Packing

blech...I DO NOT DO WELL with packing or in situations where I PERSONALLY have to take charge and organize stuff. Literal stuff, I can handle organizing events, or whatever...but making sense of all I need to pack. I feel sooooo overwhelmed. Where do I start, what do I keep, what do I let go of. Adding to my confusion is not wanting to let go of things that were Damon...it may sound weird to you all, but i still have the bag of cans from the last dr peppers he drank. I have his empty paint cans, his left over 2x4's from building honey's dog house. I don't want to let go of these things...so most likely, they will get packed, or I will atleast keep one of certain things. I have been crying over him soo much lately. I feel like the Lord has given me peace about this, that i am doing the right thing, that He will take care of me...but it is still hard letting go of all that Damon and I shared here, even if it is silly really old empty dr pepper cans that probably still carry Damon's DNA. Laugh if you must...but that is how I think. This is the house where I transitioned from girl to woman. From immature, to atleast hopefully a little more mature, from single to wife, helpmeet. Lately, I have been thinking about how good I really do have it. Even with Damon's loss, there are those who are much worse off out there in the world. God has been good to me, He has a plan that is bigger than what I could EVER begin to imagine. All things work together for our good, IF we love God. I want to be a female version of David, a woman after God's own heart. I want that soooo much. I guess thats my thoughts for now.