ugh

I need to post pics from TN. I had such a wonderful, sad, amazing, ponder-ative-time. I guess its weird to compile those words in describing one thing/place/event, but its how I feel. I looove TN because its a part of my life with Damon. I have many wonderful memories of our life together. Yet, it also reminds me that he and I are no longer together. He is in Heaven, and I am here. So, it brings many feelings, but in the end I am so blessed and grateful (greatful?) that I was able to go. NOW, if I could get the motivation to go get the camera chord and post some pictures. :)

I rode my horse again last night. I was riding her bareback again, with just the halter and leadrope. Well, I was riding her back to the pasture on the pavement, mind you she was a bit more energetic this night, and I was carrying two
FLYMASKS (one very similar to this, and another which also had ear protectors, these keep the flies/insects out of the horses eyes, and it is made of a net material that you can see through) when I remember to pray that I would be safe...my horse is tall and the pavement is hard. So while trying to stay on and carry stuff aboard my uber fun, pretty, and extra energetic horse, I noticed she started to stare at a certain area. Meaning...she was a little bit anxious as to what it was...meaning, she could scare at it and dump me on the ground. Well, sure enough, her fears came to life and she sort jumped to the side from whatever she was trying to avoid. Thank the Lord, I held on and didnt fall off. I love being with her and taking care of her, its wonderful. Thank the Lord for my horsey.

Well, I haven't heard anything on the job :( so I guess it isn't good. Oh well, though I REALLY wanted it, it must not be God's will for me right now. I hope you all had a great day.

Thoughts for Today

When all the pictures of our life are laid on the table,
they will reveal our recurring words and actions.
What story will they tell?
It’s worth considering as we make our choices each day. — David C. McCasland


God has given life abundant—
Live it fully every day;
Though our time on earth is fleeting,
He goes with us all the way. —Hess

It’s not how long you live that counts, but how you live.

Look up Psalm 90

We all have things were are going through right now. Some may seem bigger than others, but to us each of our trials are of huge importance. God be with all of you right now.

Job Interview

I had my job interview today. It seems it went fairly well, the benefits and pay are wonderful, but God knows. Do you ever feel like you RAMBLE?!?! grrrrrrr It's in education, like what I did in Nashville, so thats cool, because I enjoyed it for the most part.

Pray for me, I need direction in a certain area of my life. The Lord knows, I just want to be in His will.

Still need to post pics...right now, I am headin to momma and daddy's.

Quick Trip

I was blessed to be able to return to Tennessee for a short weekend. It was Em's big birthday bash, so I decided to surprise her. Will post pics on that later, I am tired...and its 1 am and I have to be to work in 7 and a half hours. I am so so so thankful I got to go this weekend. I missed my nephews, I wish I could have seen Michael. But it was good to hug and kiss Zac and Noah. I got to see my lovely sister in law, and bound to make you smile brother in law, my wonderful Mom in law, and Dad in law....I got to see the people I used to work with. It was just a great short weekend. I visited my sweet Damon's grave. Being back there brought back so many memories...good, but hard memories. I truly miss my husband. I got to see my amazing church family. I love them, and was thankful to be back with them for a service. My and Mo hung out for a while, that child...young woman....she is so funny. I am just so happy I got to go to tennessee!!! It was bittersweet. They buried Lolo today, and I feel for Melvin and her son and the whole family. Just pray for them. I drove the old ways to different places, it's hard to believe Damon isn't right there with me, well, me there with him. I love him, always. I love you Tennesee, and all those in that state that hold a piece of my heart. God speed.

Laundry Queen!

I am SO proud of myself. HA! There are a few things, i.e chores, that are not my favorite. Laundry and dishes. I am thankful I have laundry to wash and dishes to eat off of, so I don't want to complain too much, but those are just two things that aren't my cup of tea. I don't mind cleaning bathrooms, vacuuming, dusting...so on. But last night and today I have folded about 4 loads of laundry. GO ME. What is actually weirder, or would it be more weird?? Anyway, is it was almost relaxing. WHOA...I know something strange is going on now. Seriously.

Abby and I went on another bike ride tonight, she did really good. I am proud of how good she is becoming. She still gets a bit sidetracked over barking dogs, but for this only being her second biking trip I say she is doing pretty good. I realized the other night, I haven't taken a picture of my horse and put it on here. So after Annie gets a bath, everyone will get to see her. I love her a lot. Last night, I brought her from the pasture to mom and dad's and brushed her down, then got her tail and mane all combed out, picked her hooves out so they were clean. Yes I "picked" her hooves out. The tool you use is called a "hoof pick" and they look similar to THIS . After that I sprayed her down with fly spray so she wouldn't be bothered so much, then I hopped up on her bareback. Okay, so I didn't hop...I used the fence....but I got on her bareback and rode her around a little bit then rode her back to the pasture. I was so proud of her, because I haven't ridden regularly for so long, she is very heard bound with the other horses. If she is away from them, but can hear them whinneying (is that how you spell that) she acts silly and prances around, wanting to get back to them. But you could tell she was enjoying the time I was spending on her, and even behaved herself as we were walking towards her buddies. Thank the Lord for my horsey. I have a picture of Damon on her, I think its on her, or maybe its Butchy, our other horse. :)

My birthday is coming up soon, I will be closer to thirty than twenty...ugh...I am thinking 26 is going to be a hard age for me. Every day is a blessing from God, I guess its just a mental thing of feeling "old". I am wanting to go somewhere for my birthday, not sure where though.

Oh and please pray, I have a job interview on Monday in the education field, which is what I did in Nashville. It sounds like a great job, God knows my needs, just pray all goes well. I am thankful to have a job right now, but I am struggling with it, and God knows my heart. I want to be thankful for everything I have, not complaining.

Please pray for Lolo's family, especially Melvin and her children. God is able to keep them and hold them right now. There are many others suffering right now, Buster's family, Lance's Family, Megan and Ricky's Family, just pray for them all. Love you guys.

Tuesday Night

What to blog...what to blog...

Well, I got Damon's bike all fixed up. Not that it was messed up to begin with, but it hadn't been ridden in a long time and so mom found a guy on craigslist who does bike repair. He fixed the tires and basically tuned it up. So tonight, Abby and I had our first training session. I eventually want her to be one of those super cool dogs that runs beside their master on the bike, flawlessly, and gets a great work out and pays attention to the road ahead not getting sidetracked and stopping at everything. Tonight started out a bit rough, but by the end of the short ride (one time around a little loop in my neighborhood) she was doing GREAT!! I was super proud of her.

Mom gave me her bread oven, so tonight, if I have time, I may give her a try. I have made home made bread before and it was good, but Damon and I didn't eat bread quick enough so it molded. He didn't like bread that had been frozen, since I don't mind bread that has been frozen I can make a bunch up and freeze it. Thereby saving mula. Which Damon would be proud of me for doing. :) I am also going to attempt biscuits, because i had the grand idea, which I stole from Rachel I believe, to make breakfast sandwiches that I can freeze, then just pop in the microwave in the mornings.

thats it for now...goodnight. Jesus loves you and likes you!

Prayer

Please pray for me, if you read this.

Becky's Game

Though, not really a game, just a interesting thing to do...enjoy.

Memories:

1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that we had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot; anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses.If you leave a memory about me, I'll come to your blog and leave one about you. Have Fun!

Friday, YAHOO!

Friday and Saturday are my two favorite days of the week. Tonight we had dinner with family friends, they grilled ribs, and had beans, salad, and oriental salad (momma made)and juice water. I am a new fan of juice water. Instead of drinking straight juice, which I love love love juice. Okay like...you mix it with a 1/4 water or half water, less calories but still juice. YUM

Tomorrow I need to mow my lawn, and want to go swimming at mom and dad's. I got my new book off ebay today, or was it yesterday, yea yesterday. I am excited to start it. Ebay books are way cheaper. I am into the whole amish story line. Have even looked into going to Lancaster County, wouldn't that be awesome. Damon would shake his head and smile at me...hehe. I miss him, shew he was so loveable huggable kissable, unbelievable. Okay so I stole a line from a song. If you read this Tammy Hart...you're so vain...the first movie Damon and I watched together when we first met, at the Branscum home, was How to Lose a Guy in 10 days...ha, not the greatest movie, but that song stuck with us.

Guess that is it, goodnight everyone.

Feels Different

I am feeling weird lately, emotionally. I really just need prayer. I know time makes things better, never easier, but the pain is less frequent. I MISS Damon, naturally. My life feels sort of empty? Is that okay? I want God to be my all in all, so am I failing? Or is the part He created when He said it wasn't good for Adam to dwell alone, is that the part that feels empty?? I don't understand my emotions. I miss Damon so much. Life is good, I have many blessings, family near, a new home, health, I am deeply blessed. God has saw fit to reveal so many things to me, and I am a child of the KING, PRAISE THE LORD. So is the emptiness normal? I don't want to be lacking Him or failing in anything. I miss life with Damon, everyday life, everything about him. I need prayer, understanding, and kind advice.

Encouraging Thought Today

"When I consider all the wonderful things that God does silently on my behalf each day, I realize that my list of praises should be much longer than my list of petitions."

Isaiah 25: 8-9

8He will swallow up death in victory; and the Lord GOD will wipe away tears from off all faces; and the rebuke of his people shall he take away from off all the earth: for the LORD hath spoken it.
9And it shall be said in that day, Lo, this is our God; we have waited for him, and he will save us: this is the LORD; we have waited for him, we will be glad and rejoice in his salvation.

Naptime

Yesterday after morning service, I came home and took a nap. A BIG nap. I slept for about four hours I guess. So much so, that I thought 7 was 6 and my mom came looking for me saying they had been in service for an hour and she was worried about me. I said, its 6 o'clock, she said no it isn't. Sure enough, I don't know what I did...but I guess I slept to long and got confused. So last night, I went to bed around 11:45, and laid there until after midnight. Then I woke back up shortly after 1 am, I know sometime ater 3 am, I think I woke up 3-4 times. I didn't think my big nap would affect my sleep THAT much, so I have learned a lesson. I will try to avoid that long of a nap in the future.

It's supposed to be hot today, 95. Not as hot as it has been, but then a cold turn came on for a few days, where it was in the mid 80's (SO NICE in July). So it will take an adjustment to get back to the heat.

Mom and I went and looked at the stock (the bucking horses and bulls) last night, at the rodeo grounds. They had slack going on, the over flow from the regular rodeo performance, it's free and not nearly as commercial. Rodeo at its basics, but we didn't get to stop. Maybe next year. The bulls are so cute, but huge. Tough looking. They kinda just stare at you, like you stare at them. Daring you to admire them, lol...I really don't think they get all that indepth in their thought patter, but its fun to imagine. As mom and I were driving through last night, I was thinking that the rodeo world needs Jesus. I think I prayed the Lord would make a way.

Weird, Different, Sad, Good

That title describes my day. Not necessarily in that order though...

This morning, I got up early and met up with mom. She was judgeing the Snake River Stampede parade (not the whlle parade, just certain age/theme groups). You can google the rodeo name if you want, Snake River Stampede. Its been a staple of Nampa history for who knows how long. Anyway, I was the "judges helper", but got to wear an official judge badge. I felt important...lol. I saw a lot of old faces, it was nice. A girl got bucked off her horse in the parking lot, just as she was stepping into her saddle a car horn went off and startled the horse. So I walked over and took him from someone who caught him and stood there holding this BEAUTIFUL tall grey handsome horse. Man, he was a beautiful creature. Poor guy, it was sweet how he came back to check on her, he just got startled. She hit the pavement pretty hard and took a while to get back up and moving around. But I saw her getting back on her horse about 10 minutes before the parade started. While I was there waiting for the parade to start, a familiar face (though i am horrible with names) came up and hugged me. There was recently a VERY sad story on the news, of a little boy that was only 10 years old, who wondered off from his uncle who was working on a broken down atv, and was found dead. The coroner ruled it death as a result of heat exhaustion. Well the woman who came up and hugged me, told me that little boy was the son of a girl I used to queen with in the rodeo world. She is understandably not doing well. I ask you to pray for her, I was told she doesn't know the Lord, and they are having to keep her pretty drugged just to keep her sain. I know when Damon died, if it hadn't been for Jesus, I would have went nuts, so I cannot even begin (nor do I want to) to imagine what it would be to go through this without the Lord as the center of your life.

After the parade (we just watched it at its start so it moved pretty fast) we went to breakfast. Then I came back to mom and dads and went swimming. Though I didn't swim much, more just read my book on the little floaty. That floaty take some talent to get onto, its not that little and likes to move. You kinda have to hop on from the ladder and hope you make it. Anyway, I put LOTS O LOTS O LOTS of sunscreen on. But I STILL got burnt. grr at the sunscreen company :) I was probably out there total today, 4ish hours. Then we had dinner, yuuuuum. Country potatoes, pancakes, and eggs from the neighbors chickens. Not so healthy, but it was yummy. Its amazing how much fresh eggs look sooo much prettier than store bought. The yokes are super golden yellow, and the whites are like STARK SNOW white. I dont know but store bought eggs look different when cooked.


Now I am at home...getting sleepy. I need to go to bed.

Yes, He Cares, About Little Things!

Guess what?! Last year for my bday, I bought myself a new digital camera, a casio something. It was cute, and blue (my favorite color), was so excited. Well, then the battery stopped working. I called Casio, they were supposed to send me a new battery because there had been lots of trouble with that battery model. Wait, wait, wait somemore...no battery. Found receipt to take camera back, but never made the shipping up to send it back to Casio. Lost receipt. Went to Idaho Camera to get new battery. NO battery. *sigh* Went to Wal-Mart today to get some photos that I had ordered, see a battery stand, would you know it??? There is my battery! Problem: where or where did I put that charger?? *Prayer* Get home, look in one room, not there. Start pulling boxes out of the other closet, about half way through, TA DA!! Battery Charger!! Status: new battery currently charging, camera, ready and waiting to be used soon! THANK YOU JESUS! I prayed to find the charger, and I found it. That is a answered prayer! WOOHOO.

A Thought for Today

"Hope can be ignited by a spark of encouragement."

Philippians 2:1-11

1If there be therefore any consolation in Christ, if any comfort of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if any bowels and mercies,

2Fulfil ye my joy, that ye be likeminded, having the same love, being of one accord, of one mind.

3Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves.

4Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others.

5Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus:

6Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God:

7But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men:

8And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross.

9Wherefore God also hath highly exalted him, and given him a name which is above every name:

10That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth;

11And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.

You Know Your Domestic If...

...new vacuum excites you! I finally put together my new vacuum last night, and used it for the first time, wowza! It was so nice! Praise the Lord for helping me find the vacuum. I have such a hard time making decisions, trying to find quality without breaking the bank, and after I prayed this one nearly jumped in my lap. Okay not literally, but I know God helped me with the decision, small as it was!

I just wanted to share my excitedness over my new vacuum.

Sun, Water, and Vacuums

Got another sun burn, though not nearly as bad. Mom and Dad set up the pool they got last year, so that explains the sun and water part of the title. I didn't swim for to long, but opted to lay on the floaty and get warm under the sun. Its nice where the pool is set up, because its fairly private. It was just me and the floaty, I tried to convince mom to come swim with me, but she couldn't be won over. I wonder if its because I always try to get her hair wet whenever she swims with me. I seem to be a bit mischievious. ;)

Now to the vacuum part, while cleaning at the church the other night, my vacuum just quit. :( I thought maybe I had blown a fuse or something, but other when I brought the vacuum home it still didn't work. I am a bit sad...Damon and I bought it together (our money, I don't think he was present for the occasion), but it has already been repaired (on the chord) twice. So I went to Wal-Mart tonight and got another one. Not the same kind, this one is a bit nicer and has a better dirt removal rating, as well as longer warranty, and it is bagless. To top it off, it was on sale. I know this may sound different to some, but I prayed for the Lord to help me find the right vacuum. I didn't want to spend a lot lot lot of money, but I did want a better warranty, and better quality. This one has a better warranty than some of the other more expensive vacuums, and has a 2 point higher dirt removal rating than the one we had. So praise the Lord for a vacuum.

I am so sleepy, so good night. Remember, don't tie God's Hands by worrying, worrying is doubt...and why doubt when you serve the Creator of the Universe. :) SMILE.

Precious Jesus

Who is thankful for the Lord?? Seriously, I take Him for granted. He has rescued me from so much. I am EVER indebted to God. This world is full of people who are hurting, and lost, and truly just need Him as their savior. Every good and perfect give is from the Father, if someone treats you awful or does something to you or someone else, or something it is a result of a need for Jesus in their life. Remember to pray for all that need the Lord. Something happened today, that I saw take place near my home...that has triggered this post. I have been quite troubled since, but the reason for what I saw, sadly is sin. So I need to pray for the person involved. God help me to be a encouragement.

Supa Hot

Man it is hot here!! :) No humidity though, woohoo! I wondered why it felt so hot yesterday but thought it was only in the 90's, newp 105. No wonder :) Regional Convention started last night, and the youth did the same skit that Antioch did back when I still lived there. With the girl who is tempted by all the different things in life. I am telling you, whoever listened to the Lord to get that skit, really let themselves be used by Him. It touches anyone, I don't care where or who you are, it is real. The altars were filled and I know of one youth praying next to me, that was crying and praying before the Lord, its a beautiful site. I am sure there were more, but when you are praying yourself, you don't notice alot. While the skit was going on, two boys behind me were crying just watching, boys who "aren't supposed'" to cry. Praise the Lord, it was just as touching as when we did it in Antioch. BTW Antioch, I miss you guys!! LOVE YOU! My prayer is "Lord help us to keep this" keep this closeness, this realization that God You care for us and will help us through any situation if we will but let You! That YOU are more important, seriously, than anything this life will try to offer. Life and the world will SHOVE things in your face, try to shove them down your throat, but by the power of Jesus, we don't have to take it! WOOT

Have a good day, my cold is a little better, thank the Lord!

I hear you

You are whispering to me right now..."come get in" "oh don't those sheets feel snuggly soft and relaxing". yes, my bed is talking to me right now. I am ready for sleepy night night.

**side note** I have noticed i am not good at capitalization anymore. *sigh*

PLEASE pray for me. I am sick, just a little cold, but I would desire your prayers.

drawing a blank, so, good night. God be with you.

At The Cross

I was eating my cereal this morning and because I am out of my Dole Juice (sad tear), I got a glass of ice water. I just looked over and the ice is formed in the shape of a cross. Is that not cool! Thank You Jesus for a little ray of SONshine for today! I thought that was cool!

So Good To Be Home

Today was a long day. I am so glad to be home!! Work was hectic and stressful today, but thank the Lord for a job right! I have to register Damon's truck soon, it was due today, but I didn't have all the info I needed (thought I did) so had to get a temporary registration. I started having a moment at the license bureau, it's hard taking that TN license plate and putting something else in its place (I haven't done it yet though) it really reminds you again, that Damon's really gone. I am glad for him though, he's made his goal. I had leftover breadsticks for dinner. I have found that since Damon made Heaven, I don't have much of a desire to cook like I used to. So I eat left overs, or frozen dinners, or go out. Mom and I had Papa Murphys pizza last night, so today I had pizza for lunch and breadsticks for dinner. So healthy, right? I digress. lol. Oh and guess what!! I found out my super cool, super cute neighbors (they are the cutest family!) have a blog!! Yay. One more blog friend. I am glad for good neighbors, praise the Lord! Thats a huge blessing and relief to trust who lives next to you, to keep an eye on things if you ever need it. Although, I wonder if they will ever want any cake from me (inside joke) eh Becky?! Well, that is all! Reporting from: my couch....ahhhh *relaxation*