Friday, April 28, 2006

Seeking

First before I get into my daily blogging...
I again want to mention the new Recipe Blog

http://yummyinmytummyrecipes.blogspot.com

and if you want to be a member please e-mail me at sgrplum1@hotmail.com . Once I get your e-mail address I can send you an invitation and you can be a blog contributor and post recipes on the blog!

Now back to the regularly televised progra....uh I mean blog!

This is the day that the Lord hath made, let us rejoice and be glad in it. This is the day, this is the day that the Lord hath made. Have you ever stopped to consider that song. Seriously...this IS the day the Lord hath made, if He hadn't of made today we would not be here. It is literally another blessing from God and one more day to be a shining light for Him in someones life. Just had that thought, and wanted to share.

I am seeking the Lord, I want to be right in all things. Not just a few, if I am doing something wrong I want to know. I say that now, but when the chastising comes it will hurt, lol. Seriously, I want to hear HIS voice and please Him. I am so tired of messing up as far as daily actions. Not sins, just everyday faults. Things I could work on and make better. Be a better wife, co worker, sister in the Lord, encourager...and the list goes on!


Another thing, is it wrong to look nice? I like looking nice, take off 50lbs and I would be looking a LOT nicer and a LOT skinnier *again I degress and back to subject*. My husband says I worry to much. He's right...I worry about some things that are really just more of a mind game to me and end up weakening me rather than it really being the Lord. I am weird....*sigh* For a long time I thought shaving your legs might be wrong and was convinced my first (and only thus far) year at BTI that I was cut off and going to hell. Man I had to fight through that. For a long while I wondered if plucking your eyebrows was wrong so for a long time I stopped (mainly so I wouldn't have to think or worry or stress). Before I used to put a lot of emphasis on my eyebrows. Once I stopped I didn't worry about them other than it made me feel ugly and that I had a plant growing above each eye. Recently I just plucked the little stray hairs at the bottom and each time I do that I have the thought that I am gonna lose the spirit of God forever. NOW, I know NOOOO eyebrow and it's beauty is worth losing out with God. But I wonder, is this just me, is it something for me to worry about, if I went through all this stuff at BTI about shaving my legs and it wasn't from God and this feels the same way than is it not God either. I know where confusion comes from, and it is NOT God. See my mind...*sigh*...messed up. Welcome to my brain and thats only one problem I stress over. I feel soooo much prettier with them lightly plucked and anymore I don't feel prideful with having them look nice cus I don't pluck them NEARLY as much as I used to. I had them pretty thin. Before I came to the Lord and The church I had my heart set on being a make up artist, that is the one thing I KNEW I wanted to do. That obviously all changed and so has my heart THANK THE LORD, but I still like nice neat eyebrows even though I am now bare faced. I don't know....I make myself go in circles. I wonder if God looks at me and shakes His head half in laughter and half in "oh my". Now I will end this convo with saying this...I rarely tell people of the things that plague me as I am afraid of what people say. I have been deeply hurt in the past and I am very guarded with my problems and troubles. I mainly take them to God, so in your advice...please be gentle.

Love to you all.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

NEW RECIPE BLOG!

Introducing.....

http://yummyinmytummyrecipes.blogspot.com

If I didn't have your e-mail address, I did not send you an invitation to become a member of this new blog. It is for recipes for food and crafts, and all who want to post must email me (keep in mind you DO have to have a blogger account to become a member) at sgrplum1@hotmail.com with the subject line "recipes" so I know what an email from a new address is about!;) With this blog you do not just comment, but once you become a member you actually post like you would post in your own blog. I just have to send you a member invitation to put you as a contributor! Let me know, I hope we get lots of input on this.

Not at home, but still sick

I sound like a frog...or make that a sheep when it baaaaaaaaaaah's. Ew. I can't even sing, I can hardly talk normal, in fact the sound of my voice is annoying to me! The junk is half in my throat and half ready to come out, which again, is REALLY ANNOYING! Uhhh! It got worse the more I talked last night (I was in charge of the lesson for Gleaners), which I might add, I was told I was "long winded"! For the first time ever, me? Long winded? *sigh* LOL, I mean I know I like to talk but I don't think I am long winded when it comes to that kind of stuff. The best part is I actually felt like they paid attention, now I won't tell you that I had candy for them every time they answered correctly so that probably helped, but....they were wonderful last night for the most part! Here lately the kids in gleaners have been FULL to the rim, of energy. ANYWAY, back to my sick story :p I woke up this morning very very tired, somewhat nauseous (coulda been cus I was hungry, because now that I ate I am not hungry anymore), coughing, ears buggin out, man....just all together icky. I couldn't afford another un paid sick day though. *but I digress*

Thanks for the compliment MT (momma tammi), I like the pic myself, but I look like I have really dark circles under my eyes in my opinion.

Walmart still hasn't called me back after Saturday...They called to tell me about orientation on Monday at 9am. I told the lady that I couldn't cus I work a regular full time job and she said "oh, well no one told me that" and proceeded to say that she would call me back when she got it set up for a time I could attend. I checked back with her on Tuesday and she still hadn't set anything up. I asked my sis in law if they were still gonna hire me but were just taking their sweet time, she said yeah they were probably just being slow. If they pay for my drug test (which I apparently passed *phew*) than I am hired pretty much. Should I call the guy who interviewed me, today? I need that money for my dental bridge.

Going to a wedding this weekend hopefully! WOOHOOO, I love weddings! Specially church hitchins LOL.

Next weekend we are hopefully going to KY for Damon's Uncles Race, I am gonna see if their are in TCOG's close to there cus I think we may be there on Sunday too. If not, I am going to tell Damon I want to be back for Evening service at our local church. Or even stop at a TCOG on the way back for service. I don't like missing to much service.

I am so ready to landscape...only wish it was our yard, so that all the money we pay for flowers wouldn't be wasted when we move someday! I want those tropical tree flower lookin things. I can't rememer what they are called. We also like Jasmine vines, and...Hydrangea bushes. Our goal is to have something that blooms now, in summer, and fall, and then bushes that will remain there year round. We also want differing heights and colors. I already have the landscaping stones in place, however I just got informed of some little friends that decided to take root from last years harvest time (halloween). Damon and I carved pumpkins last year, mine said "Jesus *hearts* you" and his was some sort of smiley face. Apparently some of our punkies seeds decided to hibernate because now we have a pretty good size patch of pumpkin vines growing, and I was informed *smile* that they were staying there. I told him we would have to hid them in our flowers, lol.

Well anyway...I hope everyone has a blessed day in my Saviors name! *that's Jesus by the way :p*

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Homesick???

Just to clarify, when mom requested prayer for me the other day, I was not "homesick" I was AT home sick. Like physically ill. I am still getting over it and have a very scratchy throat and a hubby who can't breath ;)

Up Early

Damon has been having trouble with his asthma lately (more than usual), mainly I think due to the change in season and things blooming. Well, if you know Damon then you know he won't go to the ER unless he really feels like his life is in Danger. He went to the Baptist Hospital ER this morning at 4am. My poor baby. Please pray for him. Asthma is an awful thing, I keep praying for his healing but sometimes wonder if this is his thorn in the flesh. His career choice doesn't help him either (he's a painter and cuts grass). Please pray for him

Thanks,

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

What a weekend!

I will start off with Friday night, Youth convention! It was great and a huuuge blessing. The music was wonderful and the spirit of the Lord was really there! Saturday- Youth convention again, sis. Savannah Hatton (9 & 3/4 years old, and she STRESSED the 3/4 part !) preached a great message, so did sis Amy. We had two Message and Interpretations. They were encouraging from the Lord! Prayer was taken up for much requests, and God really moved. He blessed a lot and the afternoon service was wonderful too! The best youth convention I have ever been too, and I really needed it. The Spirit of the Lord was so sweet there, I don't think I have ever felt such a sweetness, and humbleness, and loving Spirit.
Saturday night- on the way home we received a call from Dave! (I know you are smiling Rachel) for those of you who don't remember, Dave is the one who conformed Rachel into redneckism! He wanted to know if we wanted to go 4 wheeling in Triune with him. So we met him at the 109 mapco and parked at the waffle house and headed out (in my church clothes, skirt/flip flops, mind you). Triune is an hour drive, first job of the night was to help his buddy get his bob cat unstuck. Hmmm....get up there, can't get it unstuck, then I find something every interesting out. The property we are on is (are you ready?) TANYA TUCKERS! Whoa...the guy he's helping takes care of Tanya's horses and barn and rides for her I think. He's like, wanna see her house?! DUH! YESS! He said she was in Talladega (sp?) or we could have met her. She has over 600 acres and the house is huuuuuuge! Wild Turkey, Deer, rolling grassy hills! I even petted George Jones horse! WHOA! He invited us back. Anyway, I was so excited that I was RIGHT IN FRONT of her house. ME, Kasey B. in front of Tanya Tuckers MANSION! It was huuuge! Her dog followed us for the longest time! Ok, back to the stuck bob cat, well Dave was going to have to winch the cat out and....guess what. He forgot his remote for it, in Old Hickory! He wasn't movin his Jimmy because he had just got it wedged in between two tree stumps to keep it steady for winching, however the one tree stump he did not know was behind us until we hit it full force...all together now *whiplash!* So, we had to take the farm truck, which had no windshield wipers and the drivers side door had no handle all the way back to Old Hickory with a u joint and master cylinder going out! We made it! On the way back we got stuck in traffic, two miles took 45 minutes. *sigh* Made it back to triune about 11:30ish. One problem after another took place, winch killed battery, jimmy wouldn't start, bob cat still stuck, 2 wheel drive pick up brought in *wincing, please not another vehicle to get stuck* finally got winch to work, jimmy still not starting...Kaseys prays...woohooo bob cat OUT and unstuck, 2 wheel drive pickup made it out! WOOHOO, now, JIMMY STARTS! WOOOHOOOO, thank you Jesus! Oh wait, did I mention no 4 wheeling had taken place yet :( and it's 2am. We decided to head home. Got in Saturday night, or shall I say sunday morning at 3am. SO FUN!

Sunday, Damon and I sang a new song together by Casting Crowns, PRAISE YOU IN THE STORM! We did pretty good PTL!

Sunday night/early Monday AM- ewwwww waking up several times, sore throat, ear hurting.

Monday 6ish, "work, I am not coming in."
Got up late around 9:30am....and beings I am convinced I have OCD, I did what I always do when I stay home. I cleaned house, I even weed eated...I can't help it :( The stuff calls to me to get done!

Well that was my weekend!

Oh yeah, wal-mart called me Sat. Morning for Orientation, but I told them I couldn't go cus I had a full time job it interfered with. She has to call me back now to set up another time. So I guess that means I kinda got the job!

Friday, April 21, 2006

The day after....

So, as Gracie already knows, Southern Women's Show was quite interesting!
I got a pressure point massage (ooowwww) then I got a chin wrap! Have you heard of those herbal body wraps that supposedly make you lose inches within 45 minutes? Well that is what this is, it was a chin wrap and the woman who took me had just been talking about wanting to get her chin done (plastic surgery) cus she think's it sagging. I said, well here ya go! The results last 2-6 months. She says "do you wanna do it?" I gave in. So we walked around for 45 minuts with a chin wrap and a bow holding it on. Results? I lost 1/4 inch she lost 1/2 inch, and you can really tell too! I wore mine last night and my chin/neck (double chin area) looks smaller! In between all this 45 minute time we sat down for the super star cooking show. Guess who got volunteered to help, yours truly. The person I helped was....be prepared....she is....
http://www.rubylot18.homestead.com/index.html
....a he, I think. I don't know, but the food was EXCELLENT. Posting two recipes she/it/he, did last night. And I AM getting the cook book cus the food was sooo good.

RUBY ANN’S CHEESY PIGGYBACK CHICKEN
3 tablespoons cooking oil
1 tablespoon onion powder
1 tablespoon garlic salt
4 skinless boneless chicken breast
4 oz Gruyere cheese, cubed
1 tablespoon butter
2 tablespoons chives, chopped
½ red onion, chopped
2 tablespoons minced garlic
8 slices bacon, cooked

Put the oil in a skillet and place on a medium-high heat burner. When it gets hot, add the onion powder and garlic salt. Stir and let it set for 30 seconds. Carefully add the chicken breast, cover, and cook for six minutes on each side. Cut into the middle of the breasts to make sure that they are white all the way through. If it ain't, let the bird fry in the oil a little longer. Drain on a paper towel.

While the chicken fries, put the cheese and butter into a pot and place on medium-high heat, stirring constantly. Once the cheese melts, add the chives, red onion, and minced garlic. Stir well and take off the heat.

Place two chicken breast on a plate, top each with two bacon slices and cheese sauces.


FANCY TRAILER PARK TATORS
1 lb Velveeta Cheese, cubed
2 c Mayonnaise
2 lb Frozen Hash Brown potatoes Defrosted about 15 min.
1/2 lb Bacon, cooked & crumbled

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Melt Velveeta in microwave. Stir, and add mayonnaise and hash browns to cheese. Mix well. Put into a 9 X 13 inch shallow baking dish and top with bacon. Bake, uncovered for 40-60 min. until bubbly, golden brown, and cooked in the middle.

I helped with the trailer park tators, yummmmmmmmmy!

We got free Ice cream and I have a new favorte (grreat, just what I need for my diet) its by Mayfield, blueberry pie. YUMMMMMY! Oh my! Anyway, we told Damon we would be home around eight. Got hom at 9:30. We didn't leave the show until closing time which was 8pm, then Judy took me to Olive Garden. Judy is the lady's name. Man I was spoiled! She bought my ticket, my chin wrap, she bought this grill thing buy one get one free and gave me the other one, she bought me olive garden. I only spent 5 dollars on praline fudge that I think I might send to momma!

Needless to say I had a fun night!

I know...background is still funny, I am having a hard time finding a pic I like.

peace out!

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Southern Women's Show, NO REALLY

Okay, so this time I am really going to the SWS tonight. Am I a southern woman? By birth, no...by marriage, well the natives say it takes atleast five years to become completely southern if introduced to the South via Marriage, so...again I say, by marriage, no. (wow, that was a lot of comma's) Oh well, I am going with a woman in her 40's named Judy, whom I have met all of 4 times. She loooooooooves to talk and is very bubbly *looks for help* I like to talk, but I am not one of those bouncy people. Should be fun though, I hear there are lots of freebies and food. Just what I need, lots of food. *sigh* She says to bring money *shhhh, don't tell Damon she said that* haha. I doubt I will have any money to bring as I am brrroke. Well almost, but I have groceries to buy.

Shower planning....hmmm, I love it. I really wish I could be a wedding and party planner for a living. I'd be great at it. I don't wanna deal with alcohol, and second (third, fourth, fifth) marriage though, so there ya go. I dunno, could I do it without having to deal with that stuff. Could I state my morals and beliefs and decline some clients? Thought anyone?

Busy at work today, and I smell like bleach, yuck. I'm wearing my white shirt that got washed in bleach and it smells like it. EW.

Brought pineapple rings for lunch YUM in their own juice. I looooove pineapple like that. I am weird though, cus I don't like it in baked stuff or in fruit salads. EW. I like it dried or by itself in rings. Not in chunks, in rings...then I can cut my own chunks up. OCD maybe? :D

Peace out yall, momma if you are reading this, a shout out to ya and I Mim u.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Oh Happy Day!

...when Jesus washed....when Jesus washed, when Jesus washed...He washed my sins away. Oh happy day, oh happy daaayy!

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

cya

well....blogger is boring.
cya

Monday, April 17, 2006

I have an interview

....Tomorrow at 4:15 for the Wal-Mart Super Center Photo Lab! I am excited, because A)extra money B) I think Photo Center closes earlier *yay* so I won't be going to bed as late C) it's five mins from my house! My sister in law who works at Wal Mart (same location) says if I have an interview then I have pretty much got the job as long as I pass the drug test. MAN! I'm gonna flop on that point! *note sacrasm* Anyway...I am excited, if it's the Lord's will that I get this then WOO HOO! It will help in paying for a lot of extra things! Mainly my dental bridge *OUCH* $800, honey's plane ticket, savings, etc.. I also want to buy a sewing machine. I am interested in making stuff from patterns!

Um...not much else, oh yeah. We went to the zoo yesterday. WOW, me feet HURT! We walked the whole thing. MAN that was rough. The boys, myself, and yvonne all played on the kids jungle gym thing. It was AWESOME! Wendy your kids would have a blast! Yvonne and I event went down the swirly slide thing. I got scared cus it was so dark and I thought I would get stuck but I didn't. Then after all that, I rode my bike with the boys and my doggy down to the field and played soccer. I was so wore out.

Well, I need to work. TTYL

Thursday, April 13, 2006

OKKKKKKK, SO I MESSED UP!

Southern Women's show is NOT tonight, its next weekend. Sorry blogger peoples!

Southern Women's Show

Well...tonight I am going to the Southern Women's Show and hopefully it is all expenses paid! We have Sales People with different companies that try to schmooze us ( the company I work for) to use them for whatever service it is they provide (shipping etc.). Well this women got soooooo excited and was like "OH IM SO EXCITED, do you want to go with me?" I was thinking not really, but wanted to be nice. So, I said "suuuure?". I hope she couldn't tell I didn't really want to. I don't think thats lying, cus I did want to go to not hurt her feelings. She was so excited, I couldn't say no to her. I am just a hermit lately and I don't tend to talk much with new people, as far as majorly conversing, not unless I have others I am comfortable with around me. WOW...run on sentence. Anyway, hopefully she will be buying my ticket AND dinner :D.

Went to Curves again last night! WAHOOO, I could do that every day, except Sunday...because they are closed. Bought their protein shake mix and had my first try of it last night. It was...interesting. It tasted good, but it was REALLY grainy. Like drinking small specs of sand. But not bad enough to quit drinking it. It is only for after work outs. They say protein after a work out (within 30 mins of the work out) actually continues the work out process and thus you get more out of it. So they say...We shall see. All I know is, two days and no weight off. As of Monday I am on the curves 6 week challenge. 6 weeks would put me at the last week of May. I am trying to lose x amount of lbs before my friends wedding. If I stick to the diet, which I am purposed to do, I should hopefully with God's help lose a lot. I can do ALL things through Christ! So every time I have a bad craving I will pray for Jesus to keep me strong and take it away! Sides' with Megan around me, I can afford to be fat much longer. She's making me look really bad now! :p All skinny n stuff! *but I degress*

I have tomorrow off, so I most likely will not post until Monday unless I go to the Library to post. No internet at home still. I hope I can sleep in tomorrow. I think I am going to help Damon on a side job though, so hopefully he won't leave until 8. I could get up at 7:30 and be fine! Speaking of sleep, if any of you prayed for me about my sleeping, I really appreciate it. Last night I brought the fan in the room and though I went to bed way to late (after 11 something) I did not wake up until it was actually time to get up for the morning. First time in I don't know HOW long!

Any big plans for the weekend? I think I am going to work out on Friday morning. Hmmm.....I wonder if they are closed because of Good Friday. That is something the south celebrates, like corporately. In Idaho business don't shut down for Good Friday.

Peace out you lovely people you!

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Ear Plugs or a Fan...take your pick.

Y'all PLEASE pray for me to get a decent nights sleep. I literally wake up 3-5 times a night whether its bad dreams, our neighbors dog barking VERY close to our bedroom window, our other neighbors stereo, my cats clawing either the couch or woodwork (which highly irritates me), or Damon's snoring though it be a light snore. We go to bed around 9:30-10 as it is, but when I have to get up around 5-5:30 it wears me out waking up so much. I don't know how I have become such a light sleeper. *sigh*

On a better note...went to my first workout yesterday (with headache and all, thanks Wendy!) Was AWESOME! Normally I have a phobia of working out in front of others but I was getting such a great workout I hardly even thought about it. My heart rate got up to 26. My max is 28 so I didnt even have to stop it was great! The one thing that was not great was my weight....*sigh* I am NOT posting that on here. But atleast now I am working on it!

For dinner I made steak tips in gravy with mashed potatoes and steamed brocolli and butter rolls. The gravy and potatoes were even real, not boxed or packaged. Although, I did plan on doing gravy from the package because it's less fattening, but I had ran out. Was gonna do salad, but after coming home from curves and cooking for about an hour I had no energy to do a salad. One other thing I noticed is I am not in the mood for comfort food much, I am really into italian and lighter type stuff. Maybe I need to get some recipes on that! Who knows...Damon liked it and thats all that matters. You know I think I could give up red meat all together with the occassional burger being my only source of it. I really like chicken, and occassionally fish. Hmm...I'm weird.


Tonight is curves again, then the grocery, then home, then dinner, then church. Will be busy. Need to tape AI too...

Speaking of AI what did yall think?! Kelly RRRRRocked! I was REALLY shocked at her! I saw abit of Taylors 1st glory coming back out, was nice! I miss mandisa. Paris did pretty good. I thought Ace did good, surprised myself, although the judges didnt agree. Chris has and awesome voice, although he should have chose different song. Bucky...I think will be going home. It was good, but not great. Mcfeva is starting to get on my nerves somewhat. I thought she just did OK last night. Elliott was ok too.

Toodle loooooo, and if y'all have any italian recipe ideas let me know.

Damon if you ever read this thing...I LOVE YOU BABY!

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

It's official

I am now an official Curves member! Go me! I bit the bullet and went ahead and joined. Wasn't really to expensive. I go to be measured and weighed today *sigh* not looking forward to that! But, I am excited to get this started and lose my weight! I gave my sister in law my free passes and she wants to go with me.

I went and applied at Walmart last night, again GO ME! If they want me I am going to tell them I only want to work 3 nights a week, tops 4. I already work full time so I don't wanna wear myself out to much. We shall see if I get it. It would just be extra money as my regular job pays for gas, groceries, cell phone, and any extras we might need. I have a dental bridge in the beginning of june that is almost $900, two plane tickets to Idaho, (hopefully only $500 for both, or less) pay my car off $....never mind I don't wanna depress myself with that sum. So, the extra cash could help and once I had my most immediate needs filled, I would put in savings for a down payment on a house.

Nilah is nowhere to be seen. I am pretty sad about this. Please pray for her that she will be ok. I still want my Nilah girl back.

Ummm....today is Tuesday. Woohoo.....right? Damon's upset at me, and I annoyed at him. But I still love him :p my wittle wuv bug.

Monday, April 10, 2006

Manic Monday

Today has started off on the wrong foot. I don't want to be a whiner so I will give a bit of the story and then move on.

Friday was storm day as you know. Well, I noticed our new and very Shady neighbors got two new puppies. They look to be pit bulls. VERY sweet. I also noticed they have no shelter, with the exception one does have a stair way to get under. I have also noticed, there are no food and water bowls out for the little black one. The tenants were gone on Friday and it was raining very very hard, I mean a tornado WAS taking place 15-20 miles away. Anyway...I apparently am not the only one who noticed this abuse taking place because a neighbor across the street ran through the rain and got the little black one to get her out of the storm. I told him there was another, he got her too. At this point I was soaked because I was trying to get my ALL wood dog house onto the truck bed, which on my husbands fixer uper truck the tailgate is almost impossible to get open, wasnt working. I WAS SOAKED. I went and told the woman when she FINALLY got home where the puppies were and why they had been moved. She seemed clueless that they needed shelter. And like she didn't care. I shouldn't have told her where they were at. So she puts them back out on their chord and leaves again while it is still storming! I did manage to ask her if she would like my doghouse, she said yes, so atleast I could give the poor thing a shelter. I have named the little black one Nilah. She is my favorite, for some reason they take better care of the other one. Nilah is beautiful, she's all black whit white boots on the very bottom of her little paws. I have fallen in love with her. They won't feed her so I have been sneaking over and giving her food and water. Half the time she is so thirsty she gulps the water down, and the other half shes starving and almost chokes cus she's eating so fast. It's pitiful and breaks my heart. IF YOU CAN'T love or take care of a dog, DON'T GET IT! Or any animal for that matter. We got home from Church last night and they have moved her somewhere, shes nowhere to be seen outside. I have prayed she will be mine. I love her already, it is worrying me where she's at. I wouldn't put it past these people to fight her as she gets older. I have prayed that they would get saved and take care of her right, I have prayed someone would take her that loves her, if it can't be me. That is why I am down, I have truly fallen in love with her and I don't know where she's at, I called my momma crying. I miss my family too. Other fears started coming, I knew where they came from. I got better then had a awful night of bad dreams about all the situations I just mentioned. Awful awful. That has set the mood for my day. So, I don't know what to do...I have thought about asking if I could buy her. Damon isn't AGAINST the idea I don't think. He knows how much I love her. I just don't know. Pray that God will open the door that I have been praying for Nilah, whether it be me to get her or the owners to change and love her or someone else. To know which door to step through. I know its something so small in the realm of everything else in life, but I can't help my love for animals. I can't help loving Nilah or wondering about her. I want her.

I am going to stop at curves today and see about signing up. Also gonna stop at walmart and apply for a part time job I think. Just to earn some extra money.

Pray for Damon and I that we kind find where we are to be. I am ready to get out of Lakewood, I am ready to settle down and have babies and be a stay at home mom and housewife. Please pray for us.

Friday, April 07, 2006

TGIF...Thank Goodness It's Friday!

Did I mention Friday...??? FRIDAY hhhaaaahhahah woooohoooohahahhahahahah heheeheheheheeeeeeeeeehaahahawooooohooo!

Can ya tell I'm excited! Oh buddy! Now you ask, Kasey do you have big plans? Why thank you for asking, but NO I don't. :p Now I am beginning to talk to myself. *sigh* Moving on.

I made beef stew for Brad's family last night, well I started it on Wed. night and let it simmer all day yesterday. One lady there, who will remain nameless, had THREE bowls. It was gone within 30 minutes. I brought a FULL crockpot with butter rolls on the side. They were really impressed and raved at how good it was. Why am I so happy about this? Well a) believe it or not my husband is the Beef Stew King, I have never made it all by myself. He loves making it so I usually let him. b) the last time we made beef stew to take somewhere I was in my brand new off the lot first ever brand spankin new 1 month old car when someone slammed on their brakes in front of me. I lost have the beef stew. Partly just in the trunk, the other UNDER MY SEAT that my husband had to UNBOLT and take out to get clean! My poor car smelled like stew for weeks. But hey it got rid of the new smell that made me nauseous. Back to why I am so happy they liked it, a) I made it this time and it was (i think) better than Damons' *sticks tongue out* neener, and b) it DIDN'T spill! I also made peach cobbler to take but it didn't get done in time so I just turned the oven off and let it finish slow cooking, it was perfect when we got home. I didn't have all the ingredients so I had to improvise. I have created some pretty awesome recipes by improvising. I think I am a better baker than cook. I don't know. I just love to cook all around the board! Anyway back to my recipe. I took a can of peaches ( want to can my own this year) and a box of yellow butter recipe cake mix. I strained the peaches and mixed the juice with the cake mix, one egg, two tbsp of oil. I put the peaches on the bottom, sprinkled sugar and put bits of butter on them, some marshmallows (weird I know, but it was surprisingly good) and a bit of cinnamon, then I put the cake mixture on top and let it bake. YUMMY and gooey. MMMMMM. I don't even like peaches cus of the texture, but I have been eating this. And with not adding all the extra stuff this one is a lot healthier!

Brad had to be put back on the venilator and he was throwing up most of the night. Continue to pray for him. They say he has had to many visitors and hes trying to respond somewhat so it's stressing him out. I don't believe he's allowed any visitors at this point. Pray for him, they said he's resting really well today. That is good! WOOHOOO, waiting for you Bradley!

What's the plans this weekend folks? We have tornado watches in affect this evening. I love storms! 15 people died in TN last week from Tornado's though, and I don't want to underestimate the power of one. I just like thunder, hail, rain, wind, we have even had the tornado siren go off by our house. I better hush, momma reads this and she says this stuff scares her to hear.

love you all!

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Latest on Brad

I just got some news...not much news...but some.

Brad is basically the same. The doctors say, they need him to respond to a verbal command soon, that it's critical. Other wise Brad will be sent to a Nursing Home rather than Rehab.
I was told that last night he was moving A LOT! Which I would think is good, when his cousin and uncle came in and talked to him he was moving all over the place. Yet they are saying its involuntary. They want him to respond to a voice command, but that doesn't count? I don't get it. Anyway, he is breathing on his own, completely doing everything on his own, he just needs to respond to a verbal command or wake up...one of the two. Pray hard people, God isn't finished with this guy yet. I want this hospital to be amazed.

A post about now

First off EVERYONE CHECK MY MOMMA'S BLOG OUT! She says no one comments, let's show her we care!
http://kdbaby1.blogspot.com

There are so many good and bad things going on in my life right now. I can't spend to much time on them right now as I have work to do. I just wanted to blog a bit that didn't have to do with Brad. Mainly because A) I haven't heard any updates and B) I am in a blogging mood. If there is a blogging mood.

Do you ever feel like your life is at a standstill, a fork in the road, you don't know which way to go? Am I the only one that feels like this?

Do you ever want to change who you are, and act differently so you more reflect what YOU think the "norm" should be?

Do you ever feel like a failure and you are just sad?

I guess I did myself in today as far as happiness. I know what things bother me and bind my day up with sadness. Yet I look at them anyway....I went to a web page about mistreatment of animals. It showed bears in asia who are kept in small cages with a cathetar permanently attached to their gall bladder to collect the bile. So many other things...I hate how people mistreat animals. God did not create them to be treated like that. No we aren't to worship them, but we are to take care of them and treat them kindly. This has so gotten me down, am I silly to pray for these animals that are being tortured all over the world? I do, I pray for them. When I was younger, I would pray every night for the people and kids all over the world who were starving or being abused that God would give them a moment of rest and peace, and for the animals the same thing. Does God really want me to return to that child like faith that He will take care of even the "BIG" small problems of the world. I know Gods main goal is salvation of souls, but I also know He cares about what I care about.

I miss my home, and my family. I have been gone just over two years now from the only life I ever knew. I love my husband, with all my heart. Marriage is work, its had its wonderful ups and sometimes it awful downs. But I wouldn't trade it for anything in this world. I still miss my family though. I miss my animals, I left them all when I got married. It isn't fair to them. My one horse had to be put down after I left because she got injured, my other cat had to be put down because she had a stroke and was suffering. My Aunt died due to complications of a liver transplant, my whole family...they are changing. I am not there. Am I the only one to feel this way? I want to go home.

I am not complaining...don't mistake me....God has been so merciful to me, ME Kasey B...and I am a member of THE Church of God! WHO would have thought that I would ever be found worthy in His sight!? I am so thankful for all God has brought me through. I just need a breakthrough. I need direction. I need answers. God I need you to show me what to do, how to be, I need something and only You can fully understand what I need. Please Please help me.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Updates II

I just talked to Emily, she told me what the doctors said in this mornings rounds.
They THINK the bleeding has stopped. Which is good news. I told Grayson some wrong information though (if you are reading this Gray), I was told that Brad was in a drug induced coma (sedatives) and that was wrong, he is in a coma on his own. Back to the updates. The doctor said, that Brad needs to wake up within two days or he will never wake up from the Coma. He also said, that the bleeding stopped but that bleeding on the brain causes permanent damage and loss of brain cells. They are saying he will go straight to a nursing home if he doesn't wake up and start to show signs of improvement. HOWEVER...the Spirit of God is TOO present at his bedside for me to believe that. There have already been to many miracles for me to believe their report. The Doctors can do no more for Brad, right now he is in God's hands, and HIS alone. God is the master physician. We need to be specific in what we pray for Brad. My prayer is, that God will wake him up and that he will be perfectly Brad, that he will have a desire to serve the Lord like never ever before and use this event as a witnessing tool to all those around him. THAT is my prayer. JOIN WITH ME! WE love you Brad, see you when you wake up in your Bradley self, perfectly COMPLETE!

More Brad Updates

I will give you the info I was given as of last night (for those of you with Myspace you may have already read Wen's info.). PTL The swelling around Brad's brain HAS gone down! That is what we were praying and fasting for, so I am very happy about that. However, we need to pray about another problem that was found once the swelling started to go down. They found that his brain is still bleeding. The doctors were unable to see the bleeding in it's entirety before the swelling had started to go down. From what I understand the doctors say this bleeding HAS to stop. This will greatly affect his recovery if it doesn't. I was told Sis Vicky Bly found a scripture, Ezekiel 16:6~ And when I passed by thee, and saw thee polluted in thine own blood, I said unto thee when thou wast in thy blood, Live; yea, I said unto thee when thou wast in thy blood, Live.
From what I understand, every person that goes in to visit him reads that scripture to him. I have had such a great belief for Brad that he's going to be OK. Last night when I heard this news, I admit, I was happy and sad at the same time for the good and bad news, yet felt a bit defeated. I talked to my momma about it and she said GOD IS STILL ABLE! AMEN!!! That made me feel better and got my faith back on the right track! Brad is going to be himself again, his wonderful crazy self. I KNOW it. I won't let you take him from our lives devil!!! I REFUSE TO GIVE IN! I know there are many out there in blog land/myspace and in friends and family who feel the same way. Remember to keep him in your prayers. Also...Brad is still responsible for his living Expenses for the Month of April. TCOG in Antioch is trying to raise atleast $500 to cover his costs. If you would like to donate (we would like to have the money by this weekend) please let me know. Just post in the comment box and I will find a way to get your information. Beyond money and genrosity, your prayers are what he needs the most! Keep the Faith!

If you would also remember my cousin Troy right now, he is in need of the Lord and to fully surrender to Him. God knows the situation.

Pray for Damon and I...I either want to move back home or buy a house here in TN. I can't keep making my parents take care of my horse..it's not fair to them, my horse, or me. Please pray for us that we find the will of God and that the desires of BOTH our hearts be answered.

Love to you all and Happy Wednesday- oh yeah, pray for me, I am taking over for Sis Emily tonight for Gleaners...I have lot's to do and I need God's help to get it done.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Brad and his impact on life

http://www.flickr.com/photos/fullquiver/

The above link are the pictures of the car Brad was driving (belonging to his Nanny) and the truck he hit. Careful...it's heart breaking.

You never think about things until you are forced to. I never realized how much I really appreciate Brad and what he brings to life until I was forced to wonder if I will get the joy of experiencing him and his crazy self again. He's the "life of the Party" so to speak. He has an amazing smile, almost makes you wanna smile just to see him smile. Its contagious. Why does it take an emergency within our circle of family and friends to get us to think? You know...we all have given Brad a hard time here lately, mainly just joking around. But I don't even want to do that. Life is to precious to do that. First thing I'm gonna do when Brad wakes up, and he is able to understand me is tell him sorry for ribbin him so much. Makes me cry just to think about it. I know some amount of joking is fun and I don't wanna turn into a stick in the mud...I'm just tired of myself and how I joke with people...I am somewhat sarcastic all the time. I need to change at least a little bit. Wake up for us Bradley. We love you.

I know I have been blogging mainly about Brad, but he's all that is really on my mind. Pray for him, he's gonna wake up soon.

Monday, April 03, 2006

ATTENTION, FAST, PRAY, EXPECT HEALING!

Attention all VLB's, tomorrow The Church of God VLB Department and all who will are coming together in fasting and prayer for Brother Brad Moore.

Specifically we are fasting and praying for the swelling on his brain to go down, tomorrow is the critical day.

You may also fast and pray for his further healing as well. Please, whether you know Brad or not, please please pray.

update...

Update on Brad, GOOD NEWS!
The doctors said he is not out of the woods yet, that this is still very much a life and death situation, but that there IS HOPE! Praise the LORD!!!!!!!!!!
They took a brain activity test on Brad, the top of the scale is an 11, Brad is registering at a 5! The doctors don't want him to drop below a 3. He is in the middle of the scale, that is an ANSWER TO PRAYER y'all! The swelling is getting worse, but the doctors said it should peak by tomorrow and Em feels like his brain activity will go up as the swelling goes down! He is also now breathing completely on his own and they are taking the tubes out of his throat because the doctors think they are irritating Brad. They are going to allow him to completely be free of any aid in breathing, however they are going to put a trache hole in just in case. This is such good news, keep Brad in your prayers, THEY ARE WORKING Thank the Lord thank the Lord thank the Lord!!

LADIES DAY, ALABAMA, PRAYER

To say I had a busy weekend is an under statement.

Before I get into my weekend, I would ask that you all pray for Brad Moore. He is a member at Antioch. A lot of you (outside of TN) may know him, he's a very engaging guy and has not met a stranger. You would remember him for his craziness and willingness to make you feel welcome! He was in a very severe car accident early Sunday morning, around 1:30am. He was heading home from a friends concernt in the fast lane of the interstate. Apparently a 1 ton dully pickup had just broke down in the fast lane and the people were still in the truck, from my understanding. According to what his cousin Tommy was told, Brad did not see the truck until right before he hit it, it looks like he tried to swerve and miss it right before the point of contact. He was in a nissan sentra and his airbag did not deploy. He was life flighted to Vanderbilt hospital and his family was notified around 5:30am Sunday morning. He has the worse kind of brain stem injury possible. He was wearing his seatbelt, and miraculously the rest of his body is fine. His bones are fine, his organs are fine, everything is fine with the exception of his severe head injury. His family said he looked like a normal sleeping brad before the swelling started to set in. At this point he is unresponsive. But we understand with this kind of injury that no news or changes early on, are a good thing. Please please pray for him, if you have not already seen this request on other blogs and myspaces'. He is only 25. In my heart of hearts I feel like he will be ok. When the tragedy happened with Brother Tracy in Nov of 04, right away I had a bad gut feeling that it would not turn out good. With Brad, I have felt like he will be ok pretty much from the beginning. I don't wanna give people false hope, or even say I am right. I just am going by my gut feeling inside. I told sister Campbell what I thought, she looked at me really funny and said "you KNOW that, don't you?" Kind of like she understood in a weird way. *getting gooseybumps* We were at the hospital from whenever we got back from Alabama to just after 6:30pm last night. There were lots of people there showing support! In addition to family, there were probably 30-40 more people! Just pray for Brad, the prognosis they gave him, even after surviving, is not good. They say he will never be able to live a normal unassisted life again, like Tammy Hart said....that's not good enough! My God is bigger than that! She's right, our God is the God of Moses who crossed through the Red Sea on dry land, He can for sure touch Bradley's head and brain stem. AMEN! You never know when life will change, I need to learn to live everyday, not taking a single person, moment, or day for granted.

After that it seems kind of weird to blog about anything else.

I will make it quick.

All three boys spent the night Friday night, we watched Napoleon Dynomite.
Saturday, I had only planned on dropping my food off that I was asked to bring and maybe staying for a little bit of Ladies day. Well I got there and just ended up staying the whole time! I was surprised to see my Best Friend from way back there! Tammy H.! Well, I ended up having this grand idea that I should take her home! I called Damon and beeegggged and he finally gave in! So Tammy rode home with me to the house, I packed a quick over night bag and got the portable DVD player and chicken little, and we headed out! Got into Alabama around 8:30, we stayed up watching TV and talking until about midnight! We got the news about Brad the next morning from Chris. We headed back out around noon with Lydia crying as we left (she is soooo cute) and made it into Nashville by around 2 I think. Maybe earlier, then we were at the hospital until 6:30ish. It was a busy weekend, with lots of ups and downs. Ladies day was the highlight, as was Tammy, Brad's news was the bad part, yet in the bad I can see the Glory of whats to come.

love you all, love like no one is watching.