke up in the night and my fever was down to 99 something, I woke up again and it was back up to 100 something, this morning it is 98.5. Thank the Lord! My chest is realllly congested, ears are bothered, throat hurts, nose stuffed off and on, slight headache, and the fever. I don't know what that is, but needless to say i am home. I must have needed sleep because I didn't get out of bed until 9:45ish. So...just pray for me to continue to feel better. I feel quite abit better today, but my ears and congestion are really bothering me, and my throat is still pretty sore.

Icky Chicky

Damon liked that title....it means, I am SICK. I feel awful. PLEASE pray for me. My voice is going, I am dizzy, I just feel very very tired. Tonight there is a memorial service at the funeral home for Damon, and every other person who has gone on this year. I feel like crying...I need the Lord's strength. It may sound weird, but not having Damon here, makes me feel so much more sick...in a pitiful way. I want him here, but God knows best. I just need help and healing. Please pray. Oh, and thank the Lord, Bill (who I have been requesting prayer for) is feeling better. THANK YOU JESUS!

Joke

It was the day after Christmas at a church in San Francisco. The Pastor of the Church was looking at the manger scene when he noticed that the baby Jesus figure was missing from the cradle. He immediately turned and went outside and saw a little boy with a red wagon walking down the street. And in the wagon, was the figure of the infant Jesus.

He walked up to the boy and said, Son, where did you get that little baby Jesus that's in your wagon?

The little boy replied, I got him from the Church.

And why did you take him? asked the Pastor.

The little boy replied, Well, about a week before Christmas, I prayed and I told Jesus if he would bring me a red wagon for Christmas, I would give him a ride in it!

Prayer

Has anyone been reading/watching the news yesterday and today? That young man who killed 8 people in a Omaha mall, then killed himself...that is so sad. I was reading the comments of the woman who he lived with and it is just so sad. She and her husband had taken him in after he had been kicked out of his home. He of course had gotten into some trouble, and what gets me is she said it was like he was a lost pound puppy who nobody wanted. In his suicide note it said something to the effect that he would not be a burden on his family anymore. Where are we as a society that we can make someone feel like they are a burden to us, especially family. I know that this world isn't going to get better. In fact- if possible, it will get worse, but that is still sad. That a young man was so saddened by his life he would actually TAKE it, and unless God made a way at the end, is now in eternal torment. Oh GOD HELP ME to witness and reach out when you want me to.

I know that was a heavy start to this post, but it just affects my mind and saddens me for those people. I want to be able to reach out when the Lord directs me. He is the only help in a desperate situation.

Please pray for Bill, he really needs the Lord. God knows.

I am getting sick. It is so weird....I haven't had a runny nose, but felt something in my chest when I breathed. This morning I woke up worse...stuffed nose, plus the congestion. I don't have time to get sick.

I got my candle stuff yesterday, I am pretty excited! I hope it turns out well and hopefully I can post some pictures on here of them. I got two smaller sizes of jars, so we shall see how those turn out.

Lastly.... WALK THRU BETHLEHEM!!!!!
DECEMBER 16TH 5-7PM @THE CHURCH OF GOD IN ANTIOCH. COME ENJOY A TRIP BACK INTO THE TIMES OF JESUS' BIRTH!!! 6065 MT VIEW ROAD, ANTIOCH TN

Man, she is soooo cute

My Christmas Tree

Here are some pictures. It is REAL. YAY. I know it is kind of bare, but I dont have a lot of ornaments. Damon and I's tree was much smaller. It is in the garage, and I am gonna bring it in tomorrow I think and put it in the bedroom so it will be pretty at night. I got the C9 lights (the big ones like they used to have way back) but Emily was concerned because they got hot so quickly and heated the needles. So I didn't want anything to catch fire. It feels pretty and neat. This is my first real Christmas tree as an adult. We didn't get real trees I think because we thought it might affect Damon's allergies...and though I'd rather have my wonderful husband any day over some real tree, I think Damon would be happy that I am happy. I am trying to make this Christmas as good as possible. It will not be ideal this year, as he isn't here with me, but i am trying to do my best to make it as good. I know the Lord will help me.

Here is Emily, putting on the lights we decided to take off, cus they got too hot.

I thought this picture of Sara was sooooo cute!

Isn't this precious.

The Hallmark Movie

So I heard some of the ladies at church talking about the Hallmark movie on Channel 5 tonight. I am here watching it. The little girls name on the movie is Hollace...I think that is a cool name for a girl.

Anyway, this morning was weird. I am happy for people that they are enjoying life and their dreams are coming true, but sometimes...it feels so jagged. I know it was God's will and time for Damon to reach his goal, but I MISS him. I MISS our life, I MISS being loved, I MISS being happy. I am jealous of others happiness. I know that I need the Lord to help me with this. I don't wish bad on anyone. I just wish I had again, what I lost. Or had to let go of. I don't want people to forget...people say they will never forget, but when the world keeps spinning and yours has stopped, it sure doesn't feel that way. It isn't like this all the time, only sometimes. Above all of this pain, I want to praise the Lord still, and trust in the way that is Higher, the way He has chosen for me.

On a lighter note, I guess I will be decorating tomorrow evening. I am excited. I had pizza for dinner tonight and am fixing to make some hot cocoa. Ciao