Am I Ready?

Just a disclaimer...this is MY blog. MY thoughts, NOT yours. If you don't agree, fine...you have every right to disagree. But if there is any negativity, please keep it to yourself. :) What I am blogging about today, is very personal, and very much my decision, and very close to my heart. I ask that you respect my feelings.

This will be my third Valentine's Day without my husband. I love him, and I miss him. Most of the time I do pretty good, by the Lords help. But, I wonder if I am ready to love again. When I got married, I took it seriously. Believing what I believe according to what the Bible says, Marriage is for life. Until death do you part, regardless of what may come in that union. The only cause for remarriage is death (your companion dies) or Fornication (finding out your spouse has a living companion, i.e. they were previously married). It's a strong stance, I know, but check out the Bible, and it will back those statements up. I find myself widowed, for whatever reason God saw fit to take my wonderful husband home. He was amazing, my everything besides the Lord, my knight in shining armour. He was perfect. I will always, always, and I mean ALWAYS, love HIM. I wish he were here, but I can't change that he isn't. And, I miss having companionship, being loved, and adored, and taken care of. Sure, I haven't been blind since Damon passed, and I have noticed men, I am human. But have I really been ready to love? It's a big step. I can't really imagine opening my heart to anyone else again. It will be awkward. Very awkward. My plan was Damon, till death, or the rapture. To even conceive of loving someone else is odd. However, I think that my time to be open to that possibility again, has come. I can't change my circumstances, they are what they are. I love Damon always and forever, but I know he would want me to be happy and find love again. Should it happen, it will have to be God's will. My prayer has been that should love come my way again, that the love be just as strong, or not at all. And, that as much as I love Damon, that I won't compare that person to Damon's perfectness. I only want love again if it will be just as great in it's own right. I will always love my Damon. Should love come my way again, I must leave it in God's hands to be done in HIS way and His time. And even if I only had love for the time I had my Damon, I will have been a surpremely blessed woman. I miss you Damon, I love you. Whatever the future holds, he was my first love, my husband, and will always be in my heart. To REAL Love.