Seeking

First before I get into my daily blogging...
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Now back to the regularly televised progra....uh I mean blog!

This is the day that the Lord hath made, let us rejoice and be glad in it. This is the day, this is the day that the Lord hath made. Have you ever stopped to consider that song. Seriously...this IS the day the Lord hath made, if He hadn't of made today we would not be here. It is literally another blessing from God and one more day to be a shining light for Him in someones life. Just had that thought, and wanted to share.

I am seeking the Lord, I want to be right in all things. Not just a few, if I am doing something wrong I want to know. I say that now, but when the chastising comes it will hurt, lol. Seriously, I want to hear HIS voice and please Him. I am so tired of messing up as far as daily actions. Not sins, just everyday faults. Things I could work on and make better. Be a better wife, co worker, sister in the Lord, encourager...and the list goes on!


Another thing, is it wrong to look nice? I like looking nice, take off 50lbs and I would be looking a LOT nicer and a LOT skinnier *again I degress and back to subject*. My husband says I worry to much. He's right...I worry about some things that are really just more of a mind game to me and end up weakening me rather than it really being the Lord. I am weird....*sigh* For a long time I thought shaving your legs might be wrong and was convinced my first (and only thus far) year at BTI that I was cut off and going to hell. Man I had to fight through that. For a long while I wondered if plucking your eyebrows was wrong so for a long time I stopped (mainly so I wouldn't have to think or worry or stress). Before I used to put a lot of emphasis on my eyebrows. Once I stopped I didn't worry about them other than it made me feel ugly and that I had a plant growing above each eye. Recently I just plucked the little stray hairs at the bottom and each time I do that I have the thought that I am gonna lose the spirit of God forever. NOW, I know NOOOO eyebrow and it's beauty is worth losing out with God. But I wonder, is this just me, is it something for me to worry about, if I went through all this stuff at BTI about shaving my legs and it wasn't from God and this feels the same way than is it not God either. I know where confusion comes from, and it is NOT God. See my mind...*sigh*...messed up. Welcome to my brain and thats only one problem I stress over. I feel soooo much prettier with them lightly plucked and anymore I don't feel prideful with having them look nice cus I don't pluck them NEARLY as much as I used to. I had them pretty thin. Before I came to the Lord and The church I had my heart set on being a make up artist, that is the one thing I KNEW I wanted to do. That obviously all changed and so has my heart THANK THE LORD, but I still like nice neat eyebrows even though I am now bare faced. I don't know....I make myself go in circles. I wonder if God looks at me and shakes His head half in laughter and half in "oh my". Now I will end this convo with saying this...I rarely tell people of the things that plague me as I am afraid of what people say. I have been deeply hurt in the past and I am very guarded with my problems and troubles. I mainly take them to God, so in your advice...please be gentle.

Love to you all.