Manic Monday

Today has started off on the wrong foot. I don't want to be a whiner so I will give a bit of the story and then move on.

Friday was storm day as you know. Well, I noticed our new and very Shady neighbors got two new puppies. They look to be pit bulls. VERY sweet. I also noticed they have no shelter, with the exception one does have a stair way to get under. I have also noticed, there are no food and water bowls out for the little black one. The tenants were gone on Friday and it was raining very very hard, I mean a tornado WAS taking place 15-20 miles away. Anyway...I apparently am not the only one who noticed this abuse taking place because a neighbor across the street ran through the rain and got the little black one to get her out of the storm. I told him there was another, he got her too. At this point I was soaked because I was trying to get my ALL wood dog house onto the truck bed, which on my husbands fixer uper truck the tailgate is almost impossible to get open, wasnt working. I WAS SOAKED. I went and told the woman when she FINALLY got home where the puppies were and why they had been moved. She seemed clueless that they needed shelter. And like she didn't care. I shouldn't have told her where they were at. So she puts them back out on their chord and leaves again while it is still storming! I did manage to ask her if she would like my doghouse, she said yes, so atleast I could give the poor thing a shelter. I have named the little black one Nilah. She is my favorite, for some reason they take better care of the other one. Nilah is beautiful, she's all black whit white boots on the very bottom of her little paws. I have fallen in love with her. They won't feed her so I have been sneaking over and giving her food and water. Half the time she is so thirsty she gulps the water down, and the other half shes starving and almost chokes cus she's eating so fast. It's pitiful and breaks my heart. IF YOU CAN'T love or take care of a dog, DON'T GET IT! Or any animal for that matter. We got home from Church last night and they have moved her somewhere, shes nowhere to be seen outside. I have prayed she will be mine. I love her already, it is worrying me where she's at. I wouldn't put it past these people to fight her as she gets older. I have prayed that they would get saved and take care of her right, I have prayed someone would take her that loves her, if it can't be me. That is why I am down, I have truly fallen in love with her and I don't know where she's at, I called my momma crying. I miss my family too. Other fears started coming, I knew where they came from. I got better then had a awful night of bad dreams about all the situations I just mentioned. Awful awful. That has set the mood for my day. So, I don't know what to do...I have thought about asking if I could buy her. Damon isn't AGAINST the idea I don't think. He knows how much I love her. I just don't know. Pray that God will open the door that I have been praying for Nilah, whether it be me to get her or the owners to change and love her or someone else. To know which door to step through. I know its something so small in the realm of everything else in life, but I can't help my love for animals. I can't help loving Nilah or wondering about her. I want her.

I am going to stop at curves today and see about signing up. Also gonna stop at walmart and apply for a part time job I think. Just to earn some extra money.

Pray for Damon and I that we kind find where we are to be. I am ready to get out of Lakewood, I am ready to settle down and have babies and be a stay at home mom and housewife. Please pray for us.