Today is the Day

Month End. We stay at work today until we are completely lining up on all fronts. We can stay up to midnight...so please pray that, THAT, is not necessary. LOL. I would really like getting off at as close to on time as possible, although over time will be nice for the check. Anyway, just wanted to request prayer for that.

It is cold this morning, 39 degrees to be exact. Well as exact as the news can be. :)

If, I get off early enough tonight, I need to cook dinner for mom and dad. Mom cooked pretty much all week last week, so I think we sorta talked about me returning the favor this week. Don't know what I will cook, should I get home at a decent hour from work, grilling sounds good.

Well, this post is short, and there isn't much information in it, but I need to get skiddadaling....is that how you spell that?

I love Damon Broyles, always and forever.

Got Prayer?

If you pray, pray for me. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed with all the decisions going on lately. I just need to let go and let God. Being a grown up is hard sometimes...all you "youngins" cherish the carefree days of youth. It is nice to be adult sometimes, and a blessing, then other times, there are tough decision. But with God I can make it through any storm. That is what my husband wrote to me a few months before he made Heaven, and I still believe it.

Saturday Happenings

I got up this morning at 7:40ish. I went to bed pretty late for me...1:30ish. Hmm..seems I like "..."'s and "ish"'s. Anyway, back to the story, my grandpa was coming over to look at pouring a concrete pad to park Damon's trailer on. We decided, that short of bringing in an actual crew to pour the concrete, the best thing to do would be to get pavers for the track of the wheels then pour gravel on each side of those. If we do it right it should look nice. I also finished trimming the bushes, or is it pruning. Whatever it is called, I got it done. Now I need to rake everything up and make a burn pile. After that I need to get all my landscaping rock/bark down. I would like to plant a small garden too, grow some strawberries, blueberries maybe. I don't know, I just want a garden. My dad grows a really big garden, so I can get practically any vegetable that I would normally eat, from him. Having a yard like this takes a lot of work, and I hope it is okay to say this...but I want my yard to be the prettiest. lol....lawn competition, ya know? Oh, and I went to a yard sale today and got the cooooolest picture. It's so cute. It is a long picture with small shots of different northwest area posters. Hard to explain, but so cool. On another note (I should be paragraphing this, but oh well) please pray for Abby. She cracked her tooth today while playing. :( poor baby girl. She was tugging on a toy with spike when all the sudden she kinda looked dazed and shook her head. I looked on the toy later and there was blood. Then I looked in her mouth and she has a pretty big crack on one of her bottom frontal area teeth. It is a baby tooth so it should fall out at some point, but I know cracks (baby or not) are painful for humans, so they must be for dogs too. She has been fairly mellow today, making me wonder if it is hurting her. I will take her to the vet on Monday if I notice it is still bothering her. I dont want it to get infected either. After the abby experience,later on in the day, dad came over and fixed my sprinklers. I guess that is enough for now and I need to be heading out to my parents house for dinner.

Notha' Day, Notha' Dolla'

Got to go to work soon so I can, (as my dad would say:) "bring home the bacon." Yesterday was actually a 80% fantastic day at work.

I had a startling revelation yesterday, well I think the Lord explained a scripture to me. With the world events, you can't help but know that His return is soon. Sooner than we think. Now I am not one that likes to think on things too much, simply because I am such a thinker that I put myself in tormoil. But, I kept thinking, how can I be ready. Then the familiar story about the lamps with oil in the Bible would keep coming to mind. Well yesterday, that account became truly clear for me, the five virgins whose lamps were already trimmed with oil, were ready, but they had been doing their every day things. They had been possibly taking care of their younger siblings, housing visitors, feeding animals, etc.. but their lamps were ALREADY trimmed. Translate that to us, we simply need to follow Jesus EACH AND EVERY day, to be ready. Thats it, SIMPLE. Golly...why do I make it so hard. I am not saying not press in, don't get me wrong. But if I, Kasey, am truly following the Lord He will lead me into the exact place with Him that I need to be. But I cannot dilly dally around, playing games with serving Him today, but not tomorrow. Being ready means, serving God, morning-noon-night. And, serving Him is truly the greatest release from the pain in this world, that you will ever know. Yes there will be pain, but it is much much much more bearable with Jesus. That may have come out way different than I felt it explained to me by Him yesterday, but I knew what I got from it. I tried to share...:)

I need to get ready...I need to do my hair still and take off soon. I hope today is a good day at work too. :)

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Truth filled Quote of the Day
"The good news is too good to keep to yourself."

Challenge for the day, tell someone about Jesus without saying a word. :) Course, if you feel led to tell them some of His good news, then do that too! :)

I woke up early, not being able to breathe well...yuck. Please pray for me.

I had other things to type...hmm...I had a horrible horrible dream. UGH. I HATE dreams like that, yes HATE. HATE HATE HATE. I need the Lord to help me to not let it bog my down all day, and realize it was just a dream.

Thats all for now I guess. Just pray for all the needs you know of, there are many. Right now, I really miss my wonderful husband. But praise the Lord, I knew Damon.

First Attempt

At home made jelly. I attempted Strawberry Jelly tonight. We shall see how it sets up. For all the strawberries I cut up, I sure didn't get much. I do NOT like seeds in preserves/jams/jellies (jelly technically meaning seedless) so I might have strained a bit more than necessary. And, I am to impatient to sit there and let it strain slowly. It tastes...SO GOOD. Store bought just doesn't compare (not cus its my jelly, but anything home made tastes better, ya know?). I really hope it sets up and is super yummy once cooled. I think I already have a problem sealer. I have one that sealed up great, and one that is still poppy. If it doesnt fix before the morning, guess it gets devoured first. Well, it is late, so goodnight.

Please remember to pray for the Clarkson family.

Today's Theme Song...

Can't promise you no pain no tears
Can't say you'll never be lonely again
My friend
But you see there's a remedy
There's someone who's got
Everything you need
And if you hear what I'm saying
I'm sure you'll agree that?-

Trouble ain't gon' be here everyday
Even though sometimesit seems like it won'tgo away
After you've done allthat you know how
Just to keep from breaking down
Just believe it's gonna get much better
After awhile

Sometimes I sit back and I think about
Where I've been and where I am,
Right now
See I wasn't quite sure you could
Hear me calling
But you were there to catch me
When I was falling
So I know

Trouble ain't gon' be here everyday
Even though sometimesit seems like it won'tgo away
After you've done allthat you know how
Just to keep from breaking down
Just believe it's gonna get much better
After awhile

Oh sometimes we may just want to cry
Then you tell me it's gonna be alright
You can't go through life
Living problem free
But you got to keep the faith
And you got to believe

So the next time you're feeling
A little frustration
And you going through
A bad situation
Remind yourself that it won't last for long'
Cause soon it will be over and you'll be moving on

Trouble ain't gon' be here everyday
Even though sometimes it seems like it won'tgo away
After you've done allthat you know how
Just to keep from breaking down
Just believe it's gonna get much better
After awhile

This is me now, not the song. In life there are things that plumb stink. They are not fun, not in any way, what you could hope for. How you are treated, how you treat others. Bottom line, even when we don't want to, we need to love people and pray for ourselves and our attitudes as well as theirs. I speak to myself here...sigh...I am feeling supremely alone today. I am missing Damon something fierce. I miss him all the time, but there are certain times when it truly hits. I wish he were here.

Stamping and Such

So, I went with momma to a stamping party tonight. It was actually pretty fun. I made, get this....EIGHT, yes eight, cards. In ONE night. I am not a stamper, not at all, and I am pretty amazed how easy it is when everything is prepped for you with the idea and such. That is my problem, is getting the right idea, that and measuring and cutting. We didnt leave there until almost 930 tonight, makes for a long day. But what does the Bible say, this is the day the Lord has made, so we need to rejoice and be glad in it. Every day, is a blessing, though sometimes we cant even begin to see beyond the clouds, the sunshine lays above it all.

I bought a Wii last night. I am excited. Super excited. Now I just need to figure out how to hook it up.

My job went better for the most part today. They say I am doing really well, that I don't need to be so hard on myself. That is how I am though, when I fail, man...its rough on me. I feel so dumb when I make a mistake, especially when I try so hard to do things right. That is what erks me. (or is it irks??)

Hmm....I am drawing a blank sorta. I guess, with that, good night. Jesus loves you.

Photos and Blessings

Blessings: Spending the evening with my cousin Troy, going to get milkshakes, getting the same flavor... Brownie Cheesecake. Yum.

Happy Sigh

This weekend...all in all, has been a good weekend.

Pros- were spending time with family, pancake feed with friends, parents laying rr ties in back yard to keep the dogs in, good conversation with friends, seeing family, church this morning, and communion and feet washing this evening.

Cons- ankle that is swollen and hurting.

Do you ever wish you could MAKE someone love and want to follow Jesus. I do. Though, I know that is not how you can do things. So, my concentration is to be a light to this world so that others will ask what is different about me. Then I can say Jesus, and they can say...oooh I want what you have. I remember, where I came from. Who I was, before the Lord. I am sooo un deserving, and so thankful, and you know, I don't want to take what God has done for me, for granted. I am by far, BY FAR, not perfect...but I want to be what Jesus wants me to be, and vessel that He can shape and mold as He wishes. I am at the point, where, I refuse to give up on those I have prayed for. Sometimes it is hard to not see what you have been praying for, right away, but that is where faith steps in. When you KEEP praying, even if something doesn't happen that instant. God loves to save, deliver, and help...it's His business :)

Today, guess what...I helped put up a chicken coop. Oh boy :) I helped mom and dad's neighbor, Betty, put chicken netting over the fenced area so the chickens wouldn't get out. They like to peck and scratch and had been getting on peoples property where they would soon be planting a garden. So, mom told me to go tell her about lunch, (which my dad made, and it was soo good) I went over there and she was hot, and frustrated and said she needed to keep working. So I made a deal. If she would come eat, I would help her afterwards. Even with two of us, it took another 2 to 2.5 hours...maybe more. But we got it done! Yay chickens, and roosters. Speaking of roosters, they have three and the biggest rooster was the biggest wimp of all three, let the tiny one and the fluffy legged one chase him around. well the other day I noticed the fluffy legged one has been all by himself for awhile. Well the former whimp chased him off, he barely came near the others and the former whimp went off and pecked him. GRRR...I feel like chicken noodle soup.

Pray for work tomorrow, for me. :)

Cry, Scream, WAAHHHH!!

OUCH. GRRRR. I hit my ankle today and made it bleed and turn purplish-blue. Not that long ago, I caught my heel on a sharp piece of metal coming down from the ladder. Today...I was moving the ladder so that I could climb over my back fence to help my parents set the railroad ties so that my dogs will not try to get under some of the places where the chain link doesn't meet the ground, and my flip flop got caught on Damon's jack (what you use to jack up your vehicles when changing a tire or the oil, or whatever). Well, I didn't realize it was caught until I tried to move that foot, taking a normal step. By that time, the very heavy jack ripped my shoe, while I was still holding onto the ladder, meanwhile continuing to trip. The wall caught me, I always knew walls were my friend, but I had already hit my ankle on the floor jack. I looked down and it was bloody :( and it hurt. I guess it wouldn't have been as bad, if it hadn't been on the boney part. Not the worst pain in this life, I know, but still painful. Thank the Lord it was only a ankle, and a mendable one at that.

So...

Praise the Lord. I am going through a lot emotionally right now. It's like I realized both of my grandparents on mom's side, are gone now. I knew that before, but its when it clicks...that its hard. Then Damon gone, well losing him is the single hardest thing I have ever faced. and you know, I still cry for him, no, it's not as frequent now. BUT, it is still really hard, when I realize I wam without him and our time together is done. Then, the things going on with losing my Uncle...*sigh*. It is just very hard. My job is remains a stressful blessing. Blessing because of the consistent money, but stressful because though I am starting to get more and more things in my brain...I feel like a bother to my trainer, and our personalities seem to clash. I started crying twice at work today because of some things there and the stress of it. Before when I had a bad day, I could rest in Damon's arms and he would hold me, listen to me, then give me advice or we would pray when we faced tough times. For some reason, God took Damon ( and I am not angry at Him for it) because Damon's time on earth was finished. But I wonder...since my time is obviously not up...am I wrong to want him here to hold me through it all?? I have been told to seek the Lord in this time, to see where He would have me be. To let Him become my husband. I have prayed and tried to let that happen, and hopefully have, but is it still wrong to desire Damon's presence?? I cant stress it enough, tell the ones you love, that you LOVE them with all of your heart, take every single day, and breathe it in and live it, and don't have any regrets. you NEVER KNOW your loved ones last second is. It only takes that one second to change your life forever. Please, appreciate your loved ones. God would have us to do so. I started this by saying praise the Lord. Momma always tells me, when going through a rough time, to praise the Lord. So, Lord, even though right now I am broken- I praise You, because You know the way.

As humans, we all make so many mistakes and we make them daily. We are commanded to love, forgive, and treat others as we would treat ourselves. Am I doing that? The Lord has shown me lately, on an area I need to improve. Though, I may not be completely comfortable with a particuluar person, regardless of how I feel, I am commanded to love them. If someone has wronged me, I need to forgive them, or the Lord cannot forgive me. It is so much easier to hold a grudge, then let go and pray. But if we don't let go, if I hold onto that hurt, I won't make heaven. So friends, if I have ever failed you, I ask you to please forgive me. I have tried to be in the Lords will, work for Him, and honor Him. But, I fail, and if we are all honest, we have allllll failed. Many times. Love one another, forgive one another, pray for one another, in this world, we all need it.

May God be near you this night.

Snow?

I woke up to snow on the ground this morning. Not alot, but maybe a half inch or inch, enough to cover the grass with little shoots of it sticking through. Praise the Lord for snow!!

Beautiful...

This is where I go walking/jogging, there is a mile long trail weaving around all of these ponds. Isn't it pretty? I took these pictures tonight. :)

Spam??

Though, in reality what they are doing is appreciated (in a general sense of protection), they have locked the recipe blog because it looks like a "spam" blog. :'( grrrr

Work went better today. I still and uncomfortable, but getting better. I guess I really need prayer for me to better understand my trainer. She and I seem to communicate in completely different ways and it makes for stressful moments.

Mom came over tonight, and I made dinner. We had hawaiin turkey terriyaki burgers and fries. (no veggies, I am bad, I know) and for dessert we had angel food cake with bluberry filling and cool whip. I put a little surprise in the burgers...added a small ball (size of a cherry tomato) of fresh mozzarella cheese in the middle and formed the meat around it. Then pan seared them in olive oil. YUM. Then dessert, I cut the the cake into three layers, and filled each layer with the blueberry, then covered all of it with the cool whip.

I am not nearly as sick feeling, but over all tired still. My ears are still plugged and I am still congested but all in all on the mend, praise the Lord. Seriously, PRAISE the LORD!

I hope I don't forget

everything to post about! I have a lot of I wanted to write, but I seem to forget in the midst of furious typing!

Mom, Dad, and me, went to an auction yesterday. Sister Grandma's (that is what we called her! her real name was Babe I think, she is in heaven now. ) daughter, Linda, is my realtor, and her husband runs an auction business. Well there daughter, Darcy, became pretty close friends with mom when Grandma Babe passed on. So, she and mom hang out a lot and Darc let her know about the auction. I got some really cool deals! I got a old metal sign, very vintagey, that I have on my plant shelf, it is a De Laval Cream Separator sign. I also got an old trunk, that I am thinking of using as an end table, some old fruit crates with the posters left on the side, that I have put up on my plant shelves as well. I got a really nice old kitchen table, with leaf and chairs, its in really good condition! I got an old iron, the kind they heated on the stove I think, and weigh a ton!! Also got a cast iron muffin tin, and an old old sled to put up on my plant shelves. I have some of my plants up there, but they only fill up so much space. The people had farmed the ground starting in the 1940's, and were still living there. However, they didn't get outside much anymore and wanted to get rid of some things (a LOT of things). It may sound silly, but as this couple in their 80's sat there, with his arm around her, I wanted them to get as much as possible for their stuff. They were so sweet. Although, I did get a little upset at a fellow auction attender yesterday. I had to pray and tell the Lord I was sorry about it too. I had been waiting to get one of these old hand pump spiggots. like what you see on little house on the prairie, that pumped the water out. They had three of them. I really wanted the green one, but didnt care as long as I got one. well, my dad said, let the first one go high, then the others will be cheaper. So, the bid got up to a price I wasn't comfortable with and I didn't bid anymore. They started the bidding as choice, meaning, whoever won the bid could choose whichever one they wanted or take all three at that price. I thought surely the woman would just take one, NOPE, she got all three. Tear. I was pretty upset, not like oh i hate her upset, but I had really wanted one of those things to make a water feature out of in my back yard...and she took them all. I guess I was pouting-upset. Who woulda thought, all three...hmph, i need to let it go, lol. So after that I left and went home. I was sunburnt and dusty, felt good to clean up. Then mom made homemade lasagna so I went over there and ate dinner. After dinner, we ran to wally world to get some birthday presents for the kids at church today. Then I came home and went to sleep. Ahh, precious sleep. The night before I only got about 5 hours, so I made up for it last night.

argh, I knew I would forget something..........trying to remember......still trying to remember.....

Tomorrow is another day at work, hopefully I continue to do well. Thank the Lord I did better on Friday. Please continue to pray for me to understand and do a good job.

I am thinking of inviting my family over for dinner this coming sunday. That is one tradition I would like to start. Family dinners at least once a month. I think I am going to make fried chicken, with who knows what else.

I also need to start riding my horses soon, as the weater has started to warm up a wee bit, cept today is rainy and dark. I love riding my horses and wish I could get my job back at the saleyard. God knows though. I would push cattle or whatever else, mostly cattle though, (push means herd) horseback on the drop off side. Then when the auction would start, we would push them to the appropriate pens to be picked up later that day. I made like 5.50 an hour, but it wasnt the money, it was the experience for me and my horse, and it was plumb fun!! The extra money was an added bonus. In the Summer we would have really short sales. I would arrive around 9:30, and be done by 3ish. Buy the fall, and winter sales were LONG. I remember not getting off one time until around 6:30. That is hard, especially when it is cold, and the mud is sooo deep (around 8 inches) and you would have to switch out horses cus they would get tired. In the summer you could get by with one horse, in the fall and winter, I remember bringing three. I miss that job.

I know I am forgetting something, I knew I would. GRRR...but in case you missed the below post, I started another recipe blog. The address for the new blog is in the below post. If you would like an invite and didn't get one, just leave a comment on the new blog. When blogger switched over, I couldn't get into the old recipe blog, even though I transfered it to the new blogger. So I had to start another recipe blog.

Hope everyone has had a blessed Sunday.

Guess What!?! Guess What!?!

I have created a...NEW Recipe Blog!!!

I have sent out invitations to those I have email addresses for. If you did not get an invitation, its because I don't have your address in my new email account. Leave a comment on the recipe blog if you would like to be an author and share share share your recipes!!

Thank You Jesus

Today was better. I was actually left alone for a good half of the day. Meaning, they trusted me enough to do things by myself. I had some issues, and had to ask for help from time to time, but all in all it was a better day.

went out to dinner with my family tonight. Got to see my grandma and grandpa from dad's side, then my cousin's from mom's side. That was a blessing.

Tomorrow we are going to an auction. I am hoping I will find a shed for my back yard.

Goal: To do more for Jesus, to be 100% obedient in all things.
Blessing: being able to drive to my parents house.

A word from the Lord.

Proverbs 2:8

He keepeth the paths of judgment, and preserveth the way of his saints.

needy

sometimes i feel needy, asking for prayer so much. When, in comparison to other people's needs, mine aren't to big. right now, I just need prayer for my job. i came home with a really bad headache today. i laid down for about 45 mins to an hour, and my headache isn't nearly as strong now. I dont feel like i am getting much about this job. and, me being the way i am, if i am not confident in what i am doing i feel incompetent and do not enjoy it. this job is a huge blessing, and weight off of my shoulders, but i really need prayer that i grasp it more. some things are beginning to make sense, but there are so many rules to remember, i had a part where i was doing well today, and i enjoyed it. but by the end of the day, i wasn't doing as great and i begin to feel like i am getting on my trainers nerves. they say i am doing great, but i dont feel i am doing great. please please pray that tomorrow i have numerous light bulb moments and do amazing.

i dont even really care about capitalization right now. sigh. there is a auction this saturday momma and i are going to. mom and dads neighbors are out of town this weekend, for his fathers funeral. pray for them too please.

i hope everyone is doing well.

Ugh!

Please say a prayer for me, as I am getting sick. I noticed yesterday and this morning I woke up to my throat hurting and some congestion in my chest. I just took thre echinacea and am going to be chugging the vitamin c. I forgot what it was like to wake up early everyday! Off to work again, hopefully I get it today. I get parts of it, but not a lot.

Day One, Done

Well I finished my first day. A stressful blessing best describes it. HA! I am so thankful for this job, money wise, and it is 6 minutes away from my house, including school zones and school buses. Can ya beat that? The only way you could beat that would be to work from home! Now the stressful part, my job, is posting payments from different insurance companies and self pays from the subscriber to reconcile with the hospital's charges. There is sooo much to learn and remember. I took lots of notes, and actually sat in the drivers seat for about 45 minutes today. So thank the Lord for you all who prayed, but PLEASE keep praying, I am still very very nervous about it all.

Today...

AHHHH

I am soooo nervous. I start my job today, and my stomach hurts. YUCK. I need to eat breakfast, but I feel icky. PLLLLLEASE pray for me to do well.

Praying for you this day, Bradley's Family and Friends.

Tomorrow

I start my new job tomorrow at 7:30 am. Please pray for me to do well. I am always nervous starting a new job, I end up getting the hang of it eventually, its just the first couple of weeks that make me nearly sick to my stomach.

I really miss Damon. I hope people aren't sick of hearing that. I really miss everything about him, about us. I miss every day being able to come home to him and have him waiting with a smile on his face when I came through the door. I miss being able to have him hold me, while the world went away for awhile. I could have such a bad day, then put my head on his chest, he would hold me, and it would all be better. I miss HIM. He was so many things to so many people, but to me, he was everything, best friend (truly the best friend I have ever ever had on this earth), husband, provider, lover, cheer-er up-er, prayer partner, encourager, he took care of everything around the house, that is huge, having a man to take care of things for you. I never before realized it until I lost him, how much I relied on him for every day things. If something broke, he would fix it. I can fix some things, but if it's mechanical...shew, forget it. He hooked up the VCR/DVD player...I couldn't figure it out here, and had to rig up another way that he never had to do while we were married. I guess what I miss most of all, is the fact he really was my best friend. He was who I hung out with, went to the mall with, went driving with, everything. After he died, Emily and Rachel really filled in the gaps, but I never had a super close girlfriend after we got married until the time of his death, because he filled that gap too. No, I am not calling him a girl, he was just my best friend and i guess i wasn't missing out on the whole girl hang out thing. It hits me at times, that I still cannot believe he is gone. Page 4 in the blue book, (or is it 6??), Farther Along...we'll know all about it. I really miss him, but I guess you have gathered that.

In other news, I have a problem with my half marathon. I looked at the website the other day, and I missed the fact it's on a sunday! :( Now I don't know what to do, the other marathons are like a month or two away. The only other date that might work is in July. That is NOT very far away either. What to do, what to do?! The first day I started working out, it seemed sooo easy to do two miles. Every day after that it has been hard to do even one. Why is that. I guess my muscles are getting aclimated. I didn't jog on Sunday, but did yesterday. I haven't today, I can't decide if I want to jog or do a work out video. I found a website saying to run part of the time, then do cardio, then strength training. But, I don't like missing days of jogging for me personally because I feel like it puts a rut in my routine and makes it all that much easier to miss another day.

i guess that is all. Remember to pray for me tomorrow.