Please

Please say a prayer for me....thanks.

Clean House

I cleaned the house last night, it finally looks good again. I didn't really do any deep cleaning though, will have to wait. But I did wash and fold some laundry and put things away, do dishes, sweep, vacuum, just all around straightening up. My friend sent me a candle! I like it. Its a yankee candle in Harvest scent! YUMMY! So although I am making my own now, I really think it was a sweet gift and is a good idea to see how it does and how I can make my product better. Since Yankee is a big name in the Candle World.

I couldn't get the laptop to pick up a internet connection this morning...dont know why. I unplugged it twice, both the comcast box and the router, who knows. If it is still that way when I get home I guess I need to call Comcast.

Would you believe I DIDN'T hit snooze this morning? That's the Lord. Because I asked Him to help me get up at 6:00 this morning. I usually hit snooze (no joke) 4-5 times. Last night I tried to get in bed early, and was asleep by 10:15 (thank You Jesus, again) and did not wake up until 5:54 I think. For some reason 5:11 is in my head, but I am not sure. I am sure about the 5:54 part. I think ;) hehe. That is so rare for me to sleep that much, for that long, uninterupted, AND I dreamed about Damon. Shew, what a good night!! He is so CUTE! What a great dream! Makes him feel alive again sort of.

Okay, well that is it! Love yall, me

A Sitcom

I have been told in the past and most recently, today, that my life should be a sitcom. Why...because I do and have some of the craziest things happen in my life! Today, for instance...was going to Marta to get my emissions checked because my registration expires 10/31. I am on my way and a train is crossing, so I wait...and wait....and wait. about 15-20 minutes goes by, finally I can cross and make my way to Marta. I keep looking for where I think it should be and then turn around and realize...DUH it was behind you Kasey. You waited all that time for a place you needed to go that was behind you! GRRRR. LOL...and Emily is right...I have to admit, that is funny. :)

Vehicle Trouble

It is times like this when things really seem to hit hard that he isn't here. Damon's "service engine soon" light came on the other day and his truck has been running REALLY rough off an on. A few days ago I noticed my car started making popping noise when I turned to the right or left. The car I am thinking is an issue with the CV Joints, I spoke with Tom Bannen and it could possibly be under warranty still. PRAY it is. From what I have read its going to cost me 400-500 to get it fixed if that IS the problem and it isn't under warranty. The truck is a coil pack issue, again, only hypothesizing on that one. I do not only miss Damon when bad things happen, don't get me wrong. It is just when things like this happen, I realize HE would have been the one taking care of it, or fixing it and everything would have been okay. I feel so...blech...I dunno, just almost lost when it comes to this sort of thing. I wish I had my husband, not only for this kind of thing, but to comfort me and just be with me through it all. I have a headache. Thank You for the sunshine and the rain Lord, please give me the grace to enjoy both.

Plane Tickets

PLEASE pray yall. I need to find plane tickets for Christmas and they are HIGH right now. Shew. I will be here in TN for Thanksgiving. I really want to buy a ticket, and will buy one regardless but it would sure be nice to get one at a cheaper price. Any prayers would be appreciated.

Also, while I am asking for prayer, pray for me this weekend. I will be going to Ladies Retreat in Townsend. Not far from Pigeon Forge, my least favorite place on the earth at this point. God is a God of peace, a supplier of Joy and Happiness, I know He is able.

I am thankful to have my laptop back. In the end I decided to keep my original laptop, as a personal choice, and am getting an extended warranty. It was the right choice for me, and I am happy.

God is good, amen, Praise the Lord for being a good and great God!

CHECK IT OUT!!!!

oh thank you thank you thank you!!! To my friend Tammy!! She got the new design for Damon's memorial site up!! YAY! It is sooo him! Tell me what you think, better yet, leave a comment on his memorial!!! PLEASE! DAMON!

A Muddy Soupy Mess!

What a beautiful sight!


This is Bug (aka Kelton) and my Aunt. Bug is Michael's age, they could have sooo much fun together!


Bug's truck in the mud!

Mud and such

I had a LOT of fun today!! I went Mudding with my Aunt, and some other friends. It was sooo fun! Damon would have liked it, for sure! We took my daddys four wheelers and then my friends brought their trucks. I got stuck...ALMOST!! I put the four wheeler into 4 low instead of high...which helps, and started rocking back and forth and with a little gas finally made it out. The mud was up to the top of the tire, and if it wasn't it was close! I have pictures!!! It was miry mud too, the sticky kind. Anyway...I am not sure if I have wind burn or sun burn, but my face is red! I wish Damon was here...we could have had soo much fun together. Plus he would have been SO cute with mud on his face!!

I hear my puppy is doing just fine and have been informed she is being HAND fed. Spoiled thing...she's such a little heart stealer! If you can read this Honey, Mommy loves you and misses you!

I am out folks...I love Damon Broyles!

Hello

Pray for me, pray for my traveling safety, pray for my puppy to be okay, and my boys, aka the cats.

I just need God to wrap His arms around me today, and whisper "sweet peace". I really really do.

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...I miss my husband. I really really miss him.

I have to leave my puppy when I go to Idaho for the weekend. I know its only for 3 nights, but that dog is my baby. She has been such a source of comfort since Damon has passed. I don't want to leave her. I want her to come with me, but I don't think it wise (financially) to bring her every time. I really want to have some fun. Life shouldn't be based on fun alone, but it gets your mind off of things.

I made Emily a spiced pear candle last night, I hope she liked it. I also made my CPMA candle...if you wanna see it, come to Antioch tonight. :)

Half Day

Well this morning I woke up feeling fine, a little tired but otherwise okay. As I was getting ready to put on my outfit for the day I got NAUSEOUS. Bad. At one point I thought I was going to lose it. Then the headache came. So I called work and told them I would be in when I felt better....so I came in for a half day today the nauseousness is gone, but the headache seems to fade in and out. Momma thinks that I got sick feeling because I took my daily vitamin without eating. I drank some V-8 Fruit Juice with it and thought that would be okay. Anyway...I am here now.

Emily is coming over tonight. I am soooo excited. It is so different to go from having a wonderful dream filled life with the one you love and cherish, to being in a house alone and wondering what to do for the evening to fill the time. Sometimes I get jealous of others because their dreams are coming true and I feel like mine were cut short. God knows, I still cling to the fact He has a bigger plan. I refuse to get angry at Him because the plan that Kasey had for this life didn't work out. I guess it is just hard to feel like you are the one whose life fell apart and you get to see others dreams continuing on. It is normal to feel that, I just don't need to dwell on it. I say all that to say I am glad Emily still comes over and makes my night joyful. Even if it has been 4 months.

I shall see yall later. May the Lord bless you and keep you, and may He make His face to shine upon you.

Heartache

Please pray for a co worker of my moms. The coworker's nephew was hit by a drunk driver last night and was killed, he was 19. This is a great trauma for the family. Life is so so so short. I find myself to be somewhat of an extremist. In all areas of life (almost) I think I find that I am either all or nothing. It is black or white with me. That can be good, or bad. After last night's service I feel so inadequate. There is so much, we as humans, don't understand. Life seems so normal, so routine, we can easily be lulled to sleep by all that goes on around us. I don't want to miss the rapture, I want to be perfected. Though I don't understand the concept of a lot of things, I want to blindly trust Him, and walk hand in hand with my Jesus toward Heaven. There is so much work to do, how do I start, where do I start? What do I do? Recently I started praying with my Dad, one time just him and me, another with him, mom and me. This is really hard for me, but I want my daddy to know Jesus like I do. I am so private when it comes to my walk with the Lord, if I struggle I don't want people to know (not like backslid, just trials), when I pray i am just private about it. It is hard for me to pray publicly especially in front of loved ones. The day Damon passed away, I prayed hard, harder than I think I have EVER prayed before, and I did it in front of my father and everyone else around. NO, I didn't get the answer I THOUGHT should happen, I got the one that needed to happen. But I am hoping that through all of that, and the "this" (meaning every day life now) since Damon has passed will have an impact on not only my father, but the rest of my family, and his, and all that we knew. God's plan is bigger. No, I don't "LIKE" this part of the plan. I didn't WANT to be a widow, BUT, I serve a God who is bigger than my problems and has a plan even bigger than I can really see. He said He is coming back soon. I don't want to teeter totter around and miss it. God just help me to make it. This is no joke, I know when God says something, He means it. I want to make it. I just need to find the fine line between working hard, and feeling so inadequate and worried that I let it get me down.

I played the drums last night at church. It was kind of fun ya know! I used to play actively in High School. I played bass and snare in marching band, set in Jazz, percussion section in concert. I played set for about three to four years in Idaho at church, then just sorta quit for different reasons. I had told a few people at church that I played. Josh Y. being one of them. Well it was a huge blessing for Brother Dennis to be there last night, and sis Beverly wasn't able to come so Josh played piano. He normally covers drums...he asked me to play them for song service. For some reason I just went on up there. Well the Lord I reckon. I have wanted to before...just never got up the nerve, last night it just flowed and happened. I have found that is how life is, atleast for me. I worry and stress about this way or that, but it seems that God just directs my steps so they flow together. I may not realize that I am on the path until a few days later, but He DOES direct it. Even something as small as playing the drums. I really really need to set up the set...lol, that sounded funny, anyway...if I am going to play I need to set it up to fit my arm/leg lengths, etc.. I admit...I wanna play again now. I do need to practice fills. I have always been to skeered to actually do a fill in front of people. Loudly anyway.

Thanks to the Lord my first craft show as a candle maker went wondrefully! I sold all nine of them and have orders for more!! It was fun, exciting, hard work, and totally rewarding!! So far, I have gotten good reviews about them!! I had some left over wax in one fragrance so poured it into a jar, and let it set. I had left overs from another and poured that on top of the other after it had set, so now I have a really pretty brown and orange (Spices Wassail/Pumpkin Souffle) candle. :) It is burning really evenly too. I am impressed!!

Well, the verse playing through my mind is one I also saw on Tam's blog this morning. I thought about it last night and then saw it there this morning, must be the Lord huh! Psalm 27:4 "One thing have I desired of the Lord, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord, and to inquire in his temple"

Somebody's...

...gettin' old!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOAH!!!!

I did that in spiderman colors!!

I love you buddy.

Aunt Kasey

Friday

Today is Friday, it has been hard so far. I hate worrying. Pray for me not to worry, my mind seems to be my worst enemy. I worry should I do this or that....I just want to make it to Heaven.

I dont want to waste to much time at work, so this will be quick.

My wicks wont come in, so I don't know if I will have candles ready for the craft show tomorrow.

I miss my husband. I don't want to complain, but life feels lonely, sad, and hard. I am still blessed, and I will still praise His name, thank You Jesus. But now yall know what to pray about.

GUESS WHAT!?! GUESS WHAT!?! GUESS WHAT!?!

Remember how I asked you all to pray that atleast one of the people that I invited would come? (I think ya'll know where I am going with this) Well GUESS WHAT!!?!?!?! Not only did ONE of Damon's co-workers come, but TWO! WAHOOOOOOOOOOO, Thank YOU Jesus!! HOW cool is that?! O man, I was soo excited and thankful to the Lord. I am tellin yall, I did not remotely expect that! I started crying when I saw them. Blubbering would be more like it.

On the way to church last night (I had Gina, Michael, and Brittany S.) Honey started acting really weird. She had no balance and started curling up on one side. A few minutes before this started happening, I noticed her trying to get up front and it was like she had slipped and was just slipping and slipping in between the back and front seats. So a few minutes later she came up front again and she couldn't stand straight and was falling over. I looked at her gums and they were like purplish red, I thought she was choking on something. We discovered she was breathing and were really praying, then it was like she came out of it. A few minutes later she started curling up again onto one side and her eyes got all bulgy looking. She did this a total of three times. I called my vet, closed, called emergency vet, closed. GRRR, this was 20 minutes before church started. We brought her inside to the sanctuary and about 5-7 people gathered around her and we prayed. Some even laid hands on her. I was really tore up, this is my baby, a part of my life and healing process after Damon passed. I did NOT want to lose her. After prayer she seemed to be fine. I kept her in one of the sunday school rooms ( I hope this doesn't seem disrespectful to some, Honey is almost the official church dog, everyone pretty much knows her and her name and that she is pretty much anywhere I am, long as it isn't too hot or too cold) and kept checking on her. She was doing good and mainly just wanted out to be with me. Anyway, after all of that, you can see why God bringing Damon's former co-workers was such a uplifting thing for me. Not only an answer to prayer, but Sonshine after the storm.

The skit went really well I think. It seemed to go sooo fast. You practice and practice and pray and put your heart into it, then it's like BAM! Done! I watched it on video last night and man, I am totally losing more weight. EWWW. I don't think God created me to ever be super skinny, but shew... yuckiness. Believe it or not, that running last weekend was awesome. I really would love to keep doing that atleast once a week with a friend. Then just jog at home on the treadmill throughout the week.

I guess this is the post for the day. :) I should get some of my candle stuff TODAY! Yeehaw!

Memory Loss

Since Damon has been gone I have had the WORST memory. I used to be sharp as a tack when it came to remembering thigns (not bragging) a steel trap mind as they would say. Since his passing on, I cannot seem to remember a lot of things for work. I just wonder if you can really lose a part of your memory skills if a serious trauma occurs in your life. Does anyone know?

Tonight

I have invited quite a few people to tonight...pray atleast ONE comes. Just one would be great, more even better. I have invited Damon's former co workers, my co workers. I REALLY want them to come.

Quickly Now

Okay, quickly...I will try to hurry up and say what I gotta say. Or want to say..haha. ANYWAY.

TONIGHT: COME ONE, COME ALL.
7PM THE CHURCH OF GOD, ANTIOCH TN
A wonderful theatrical presentation by the youth department.
You will NOT want to miss this.

SATURDAY
Sis Amy's House (I think 1PM, maybe 2PM)
In House Craft Show, bring to sell, bring money to buy.

Have a wonderful Day. me

New Post

On Damon's Memorial. It is short, but check it out. Leave a memory about him if you wish.

Before 11

I think I was officially asleep (are you ready?) before 11pm last night! WOOOOHOOOO! Thank YOU Jesus. I have such a hard time going to sleep. I stew and think and worry at night, so bad. Sometimes I just have to pray to go to sleep. It's just my personality trait I guess...I am a stewer...good thing I don't smell like stew. EW...hey that rhymed, oh my. ;)

I was thinking about Damon this morning...He was so cute. I remembered when we FIRST met. I thought "he's cute" and he said his thought was "wow" (for the good by the way). We just fit, ya know. God orchestrated our love story and I am so glad that I know what true real deep genuine love is. I wish he was still here, and in reality it's hard to imagine him gone. wow, even as I think of it right now...it's just so odd. I miss him, I love him.

I hope the candles do well, I am so excited. I need to get a few more things, a scale to measure my wax by weight, a glue gun since I can't find mine, my containers to pour in, my bags and labels and tissue paper. I love my name, Solomon Candle Co. woohoo...I like making candles, so much more than stamping. Sorry momma! I will say, IT'S MESSY. Oh I also need a double boiler pan with a pour spout. Pour spouts make it much easier when trying NOT to get wax all over. I am just so excited about all this. :)

Pray for my headache, I have had it since last night. YUCK. I made potato soup last night too, from scratch...cept i used pre packaged mashed potatoes and not cut up ones. YUMMY!

Have a great day.