Surprise!!

Two big surprises!!
First...I am going to Idaho THIS Saturday through the 14th! My momma called me and said my ticket was booked! YEEHAW!
Second....because of the first surpise I am quitting Wal-Mart much sooner than originally planned! I am leaving this Friday! Have to tell my boss today

The last surprise is not a big surprise and is a bad one. NEVER fly continental. We have had MORE trouble in the FIRST time using them than I have had in all of my flying combined! First they charged someone else's ticket to MY debit card because they "ghosted" my information when booking someone else. So we had to scramble to cover a 296.60 charge we weren't planning on!! Thankfully they fixed that and I am getting 350 dollars worth of credit vouchers for that mess. My nephews (from Damon's Dads Wife's side...confused yet?) are flying back home today. When I booked their tickets I specifically told the guy their ages. 14 and 16!! He said, no problem, they just changed the age qualifications so there will be no charge for them to fly alone. (accompaniment to a minor sort of stuff)My FIL (father in law) gets to the airport this morning and has already dropped them off, when the airport calls him to say they can't fly and are underage. That if they want to fly its a 95$ charge!! FIL calls Damon, Damon calls me, I am on my way to work...WAS on my way to work...now I am on my way to the airport. So...I told the woman what the agent told me. She apologizes but can't change the rules and he must have been wrong. Yada yada yada. Long story short, yours truly pays the $95!!! GRRR at continental. GRRRRRR big time. Thats me growling by the way. GRRRRRRR GRRR GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

Wal-mart people were rude yesterday too. You know a few times I did really good, but a few others times I got ill, but managed to say yes ma'am I apologize ma'am. But you could tell I was frustrated. GRRRRRRR again :)

Okay, today I have a headache again. I was actually headache free until Damon almost took my ear off! Love you babe! Lol....we were wrestling and my ear got caught, I cried...it hurt! We went to cracker barrel last night and I bought something for a friend. I hope they like it. They have about 6 things I want in there. One is this quilt thing that is embroidered its $100 and sooo purty. Then they have this family tree quilt that you actually put pictures in, then they have a shirt I want, a jacket, a purse, and two of those statue things made outa wood. Willow Tree? anyway...they are cute. I could spend so much money there. Oh, and Damon has the truck bug again. I hope it goes away. We went and looked at brand new pickups last night. :( Go away bug!

It was...Interesting

When a certain chain of events happen all in one period of time, it makes things quite interesting. Within a period of 2 hours I had SEVERAL things happen last night. Poor Michael (my nephew) got chicken juice all over him and he said it made him look like he had "pooped out the wrong end" (pardon the grossness). I had asked both he and brittany to hold the two trays of chicken I had just boiled (after it had marinated all day) so that it would be mostly cooked before putting it on the grill. Well apparently some juicies WITH marinade decided to spill all in michaels lap. The poor boy, he was NOT happy. The SECOND thing to happen was TOMMY CAMPBELL! I was out their grilling (at our church we have a big lot and it goes down into the woods so you feel sorta secluded, thats where I was) minding my own business when all the sudden I hear something behind me. I turn around and I freaked and screamed "TOMMY CAMPBELL!!" he said "you have a caniption?" GRRRRRR, YES! I don't do well being sneaked up on. I am a SCREEEAMER! THIRD thing that happened, WHILE Tommy is still out there salivating over my chicken, which he mentioned that he could smell all the way at the parking lot when you pull up. Anyway...third thing, I was turning the chicken and one dropped to the ground. I thought, okay I will just throw it to the bushes, NOOO Mr. Tommy Campbell picks it up dusts it off, and puts it BACK on the grill. I said "YOU CAN'T DO THAT!" He said "why not?! This is medieval times, if they can eat marshmallows covered in mustard, a little dirt isn't going to hurt em'!" *sigh* *rubs forhead* So, a little while later he went back up to the sanctuary and I secretly peeled off all the mess. Sho nuff, he asked me later if I had thrown it away, I said no, I just cleaned it up real good. So...if anyone reading this bit into some wood or leaves...blame him. *innocent smile* He even had the idea to not say anything, then whoever got the chicken, if they handled it with a good spirit to give them $5. I don't think anyone got it though. FOURTH thing to happen. I have three words...CPR...WENDY PAGE! Not only did I dive to save a ball and miss and land on my face (which is no easy task as a fat girl) but I was dived upon and given heart pumps and mouth to mouth by a CLOWN aka Wendy. Okay...she had her face painted as a clown. Anyway, I need to thank her for her heroics, without her I would be....uhh emmm errr..."un cpr'd"! :) Oh and somewhere in this story there is a fifth thing which might qualify as fourth really, but for the sake of not wanting to retype I will make it the fifth thing! I had the brilliant Idea to create a "Jacob's Ladder". It's a game I saw at the Ren. Fest awhile back. They build a rope ladder you have to climb that isn't very well secured at the bottom. It's REALLY hard. Well SHOUT OUT to Brandon shaw for making the thing with all those knots and such, without him I would have had NO idea what to do. AND thanks to TYLER Shaw for helping get that thing put up! We had a two hundred lb weight limit on it. But I was surprised to find it was almost the star of the show. EVERYONE seemed to love it, and wanted to climb on it. Here is the 5th thing part coming in. Someone asked Vicky if she wanted to climb she politely declined and said we would have to end up rescuing her after she fell and was stuck upside down. HOWEVER her adventurous sister aka our VLB leader aka KIM decided she WOULD climb it. IN a skirt. She made it the first level and gave up. She did get stuck in the mean time and we had to hold it still and get her out of the thing. Was quite the sight! 6Th thing to happen. I looove volleyball and I am fairly good at it. I make my mistakes, but for the most part I am pretty good. I serve over hand, more so like what they do in high school , college, and beach pro playing. (I am fo sho not as good as that, but the style) anyway...last night after it was almost dark and most of the players had left my team started doing all these weird antics to try to psych the other team out. We would line up like a firing squad then throw the ball back and forth until one would serve and catch the other team off guard. Well this particular time Chandler had the idea to throw it from Chels to Jordan to him and he would throw it up high enough for me to hit like my serve without me catching it and then throwing it up to serve. It was complicated. Here we go...Chels to Jordan to Cha to oooh here it comes WHAM! Oh my goodness! It was picture perfect and one of my best serves ever and not to mention an ACE! They had no idea what hit'em! GO us!

Okay...so AFTER reading that...I hope you can deduct that last night was NOT A failure but instead a TOTAL success! Hallelujah! ANd thank the Lord, we were given a forecast of 50/50 chance of storms, but God kept the rain away. OH MAN I PRAYED! We were outside and I NEEDED the sunshine! Yay! It was beaaautiful!

Oh and in closing. The 2006 Champion of Costumes for TCOG Antioch, TN is *drum roll please* WENDY PAGE! She was the damsel in distress! She had the castle, the damsel, the hat, and she worked it ALL OUT! *OH SNAP!*

Hollah Photo!

Ain't we so cuuuute. Disclaimer...only nice comments allowed :p


This is my photo I took today, I know....I have a obsession with taking pictures of myself. I got it from Megan :p (love u meg!) I took it with my phone. I just thought it looked neat!

First things first...

Pray.

Pray for:
TCOG
Assembly
Brother & Sister Smith & Family
Sister Dupre and family
Bradley and Family
Erika's health
VBS @ antioch
that I will NOT get another headache, which I have had off and on for over a week'ish
the kids will have fun tonight @ VBS (silently wonders "am I old now if I am referring to teenagers as "kids"?)
Our unsaved loved ones will get saved.
I have some special unspokens
oh...and the strength to make it at wal-mart for ONE more month.

Okay...now for recap of last night. Ever been a total failure? I have. As of July the 26th, 2006...Kasey was officially a failure as Rec. leader. I cried. The kids loved the stuff two years ago, I did something similar and had to basically pull teeth just to get a FEW involved. The last game I had 3 of 15 participate! I was sooo bummed. I spent so much time and money all to go down the drain! It's not to glorify me, I guess I just take it so personal when I put my heart and soul into things. Kim talked to me and made me feel better. But if tonight goes bad...Kasey is taking a break. I can only handle so much rejection in one week.

Tonight is the medieval fair. We are having jousting, bow and arrow shoot, bobbing for apples, jacobs ladder climb, face painting, grilled chicken drumsticks (which are marinating right now), hotdogs....and I think thats it. After that we will probably play volleyball. Hmmm...I need to find the face paint. *worries*

I woke up at 3am with a SPLITTING headache. Everyway I turned it made it worse. Except for lying flat on my back, which I DO NOT like to do. GRRR. I got up, read my Bible, prayed, went back to bed and layed there. I think I finally fell asleep around 4am. I need to get up around 5:15...but that came way to early. So I got up at 6ish. I was a bit late to work, but that's okay.

Anyhoo.....how is everyone in blog world. I hope all is well.

Fear Factor

Be afraid, be VERY afraid...muwaahahahahaha! Guess who's in charge of Recreation tonight? Moi!

Oh the horror Oh the agony!

Am I missing something?

Maybe I am just a total failure. I have no clue, but I REALLY must be horrible at understanding this wife thing! I didn't know that when you got married your opinion no longer mattered, nor your feelings! I thought yes, I submit ultimately, but my thoughts still matter and we work together for a common solution. Maybe I am wrong. Can SOMEONE explain to me how I am supposed to be?! I am REALLY trying hard to just let my wants and desires go and do whatever Damon asks of me. I am REALLY trying. And I am not talking about moving people. I am talking about little things. The man is working constant over time. This week at VBS he is working three of 5 nights of it. I WANT my husband there, yet if I mention that I would rather he be there I make him mad. So...am I NOT sposed to tell him what I want? Grrrr.......I am so mad and so confused at the same time. I love my husband with more than I even know how to describe. I just must be doing something wrong. I am really at a loss. And...if you have advice for me, I appreciate it, but don't sugar coat it. Just TELL me where I am wrong.
Titus 2:3-5
[3] The aged women likewise, that they be in behaviour as becometh holiness, not false accusers, not given to much wine, teachers of good things;
[4] That they may teach the young women to be sober, to love their husbands, to love their children,
[5] To be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God be not blasphemed.
I have the loving my husband part down, I love my animal children. I am NOT a keeper at home. I work two jobs, but am quitting one. I try to be a keeper at home as much as possible. I am for the most part good. I am really working on being completely obedient. So that leaves...Sober, discreet and chaste.

As defined by Webster:
Sober- 1 a : sparing in the use of food and drink : ABSTEMIOUS b : not addicted to intoxicating drink c : not drunk
2 : marked by sedate or gravely or earnestly thoughtful character or demeanor
3 : UNHURRIED, CALM
4 : marked by temperance, moderation, or seriousness
5 : subdued in tone or color
6 : showing no excessive or extreme qualities of fancy, emotion, or prejudice

Discreet: 1 : having or showing discernment or good judgment in conduct and especially in speech : PRUDENT; especially : capable of preserving prudent silence
2 : UNPRETENTIOUS, MODEST
3 : UNOBTRUSIVE, UNNOTICEABLE

Chaste:1 : innocent of unlawful sexual intercourse
2 : CELIBATE
3 : pure in thought and act : MODEST
4 a : severely simple in design or execution : CLEAN, SPOTLESS
synonyms CHASTE, PURE, MODEST, DECENT mean free from all taint of what is lewd or salacious. CHASTE primarily implies a refraining from acts or even thoughts or desires that are not virginal or not sanctioned by marriage vows . PURE differs from CHASTE in implying innocence and absence of temptation rather than control of one's impulses and actions . MODEST and DECENT apply especially to deportment and dress as outward signs of inward chastity or purity.

I hope this doesn't come across as complaining...I'm not, I just need to better understand this.

BTW, Vickys classes have been awesome!

To You:

"Held" by Natalie Grant

Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.

Who told us we’d be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We’re asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It’s unfair.

Chorus:
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.

This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it, let the hatred NUMB our sorrow.
The wise hands opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.

Bridge:
If hope is born of suffering.
If this is only the beginning.
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.
This is what it is to be held
And to know, that the promise was when everything fell, we'd be held

Love you Viv, you are in my mind and on my heart.

Shooooo'eee!

I am EXHAUSTED! Anyone who reads this, plllleeease pray for myself and all involved in VBS, we will need strength! I guess I can mention names of those I know involved, if I miss someone don't shoot.

Megan
Kasey
Kim
Vicky
Les
Tammy
Rebekah
Damon
Michael
Bro Shaw
Sis Shaw
Tyler
Brandon
Countless others, I'm sure.

WE went to new york yesterday, didn't we Sis Smith? Big Apple...well...big apple buffet. OKAY OKAY, so it wasn't new york, but a chinese buffet. It was still good! We were blessed to have the Smith's in service with us yesterday! Yay! I came in late, cus I was scheduled to work from 8-4, but got to feeling really sick. I know this will sound silly, but yesterday was an important day for Antioch. We were having the radio station there, and I actually PRAYED to get sorta sick so I could call in from work and attend. Is that bad? :p...anyway, I didn't get to go to the breakfast thing, but I did get light headed and dizzy and asked to leave early.

I TRIED to prepare by bringing church clothes. I got these two pairs of culotte things that resemble a skirt and make getting down on the floor at work a lot easier and discreet. I guess most of you know I am a skirt lady. Anyway, long story short, I wore my culotte things yesterday and went to church in them. I kinda felt outa place and hoped I didn't look disrespectful, but God knows I tried and He knows my heart. I was TRYING to look lady like and nice for church :)

Tonight is my devotion for VBS. Pray for us. It's Romeo and Juliet...get saved. :)

We didnt leave the church until 7ish last night and I am WORE out. So, peace!

Oh yeah, pray for me. I REALLY wanna quit wal-mart. I am SO tired. I have one month to go!

SO EXCITED about VBS!!!!

Can I get a WOO WOO! I am soooo super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super super suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuper excited about VBS! YAY *jumps up and down, claps* It's gonna rock the VBS PLANET! *sigh*...I know, I sound soo lame.

Everybody who reads this, pray for Megan at work. If they don't get finished today they will have to work tomorrow and she REALLY needs Saturday off to finish things for VBS!

We are going to have JOUSTING! Yay, it's gonna be so awesome. If you are an adult, bring yo kids and COME to the VLB side of VBS. It's so going to rock! We are even having a big grand finale! But, I don't want to reveal to much, else I would ruin everything!

guess what! My car is home again, poor baby! It had to be at the shop for 2 days and 2 nights away from it's familiar surroundings! I am back in one pretty piece again! Sheewww, I hate accidents involving those who are less than sane. *innocent smile*

I have to work tomorrow, well tonight too, and Sunday, then I am off for the whole week! Yay!

Pray for me, I still haven't heard back from those jobs yet, and I just applied for two more today (well after Damon drops the apps off). I am not quiting walmart as I had planned, just got some news from my day job that they are cutting hours. Damon thinks I need to stay on a bit longer to supplement until I can go the full 40 again. Makes sense. Word to the wise...DON't drink a energy drink if you have NOT eaten. Causes REALLY weird things to happen!

I had krystal chiks today! GO me, I didn't even eat all of them or my fries! I'm on a diet, AGAIN. This time though, I don't want to tell Damon, I just want to surprise him after I have lost my first goal amount!

Anyhoooo...see you at VBS, be there or be rectangle...I mean square!

Good Morning

I didn't mean to start anything yesterday with the MPD thing. :( I will post my comment in this post so you can see why I even asked. It's a very tender subject for me. Comment as follows:

WHOA...I was just asking, thanks for all the input! I am not throwing stones...I guess I should state the reason I am asking. It's kind of hard though. My cousin, whom I love dearly got saved when she was 15ish and joined TCOG. She later left to do her own thing. Well, this past year she and her husband both started coming to church and again. They were really blessed of the Lord! Something happened and it was real tough on them. It had to do with her husbands health. They got discouraged really bad, we did all we could do to encourage them, but they eventually gave up. I got a IM from my mom a couple days ago that my cousin had been taken to jail. She apparently has drastic mood changes very quickly and can feel them coming. She got to the point her husband was scared for his life and had to call police. Yesterday she was diagnosed. I still love her with all my heart. I am not going to automatically say she is or isnt one way or another. I guess I had my initial thoughts, but all of your input and views has helped. I have really been praying for her and Josh lately, and am hoping this is the boiling point it needed to come too so they can start the healing again. Pray for her, her name is Marissa and his name Josh. Now you know why I ask...it's not cus of someone I am casting judgement on. It is my family who I have grown up with and am very close to. The only other family besides mom and me who has ever been in the Church...I love her. Please please please pray for Josh and Marissa.
(end comment)
This isn't just about an illness, I am sure it is hard on their marriage as well. I love her so much, they are so young and have so much ahead of them. I really wish I could be there. I am soooo far away. I wish I could just go hold her and let her cry on my shoulder. I know life is tough. I need to move on...I'm starting to cry. Just remember them if you would. I guess maybe I shouldn't have asked, it was just something I have never dealt with before, and it hit home...my family.

On a lighter note...VBS is going to be pretty amazing. Just look at Megan's gray feet and you will know it's going to be suweet! She's got dedication. We were both taping and spraying and taping and spraying. Good job meg! I couldn't do this without her and I hope she feels the same way. I really appreciate the help. I guess we could do it without each other, but it would be a lot more stress and headache! VBS, JULY 24-28 6:30-8:30 or 7-8:30 (not sure, but being early is always good, LOL!)

My ankle has finally started going down. For some reason my LEFT ankle has been swelling. I am keeping it propped up and its helped a lot. I guess maybe from the heat. I don't know what it is, but when a fat person has only a few skinny things on their body (mine would be my ankles and feet) and those things get fat too, it's a bit depressing. LOL So thank you Lord, cus I prayed about it.

I am giving my two week notice to Wal-Mart on Friday. I like the extra mula, but my hubby needs me at home more. I miss him and my home life.

I hope everyone is having a wonderful thursday.

Dooodee doo do doo *singing song*

No, I wasn't talking about doodee. :P just thought I would clarify.

Anybody know what time it is? No...not Sunday School...IT'S VBS TIME!!!!! YAY!
I am soooo excited and hope it all turns out great. Go princess, it's ya birthday!:-D

Work went good last night. I was in charge at work last night again, and with the exception of my telzon problem, it was smooth as a baby's bottom. Well...the night flowed smoothly I should say. :)

I have a question for all of you out there, please respond. If someone is diagnosed with multiple personality disorder, do you think that would mean they are possesed of an evil spirit? I'd like to hear some input on this.

Happy Wednesday!

*trying to THINK of a catchy title*

Drawing a blank on that thought too....

There is sooooo much going on. I can't even keep up with it, I mean, I could try...but then I would go nutso! Not that I have a right to be complaining...cus, well...there are many who have way more on their plate than me. *cough, the smiths and family* *cough, TCOG as a whole*.

I guess most of you know by now that for the past four-ish months, I have been working two jobs. I am working upwards of 60-70hours a week, with the most ever being 78 hours. Well, this coming week is VBS. Megan and I are in charge of Recereation time and we each have a devotion. We REALLY need to get the ball rolling on it. We have the plans, just need the product. She (according to her blog) is getting the costumes she needs done...I have NOTHING, nada, ZILCH! *cry* I work every night but wed night and Thurs night. Here's the problem, I got home from work last night to my husband complaining. I had worked 7-3:30, had to run to the body shop to get my car paint color looked at for the repairs, then go home for MAYBE 15 minutes of down time before going into wal-mart. Where, I work 5-9 on weeknights. Well, guess who they left in charge last night??? You guessed it, ME! GRRRR...and guess what happened...EVERYTHING happened. Everything that went wrong, went wrong. Okay, not literally, but I was so FREAKING out. My stomach hurt and everything, and people WOULD not stop coming to the counter!! Not to mention the guy that was closing with me, WAS TALKING to his friends, who happen to work at Wal-mart too, for like TWENTY minutes. Do you notice how often I am using Caps. YEAH, EXACTLY!!!!! *wipes brow* I almost cried, I got so frustrated I felt like I was about to become a geyser in yellowstone. If you aren't form the north west, then google yellowstone geyser and you will see what I am talking about. Oh....anyway...about Damon complaining. Normally he is very understanding, I mean I am a clean freak. You can ask people who really know me. I don't like things out of their place or cluttered. Well, I haven't had TIME to clean lately, I pick things up...but I need to CLEAN. My only night off is Thursday so I was going to clean then. Damon, my loving husband, has the nerve to get upset at me last night for wanting to relax after I got home from working 12 hours and basically being gone from home for 14 hours. He says I could "come help him" fold clothes. I was SOOOO mad. I feel like a failure as it is, that was rubbing salt in the wound. But, he did apologize and I felt better. I still feel like an awful wife. I guess that was God showing me what to do, the events last night anyway, I had been praying about to keep Wal-mart as a second job or quit. He showed me I can't keep doing this and help my husband effectively. So come sometime this august, I am either quitting Wal-mart or I am going full time Wal-mart and quitting this job. Pray for me. Pray for VBS, pray for my costume and Damon's that I need to find. Where am I gonna find a mideival dress for a fat girl?!!?! Sheesh.

Any comments on what I should sing for AI? I am thinking of 3-4 songs right now. I want something unique. I know Simon won't like me cus I am fat and not blinged up, so I gotta belt it with my pipes to remotely impress him. I need to impress God first, and simon's gonna know that. :)

"pray girls, pray"

Pray for me today, I am not in the greatest of moods. I have a mix of irritation, sadness, depression, etc. going on. Just need prayers. I may blog more later if I am up to it.

Steak, Interviews, and American Idol

Sup Blog Homies?

American Idol 6 auditions- There are two locations I can go to.
August 21- The BJCC, Birmingham, Alabama
September 3- FedEx Forum, Memphis, Tennessee

The latter is the sunday of assembly. I don't want to miss assembly for that. So really my only option is bama. Should I do it? It would be exciting. Need a song though. I really would like to do "His Eye is on the Sparrow" like it was done in sister act (the original). Thinking about asking Brother Jackson to help me.

Interview went okay...Not great, not horrible. I have mixed feelings. I interviewed with the owner of the company. Its an upper scale employment agency, and he has two positions he would like to look into for me. Both would be companies that would hire me full time. The one I am not as interested in is located in Brentwood and the company is based out of the United Kingdom. It starts at $15-16 an hour. It is for a pharmaceutical company that has a new drug they are pushing for FDA approval, the drug is for oncology aka cancer. It sounds okay, the drive is OKAY...everything is okay except you have to dress REALLLLLLLY nice. Those of you who REALLY know me, know that I am a super country girl. I don't even like fixing my hair every day. My favorite shoes are flip flops. I would have to get a whole new wardrobe!....hmmm okay, maybe this isn't a bad idea LOL. The other job which I am MORE interested in is for a moving company. Pay starts at 13-14$ an hour and dress is business casual, which I can handle. It is in a field which I have been working since high school pretty much. Logistics. The thing that bothers me is not so much the jobs, because you are ALWAYS nervous about new job prospects, least I am. It's the fact that I have already been asked to lie about my wage, so they can get me more. And yesterday, the guy was talking to me about scheduling and interview for these companies and just to tell my work that I had a doctors appointment or something to go to, then he paused and said "or personal business". I think he remember I told him I went to church or something. I don't like being told to lie. AND...haha...here's the big thing...he CHANGED my resume objective. My goal so to say. My goal describes me to a T! HE CHANGED IT, because it didn't sound professional enough! What he changed it to is NOT me. I realize he was trying to help, but if i wanted it to say, what he changed it too...I would have done it myself. I just don't know...pray that if it is NOT God's will for me to get these jobs, then I won't. Because this kind of money could talk, and I don't want it whispering in my ear if I am not sposed' to listen.

Now...about dinner. LIP SMACKIN GOOD, if I do say so myself!
I made steak, mashed potatoes, gravy, corn, and garlic bread. YUM-O! The steaks I got were really nice and tender, they happened to be on sale at Kroger which helped and they were CHEAP! One was 2 something the other was 3 something, and I am talking BIG steaks. Damon and I shared one and had plenty! He even said it was better than his apple bees steak. I made a home made rub. I mixed brown sugar, curry, ginger, cinnamon, seasoning salt, garlic powder, onion salt, and black pepper. Then I mixed that all together really good. I took a meat hammer to the steaks lightly to make indentions that the rub could get into, then I rubed the seasoning in REALLY thick on each side. I re did the rub a second time and it looks really neat, almost professional. I baked them in the oven, we didnt have charcoal or I would have done it on the grill. I gotta tell you, that is the single best steak, I have EVER cooked! I usually mess up steaks, so this was a big accomplishment for me! I may know how to bake, but steaks are NOT my area of expertise! I want to do the rub again then cook more steaks on the grill and see if that affects it a bit more. I really want to get into barbecuing. I think it would be fun, and smoking. Not tobacco...meats! lol.I want a smoker. You can build them, I just dont know how.

Well, american idol try outs begin in one month. They have a audition place in Memphis this year. I may try it. :) WE shall seee......THE KING, we shall see the King *breaks out in song*

hollah! Dollah!

Bossa Nova

Thats the name of what I am drinking, or shall I say Brand. It's pure Acai juice with agave and passionfruit. According to the bottle, it has the highest antioxidant of any fruit, even more than passion fruit. Now, I did not go in the store looking for this stuff, but it looked good and I am all about looking young for as long as possible, so I tried it. It's purty good. Tastes like a raspberry who married a blueberry. Acai fruit is a berry found somewhere. But every time I buy a bottle of it, I save a tree in the rain forrest. Which, I think is cool , not so much for the rainforrest but all the wittle baby animals in the trees in the rain forrest. :)

Blog land is BORING lately. I nnnnneeeeed comments people. I am a comment freak, no comments, Kasey is sad. Call me weird, call me looney, call me obsessive...call me what ever you want...cus as I say, you are never, eeeever...EVER ALWAYS going to make EVERYbody happy. But, I still want comments. :)

Job interview...had to go buy nylons. I DETEST nylons. GRRR. I know, I know...lots of the ladies in TCOG think its more lady like to wear nylons, but for pete's sake. It is 95 degrees and a billion percent humidity here, but, I didn't wear them in Idaho either. Thus, I have no excuse. I do wear them when I want to look professional or feel grown up. I am just not a panty hose type of Girl, and God knows that. :) Peace yo

*sigh*

From the title of my post, you will be happy to know I am not sighing out of sadness. More of a sigh due to not knowing which road to take. Hope that makes sense. :)

Have a job interview today. The position STARTS at $13-14 an hour, so I have been told. That is about 4.50-5 more than I am making now. It is right up my ally, except I had been wanting to get out of logistics and into a elderly care profession.

Spoke with sis Kim last night. Meg and I are in charge of Recreation. I am SO excited! YAY...If anyone has any ideas for games or nasty food eating competitions having to do with midieval times, let me know. I am in charge of devotion for MOnday night, Meg got Tuesday night, I know the Yohe's have a night, and the Fox's. I need something amazing. Oh and we are trying to find a theme name. Kim gave me a ride last night to Damon's barber person, (family friend who lives like five mins from church) and we got to talking and she said something about Brother Smith being a man of prayer. I said the name Knights of Prayer, she liked it, so that may be the name. Megan came of with the "knights" part and I thought it had a cool ring! We tried Knights of Jehova, Knights of the Cross, Knights of the Holy Crest, so on. I like Knights of Prayer. Maybe Knights of Fervent Prayer, Or Knights of Righteous Prayer, or even Knights of Righteous Warfare. Ooooh, I like that one. Yay, excited! We also have to make the whole inside of the sanctuary look like a mote, and meg and I are in charge of building a castle. I am thinking of something, but would need a guys help to get it accomplished, it would require a ladder, climbing, and a lack of fear of heights. I possess none of those abilities. :)

Cya!

Lucky, Remember?

Remember the doggy that I named LUCKY, with the broken leg. UPDATE!!!! The next door neighbors where Lucky used to live adopted him! They had to amputate his leg, but now he has a home where he is taken care of and LOVED! PTL!!! I was so happy to see my prayer answered. Apparently animal control DID come out, they left a note on the first owners door saying they would be fined, I guess they decided to just give Lucky away then fix him and keep him. Atleast he got given to the right person! Go LUCKY!

I am tired today. I watched "King of Cars" last night. With Chop Chopper *sings song in head*. At any rate, I stayed up to late. I asked the Lord to wake me up at 5:30 this morning so I could pray and read, I woke up at 5:35. I stayed in bed and prayed. I'm such a lazy bum sometimes. I get so mad at myself.

To add to my failures....today is the local VLB prayer and fast day, guess who ate breakfast. GRRRRRRRRRRR!

I posted a song on my blog. This is dedicated to everyone and everything I love that I can't see as much as I would like to. I miss you.

Breaking News Alert

*****He apologized!!***** Yay Damon! Love you babe!

Photo Albums and Hand Cramps

Right now I am putting together three years worth of pictures. They are all in the photo Album, but I don't have all the descriptions written down beside the pictures yet. Long task, messy handwriting, disgusted, *sigh*. I used to be skinny, well skinny for me anyway. Day two of diet. Doing fairly well though. Man, I get off subject SO easy. ANYWAY, I would love to be able to scrap book. I just don't think I am one of those types though. I guess if I had the time to just waste a day and do it, maybe...but definitely not right now.

Ever got your feelers hurt by someone, and they refuse to apologize because they don't feel sorry for it. My husband is refusing to apologize to me for something he said to me. Not a BIG deal, but it still hurt. I don't know whether to say anything or let it go. He has a habit of not apologizing if he is rude to me. Where I am on the opposite end of the spectrum and apologize until I am blue in the face. Whether I am his wife or joe blow off the street, restitution is restitution. GRRRRR. I shouldn't have to ASK him to make things right by me. I know I am just the lowly submissive wife, but C'MON! pray for us, and pray he will apologize...before I explode...lol.

I looked at my wal-mart schedule last night, apparently Jamison didn't take to heart when I said I wanted only twenty hours a week. I worked last night, tonight, friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday. I really don't know what to do about Wal-Mart. I don't HAVE to work at Wal-Mart. It is a means of extra money for traveling, my 800 dollar dental work coming up, and extra spending money for me. Yet, I don't feel like I am being a good helpmeet at home as far as cleaning and cooking. I am tired and worn out. Yet Damon doesn't want me to quit, atleast I don't think. He says it gives me extra money, but he also says I haven't been happy and that he has mixed emotions about me quitting. I really think he doesn't want me too. I honestly don't know WHAT to do. Advice please.

I have a job lead, starting pay is 13-14$ an hour. Pray for that please. It's in the Logistics field, which I have worked since graduating H.S. basically, and is a field I really wanted to get OUT of. But, maybe God has something else in store. I would really love to work in a retirement home, or one of those traveling care companies for the elderly. The pay isn't good, but I have a feeling I would LOVE my job.

I am so excited for Assembly. YAY! I have our reservations, anyone else staying at Microtel!?!

Well, I must go now, c-yall later! oh yeah, a guy I work with had a $1967 phone bill last night! He got them talked down to $900. BOOOOO cingular! ;p

Totally Ruled!

Convention was soooo awesome. Okay, I had really been praying and wanting to go to Convention and every option I thought of and mentioned to Damon it was NO....no.no.no...nonono. *sigh* Well, my mil (mother in law) had a bridal shower to go to in a town just outside of Chatteeenooga. I decided to drive her, because her MS doesn't afford her the ability of driving to safely. She makes ME nervous. Anyway, we decided we would go to convention for Saturday night. I was excited! Apparently though, there was a bit of a miscommunication, because she planned on staying over night. I didn't know this. When she mentioned this, we were already an hour (ish) out of old hickory and had left late as it was, so we couldn't turn around. Well, this was an answer to prayer that God had already worked out, I just NEVER expected it to come about like this! So Not only did I get to go to Convention Saturday night AND Sunday morning, I got to buy new cuuuuuuute clothes to boot, cus I didn't have anything to wear for the next day. And the skirt I bought, I had been wanting for a long time. And, to top that off, the skirt was even on sale for about 3-5bucks off! Even MEGAN, aka Miss Fashion, told me I looked cute! Go me! So thank You Jesus for caring about even my little requests, and making part of my dreams reality! I appreciate and praise You!

While we were at service Saturday nightm which was amazing, I mean AMAZING, by the way...Sis Shanna, whom I don't really know, came up to me and said (something to this effect) "I don't know why I'm doing this, I have never done this before, but I want to obey God. I need to tell you that, God knows your heart. He wanted me to tell you that". My first reaction was that of a good one yet a bis perplexed. Lately, I have been feeling like my life is up in the air. The prayers I pray for remain unanswered, I feel like "God where is the open door You want me to go through, they are ALL closed". So I felt like when she said that, He wanted me to know He knows my heart, my desires, and He a) cares, and b) is most definitely still there. It was a nice feeling. Then I got to wondering, do I have secret sin or something. I don't know. Now I am worrying about it. I am bothered today. I have had bad dreams this whole weekend. I prayed this morning and felt like I couldn't reach the ceiling with my prayers. Jesus help me. Back to convention. It was most probably the most amazing convention I have been too. The Lord REALLY moved and worked. If you missed it, you missed out. The Lord's spirit was really there in a most convicting, yet comforting way. It was really nice. If I could figure out how to post audio stuff, I could post part of sis Jackson's message. Oh yeah, I looove the Jackson rendition of Farther Along!

At any rate, we got home around 7ish last night. I had Mickey Donalds, watched a bit of TV, and ended up getting to bed after 11. *sigh*. I got up late, but thank the Lord, I managed to read and pray before I left.

Have a good monday.

Called In

I have been called in because my boss is spewing from both ends. GRRRR...today was my day to VEG! You know, you'd think with the whole week off besides Monday, I wouldn't have been busy! WRRRRONG! Tuesday Meg and I went to chattanooga and I left the house at 6:30 only to get home about 12 hours later. Then we CALLED AND CALLED *fiery darts with eyes* Brad and Rachel about the fireworks show at the fair grounds. Never got a hold of them. Ended up going without them, later spotted their vehicle, but they were no where to be found. Funny enough we parked side by side with bro Roger and his wife. The ones that go to Portland, can't remember their last names. He sells cars. ANyway, that was fun and a blessing to get to talk to them. A dog got scared and ran past us at 90mph poor thing, I went after it to try to catch it, the owner came up close behind me. He ended up running down this hill after it, I hope and pray he found it. I prayed hard he would find it. The poor dog still had its leash on it. Another guy came up to Damon looking for his JRT that got scared and ran off. My doggie braved it like a trooper though, wasn't even scared. Go HONEY! So, needless to say Tuesday was BUSY.

Wednesday, I got up late, but ended up meeting Damon for lunch, then came home and cooooooked a whole bunch. Made him a Dr Pepper cake, that is OH MY GOODNESS so good! Then church, we had 6 people show up in the front. Their were some children and 3 adults in the back. I don't know what was goin on. But one of the best services I have been in in awhile. Sis Maudie spoke.

Thursday, yesterday...I got up late again (so nice) and cleaned the house and cooked some more. Didn't even get to eat my dinner because I had to be into Wal-mart by 5. Another busy day. So today was soooo gonna be my chill and watch TV day. A day to finally relax. I check my phone and I have a message from work. My boss is sick. I decided to not call and just not let him know I got the call. I didn't want to come in. He called again....*sigh* I picked up. I ended up coming in. *whine*. More $$$ on the paycheck, but still. I am missing food network :) I know...you are thinking "ooooh, you poor wuss, get over it". I guess with working two jobs, I am just ready for the break. I miss my family.

Love you all.

Can't help but feeling...

...somewhat lonely. *sigh* Way to start out a post huh.

Tonight is the last night of my double shifts. I have the rest of the week off after today. From BOTH jobs. Except I found out I work Thurs night at Wal-mart. This will be nice to have a break, ya know?!

I am hoping to be able to trade some shift with someone in hopes of making it to atleast part of state convention. I could see the smiths! :) Pray girls, pray. Boys too, if you want :P

I had hoped to make a trip with Rachel to Gatlinburg this week to just hang out. NOw that I am working that night, doesn't look like its going to happen. Only available day is Tuesday, July 4th. I don't know if anyone would want to go do anything with me or not. Damon's going fishing with Bro Jerry, I was told. I guess he didn't care whether I would like being left alone or not. Yes, I am still somewhat perterbed at him for that. Not that I mind him going fishing, but it is a holiday that's sposed' to be special and with family and he is the one who I want to spend it with. Now I am left by myself all day, again. Grrr. So Meg or Rachel, if you want to do something on the 4th, call me. You both should have my number. Hey, I may even call you. *sigh* Feeling left out.

I am trying my babies outside today. Damon doesn't want them in the house anymore (the cats). I hate this. I married a non true animal lover. He loves honey and the cats, but theres people who love animals then theres people who are TOTAL softies to any kind of animal. Shoot, I think possums are cute. I'm weird like that. I will probably bring them in tomorrow night if they seem to scared by the fireworks. Course' the dumb cats probably won't care, I mean they lie in the middle of the road for rests and naps. Dumbies. Maybe they will get squished and I won't have to hear it anymore :'(. I'd rather have them put to sleep then give them to just anyone. I'm tired of hearing Damons complaining. Sad to wish they would die so you don't have to worry and fret anymore huh.

I am trying to stick it out til' August for Wal-Mart. Yesterday I was ready to quit. THey had me work 28 hours from Thurs-Monday (today). That's a lot for me when I work a regular 40 at this job.

I really want a baby, Damon doesnt want one yet. I can see his points, and sometimes I want to wait more. I have goals to reach before a baby, but that doesn't change that I want one. I want to have a house before a baby, be financially in a place where I can afford to stay home or atleast only work part time, lose some weight, cus I know I will gain some and I hear your body is never the same. I want a girl first, I want to use old fashioned names. I love Lily, Rose, Lucy, Ruthie, Mae. I think they are ladylike.

I am a roller coaster, a dreamer, never sit still type person. I am always wanting to go go go. Growing up mom would talk about how I was always ready to be on the road for the rodeos and she couldn't wait to get home. I was content to just travel all the time. My husband is much like my mom, he doesn't like to go go go. I wonder why we were paired together sometimes. Not that we shouldnt have gotten married, nothin like that, but we match so completely on most things. Then on this sort of stuff, I have a day dreamers spirit, and he is the cloud that rains on my fun. Not complaining, just wondering, am I weird? Am I wrong to be like this. I can't help it. I love to travel. Maybe Damon is supposed to help make the possible dreams come true and the impossible ones he is sposed to help me let go of. Who knows. So much on my mind lately.

Everyone pray for the TCOG, while you pray for that, please say a small side prayer for my not as important personal request. I would appreciate it. I know I am not the only one with problems and there are much more important ones out there. God cares about it all though. love and hugs.