Step by Step, Day by Day

There are Soooo many people out there, who need prayer more than me. So I feel somewhat guilty asking for prayer because of that fact. Mainly I am thinking of Sister Vicki's sister's family. I hope that made sense. Her husband just died and it came on very suddenly from my understanding. Just pray for them, I can't even imagine. I keep thinking about Sherry Wood too. Pray for her. This is mainly why I feel selfish to ask for prayer, because my needs are so small in comparison. But I have had bad dreams for about three nights in a row, I think it affects my sleep. I have had a headache since last night. by that i mean, I remember having one last night while laying in bed, and I have one now. So I assume it's been there. I just need some sunshine in my mind. Those who know me well, understand. I am the pesimistic brooder. Sigh- Onto happier things...

CAMPING TRIP!!! WOOOHOO, except the weather forecast just said there was to be rain all weekend. OH WELL, we have a topper and I love playing in the rain as long as it is warm out! :)

I made dinner last night and I think it was...interesting :) I was trying to utilize left overs of chicken from Memorial Day, and make a buffalo chicken burrito. I don't know that grill flavors and buffalo chicken go together. Damon said it was good but I don't know. The only thing perfect about the dinner was I baked some fries to go along with it, and I had them with my Fry Sauce :) YUMMMMMM

I recommend the new Charlottes Web rendition. It was sooooo funny and endearing and everything that kind of movie should be. Wilbur is sooo cute. The only thing I didn't like is the little girl was kinda pushy when she was trying to save Wilbur. I mean I would be pushy if it was my dad, but I don't think to that extent or in that way. All it took was for me to cry ;) huh momma

Three more days of work for this week. I have to go get ready. I hope every has a good day. OH, I just finished a book I highly recommend, Leave A Candle Burning I think by Lori Wick, now I am reading When The Heart Cries- cant remember who that's by.

You know what...

I have decided that this world is a very sad place. You look at the news and all you see(for the most part) is cruelty to humans, cruelty to animals, parents who ENCOURAGE their children in the awful and disgusting things they do. As a society we have gotten too far away from the simple things in life. I know this must come to pass, however it is still sad. Bottom line, I want to stay as UN spotted from this world as I possibly can. I want to wear the look of a pure heart from the inside out. And most importantly I want to shine for Jesus with all I've got, and I don't want it to be lip service. God, perfect that which concerneth me! I need Jesus, He is my EVERYTHING. I have Damon, I have my parents, but who can calm my soul. Not them. Who can save my soul, not them. Sure they can talk to me and encourage me, but God is my true peace! If I don't have Him, I have nothing. I am sooo thankful to in this world,but not of it. I am so thankful for the simple things in my life, my husband, my family, my animals, the ability to enjoy history- photography- cooking- singing. All of that! I love you Jesus and thank You SOOO very much for bringing me out of this mess. I pray that I serve Him with my whole heart until I hear Him say "Well Done". God grant me my prayers mentioned here, and please turn my family and Damon's family's hearts' toward You.

Clean House

First I will start with Friday. We had a volleyball game Friday night with the VLB's in smyrna. It was lots o fun. Not many people came, but enough to have fun. I told them I was not sacrificing myself (or something like this) because I didn't want sand to get any place sand was not meant to be. HA famous last words....Not only was I filthy as we all were, but I was a walking sand castle YUCK! Then we went to Crystal and Emilys and I played the Nintendo Wii or however you spell it. It was purty cool.

Saturday was kind of nice, though I missed Damon. He is working a lot lately (side jobs) and though i am thankful I have a husband who works and supports me, in fact VERY THANKFUL! I still miss him sometimes. The extra money really helps, whether its paying on bills, or going into savings, or being able to buy something we normally wouldnt be able to buy. It is a huge blessing, dont think i am unthankful, I just miss having him here with me. This side job is just across the highway though, which translates to a 5 minute drive, so i am able to bring him water or food. It is FLEA season in Tennessee. YUCK. I do NOT NOT NOT like fleas. the good medicine is sooo expensive too. I have to buy Frontline because I have tried the natural flea medicines, the bio spot. IT DOESNT WORK. We even have to spray the yard. I am not the kind of person who is comfortable sharing my home with those little critters, I DEEP cleaned. I vacuumed base boards, behind the dresser, behind the chair, lots of places. WOO I was sweaty. YUCK. Anyway, I cleaned the house really good (feels nice doesnt it!) then as we (damon, me, and the boys) headed for out for the park, I fumigated the place and LEFT!

Now it is sunday morning, I have been awake for an hour because I heard my middle nephew puking in the bathroom. I have given him sprite and they have all taken a shower. Damon is still in bed, and I am sitting here on the couch needing to get ready for Sunday School. Hmmm....time to go. Luvs!

You know what sounds good right now....*note innocent tone in my voice/typing* A banana milk shake from arctic circle, one of their cheeseburgers and fries, with LOTS of fry sauce. Doesn't that sound good Becki! :O hehehe

Pictures from Idaho and Sara

Is this not CUUUUTE!


AWWWWW


This is Audrey, Chuck and Lisa's daughter in Idaho. She is one cute little girl!


Taken from my parents truck, the lake is in the background


Idaho at sunset, isn't it beautiful!!


Another beautiful Idaho sunset, you can see the plateau's/mountains in the distance. That is out owyhee way, if you ever go to idaho you have to get used the dessert aspect of it, but once you get back in there...it's beaaautiful!

Back to Work I Go!

I had a wonderful trip to Idaho. It was very emotional and yet really amazing. I was able to spend time with my horse which meant a lot to me. She still remembers me I think, so that is good. Momma took me to artic circle for a burger and shake. they are SOOO good!! she bought me a bottle of fry sauce to bring home. Fry sauce is an Idaho thing I think. They don't even have it in Utah, which is right next door. Basically it's ketchup and mayonaise, equal parts, mix, and enjoy!! YUMMM-OOO. We did some shopping and I got a really cute shirt, not to mention my momma had a big care package waiting for me, which i am so thankful for, because I won't have to buy hardly anything for vacation now. I got in an hour late friday night because of a hold up at the airport, but I got to surprise my sleeping dad. He was funny, he didnt even know I was coming!! I really enjoyed seeing my friends at church too! I was kind of bummed though, because out of 4 people pregnant (three at church, and then my cousin) you could only tell that one of them, my cousin, was really pregnant! I wanted to see more belly. My cousin was beautiful pregnant though.

We had a lady on the plane ride back from boise to Minneapolis who was acting really weird. I don't quite know what was going on, but I know I was praying for safety. I mentioned her to security in Boise, but they didn't see the need to do anything. Well, she caused quite a bit if trouble on the flight and even tried to go to the front of the plane, which they had to rope off. Needless to say, there were about 10-15 police officers/airport personnel waiting for her as we de-planed. I will remember to pray for her. Hopefully she will give her life to the Lord. I know the Lord gives everyone a chance, but regardless of the fact if they have denied Him or not, if they have, they are still a lost soul and that is sad.

Well, I went grocery shopping last night. Much to damons delight (notice sarcasm) I am buying organic milk, cereal, oatmeal, and lots of other things that are health based. Like South beach salad dressing. I am trying not just to lose weight, but to be healthier. You can eat once a day, junk, and lose weight and still not be healthy. So I am going for both. I don't know how I am going to get him to try the milk. Maybe some of you could comment on here about that. Now if they would just make organic Dr Pepper. Brother and Sister Shaw and I have talked about this already. Think, if I could make a dr pepper replica only organic, I wonder if it would sell! they have jones soda on sale at walmart that uses pure cane to sweeten it, instead of refined sugar. I thought about it, but didn't get it. Well, i need to get ready for work. This house is a mess still, I have three suitcases that are all started on unpacking, yet none of it is put away! Well have a great week!

Tomorrow, Tomorrow!

I fly out to Idaho tomorrow. Keep me in your prayers. Most importantly keep my husband in your prayers. I don't want to leave him, and I have been worrying. However, I know the Lord will take care of him. I just have to trust my God with my husband. I am super super super excited to see my family. Only the Lord knows my heart fully, on this matter. Have a great weekend.

Emergency Room Update

For those of you who know and don't know. I had to drive Damon to the ER this morning. He had been having some trouble off and on all night. Well this morning I thought about getting up and praying for him and I didn't. Next thing I know I am getting out of the shower and he is getting ready to go to the ER. So I called into work and drove him. The Lord had His hand on Damon for sure. I have NEVER seen him this bad. It was awful and I was terrified of losing my husband. TERRIFIED. The humanistic side of me feels absolutely helpless. The Jesus side of me can pray, and pray/begged I did. Damon did not want to go to Summitt hospital because of their treatment of us in the past. Well, this experience was no better. I was so upset, yet trying not to be rude! After parking the truck, I found Damon in a room shaking from lack of being able to breathe. Then we had to wait another 15-20 minutes to get a breathing treatment. I myself had to get a nurse doing something else to help him SOMEHOW! She hooked him up to the oxygen. About 5-10 minuts after the first breathing treatment started they brought the steroid shot. Not to mention part of the staff was rude. I dont mean to be over dramatic, but this is MY husband, who CANNOT breathe and is very bad off. Yet it was turtle pace! God had to keep him alive during that time. We left the ER after two breathing treatments and some steroids at a little after 11. Right now he is resting on the couch and I am thinking about the fact I fly out in two days to leave him. pray for him and for me and us. This was very scary for me, and I wouldn't mind never having to relive this again.

under construction

I am TRYING to remodel the blog. Be patient, I know...none of this goes together. But I really like the main background image of the wild flowers. Its trying to find a header that goes with it. Peace out.

Hi

Pray for Damon and I. different reasons. I just posted a whole paragraph and somehow highlighted it and delted it. GO ME. GRRR, now I am too aggrivated to re type it. Peace

Blessing in the Thorn

Sometimes, things in life can seem sooo sad. Yet in that thorn, lies a blessing. I hurt so bad sometimes...being 36 hours away from my family. Yet, I have a family. True. Some don't. Today- I missed having my mother with me/near me. Some have lost theirs. There are times I am hurting because I know I am not liked for whatever reason, yet atleast I am alive and can strive with all that is in me to prove any negativity wrong. I make mistakes, too many, yet I have a desire to try to not make those mistakes from that point on. I yearn with all that is within me to see or hear from the Lord and at times feel alone, yet I know His saving grace and redeeming love. So whether you know me, or I know you. Whether we are friends or accquaintances. We are all on lifes road together. If you see me fall, help me up. If I see you fall, take my hand. Life is too short to assume you know what I am thinking, too short for me to do the same to you. Too short, to live in the negative, to look at all that is wrong. Because as I talk to myself ms pesimistic, I have to say...I need a change to my way of thinking. Life could always be better or worse, but whatever may come- may I choose to live in the SONshine of His grace and choose "the better" be it only a state of mind.

Dr Pepper Cake

It was good. BUT, I want to find a way to infuse MORE of the Dr.Pepper Flavor. It just tasted like cake, no dr pepper flavor at all!!! There is a recipe out there for a chocolate dr pepper cake, but you still cant taste the dr pepper. So, I will post a recipe once I am more pleased with it. Heather, my husband is a Dr Pepper fanatic!!! He probably drinks 3-5 a day! Much to my chagrin. Thus, I really would like to create something that you can taste the dr pepper. I am going to try a dr pepper frosting too.

Guess what!! I get to go to Idaho next weekend!! They even let me use both of my vouchers! WOOHOO! So no money out of my pocket! I am going to surprise my daddy, he doesnt even know I am coming!!

If you read this, please pray for Brother Raines and his family. He has cancer, and is starting to get weak. I would love for the Lord to heal him! Just pray for strength for the family during this time.

My sister in law leaves for her first BTI ever tomorrow!! I am excited for her! Pray she is safe and has a blessed time!!

It is fixing to storm here. I need to read my Bible too, so good night yaaaaaaaaaaa'allllllllll

Macaroni and Cheeeese

Well....so much for my big plans of cleaning tonight. Damon was at a side job and I thought "Kasey this would would be a GREAT night to clean, then you will have it done for the weekend." I got the bathroom done...sort of. I didnt get the floor mopped, but I did clean the shower, toilet, sink, surfaces of sink and toilet..etc.

THEN I started to make Dinner. Steak and Chicken (damon steak, me chicken) Macaroni and cheese, and dr pepper cake. I know, I know...no veggie. I didn't wanna cook much and that was all I got to. The cake was a boxed mix, that I added dr pepper to. We shall see if it tastes good.

I would ask that all who read this, say a prayer for the following situation. My grandmother has given the house to one of my cousins. His fiancee has taken all of my Grandmas things out of the house or put them down stairs. I would really like to be there to go through the things to see what I would like to have. It's not just to "get stuff" it is to hold on to a part my heritage and cherished family momentos. I am very close to my deendee and I love anything that belonged to her and my granpda (well almost). I am trying to get a flight out this next weekend. currently the plane tickets are 344 for the weekend. I need prayer that A) they go down to wear I can afford to get a ticket with one of my vouchers, or B) that Damon can get his side job done and i can get the ticket by this saturday. I really want to be there. PLEASE pray.

Ouch...my head!

I have a headaaaaache! Yowchy yowch. One piece of advice....if at all possible, do not do housework with a headache. Also, do not raise your head up to fast from the stooped position. You tend to feel your pulse in your temples.

For dinner tonight we had a lovely frozen pizza, yum! I did not feel well towards the end of the day at work thus did not want to cook when i got home. Just a side note, I am thankful we have food. We could be in a place where there isn't food or fresh water, so thank You Lord.

I finished making my mothers day cards. I am NOT a stamper/scrapbooker person. my cards tend to end up looking funny, yet my mommy loves them because she knows I try. Well, a few of the women in my life are getting some my mom made, aka pretty, and a the others are getting the ones I made...aka, not really pretty. LOL. I just dont have the patience for it.

Tonight i folded laundry, my arch enemy, yet again..thankful for clothes to wear! Swept, vacuumed, did dishes and shook rugs. The house looks MUCH better! Damon even commented on it. i try to keep the house work up, but I havent had much motivation running through me lately. I even had a load sitting in my bedroom thats been clean since last weekend, or the last week (maybe) that still needed to be folded!

I need to go to bed, I am always tired- so it seems- in the morning. Might be because I go to bed at 10:30 or11:30 and get up at 6...or lately i have been getting up at "6ish" which translates to 6:45. Say a prayer for me, Jesus loves you soooo much!

Colonial Fest

Looks like, Lord willing, tomorrow Damon and I will be off to the Colonial Festival with Brad and Rachel- and of course little Sara'beth. I like calling her that. (rachel- hopefully that is okay, if not just tell me)

I am back to sunday school tomorrow. Teaching that is. I have my craft in mind. I just need to make my game up. If you read this before Sunday School, pray for the kids and I.

Peace out homies.

Question of the day: McDonalds at midnight, good or bad. guess I will find out.

Saturday

We slept in until 11:30. You heard me right. I feel so lazy! Damons asthma has been pretty bad. I annointed him with oil last night and prayed. We were on our way to the emergency room and he told me to turn around, because it was so much better. It has not gotten as bad as it was last night, since we prayed. I thank the Lord for that. However, he still can't get too active or he gets winded easily. He won't tell me how he is doing, i have to pry it out of him and do the "how bad is it, out of a 1 to 10, 10 being the worst" scale. Last night was a 7, 8, or 9. After our prayer it dropped to a 4 rating and got to a 5 this morning. That may not seem like a lot to anyone else but me, but I thank the Lord He touched Damon. anyway he doesnt sleep well when his asthma is bothered because he wakes up so much. So I got up at 8 to get ready for the meeting, but thought i needed to stay with him. (childrens ministry meeting) and came in the living room and read my Bible for a while. Then went laid down again.

I am trying to find modest culottes online. I want to try my hand at sewing again, but...i yi yi...it's so involved. This is a me thing. being honest. I love how comfortable culottes are. But I need ones that look like a skirt and are full, but not too full. I am full enough with fat, I dont need to look like a baloon. Ya know.

our vacation is coming up soon. I am getting excited and concerned. Money is an issue. We have been saving, but is it going to be enough. I don't want to be broke for vacation.

Thats all for now, I need to go grocery shopping and to the fabric store.

Hey....

Busy day today. And now I am bummed. I feel like I disobeyed the Lord. I asked Him to forgive me, but I just wish I would obey perfectly. I don't like messing up. Its my desire to do live for Jesus completely. *sigh* grrrrrrr